the little boy I knew

the words unspoken

year 2020 was officially being called as the worst year some are even cracking jokes " this year should not be counted to my birthday since I haven't used it " due to some random person in Chinese lab made some mistake altering a virus and experimenting it over bats and some other random person are that bat in his meal the world was under a pandemic situation .to save the world we needed to stay at home at a distance and of all self isolations if a simple symptom of a cold is felt .which gave everyone a lot of time to think and do internet surfing so while I was checking my social media I found a two months old text lying there unseen first I thought to avoid the text which I actually did for the entire day because of the name it read , this person , the only person I felt for the first time who didn't felt anything for me and even if he did things were not same we went from innocent childhood to messy teenage well that's the age things gets messier from having a crush on him to stocking him over phone and even crying my lungs out from ripping of self control to even punching myself my entire life that I was not worth to be love .that one message which reads SORRY ,it was a long message but my eyes freezed over the word sorry because through my life people came in with there own goals and purposes and once they get what they want from me they just leave without looking back without even thinking what impact will there action have on me ....I read it over and over again threw the night I discovered it in my inbox and then replied its okay claiming not to even remembered the thing in past which I did remembered completely which kind of even haunted me for many years of my life but now all i wanted to know why is he texting me now ? what difference will it make and deep down buried feelings just came up floating in front of my eyes .