Almost Is never enough

Chapter 2 Isadora

‘Isa chill you not going to die also put this on,’ He said handing me a black helmet.

I got on. When the bike took off, I closed my eyes it was like shut I held onto him close trying not to die on this bike. When we stopped at the red light that when I open my eyes.

‘The coffee shop near my house is five minutes, so why have we been on this thing for an extra five minutes’ I said 

‘Because were not going to that one,’ He replied

When he started driving again, we finally got to the coffee shop it was small, I looked around as  we went to a small booth. I looked at him and I smiled he noticed it.

‘What’ He said 

‘Nothing I just thought what would your nails look like if they we're painted,’ I said, 

‘Isadora Prince are you thinking about painting my nails’ He said 

I laughed, I walked over to order me a tea along with cookie; I walked back to the table and I break a piece Jackson came back to the table with a coffee.

‘Okay, tell me about your family,’ I said 

‘ My dad left me at nine, my sister and mom got in a tremendous fight ,she stop coming home when she was sixteen ,I don’t know where she is now. It just me and my mom,’ He said 

‘ Oh, I’m sorry I didn’t know,’ I said 

He laughed, I felt scared with his laugh. I broke some of my cookie and sip of tea, it feels weird being out by this.

‘Why family break up, it not our faults, it just out of our control,’ He explained 

‘Yeah, I guess so my parents have been planning everything there, the one who wanted me and Sebastian together,’ I said 

‘Did you not tell them you didn’t want to be with him?’ He asked.

I nodded. I went to explain how my parents went into control my life from since I learned to walk to now with no input from me in my life. Not like they would listen; they think they know better about my life than me. I loved that he listens to me even the minor details.

‘I think it time to take you home,’ He said 

I smiled and then I thought, I might have to get on that death machine again, but I’m having fun. My dad texted me to see if I was okay. I got back on and we drove back to my house.

‘I had fun thanks for the date,’ I said 

My dad came outside before Jackson could kiss me, my father's eyes went to the motorcycle and he at me and then looked at the door. I stormed upstairs why did my dad have to be like that; I slammed my door in a rage.

‘Stop slamming door, young lady you don’t pay for anything in this house,’ He yelled 

‘What is your problem,’ I said 

‘ You're my little girl okay sorry if I’m a bit of protective of you,’ He said 

I laid on the bed staring at the ceiling and pulled out my phone and text Jackson that I’m sorry for my dad's actions. He didn't reply to me In my mind I thought I ruined my chance with Jackson I removed my contacts lends and put on my glasses. Later on as I was sitting and playing with my hair with Bob's burgers in that the background.

*** 

The next two days were peaceful, after a two entire days to myself it was time to going back to school what I’m worried about. I looked through my closet for something to wear as Carson was standing by more door.

‘Do you want to drive you to school?,’ He asked 

‘No, I got a ride is dad still here?’ I asked 

He shook his head no and then I grabbed a plaid skirt and white button up blouse. I flatten my hair I walked to the bathroom to freshen up I texted Jackson to say if he was still okay to drive me to school and not on the motorcycle.

Jackson; Yeah, I’ll be there in ten.

Me; I’ll be ready.

I got dressed and put some make-up on my face when my phone went off; I knew it was time to leave. I grabbed my black high heel boots and ran downstairs with my shoes and bookbag and got in his car.

‘Did you eat breakfast or we can go some?’ He asked 

‘Yeah let’s go,’ I said 

I wrap my hair in a ponytail as he drove off I plugged my phone. We didn’t get into small talk because I felt like we were thinking the same thing.

‘Come, let’s just say what were both thinking, how it's going to be when we get to school and, they see we both get out the same car. Because it's going to be easy for you but for you because your a guy and that just world we live in,’ I said 

‘That not going to happen if anyone wants to start bullshit, I’ll give them bullshit,’ He said 

‘I don’t need you going all protective boyfriend on me that not your job,’ I said 

When we got to the coffee shop, I order a tea and sesame bagel and paid with the money dad gave me for the date. We sat down at a table in the back.

‘This is all going to blow away in like a month,’ He said

‘I doubt that, there going to be news drama about how we’re dating,’ I said 

His eyebrows went up when I said date, then he got a smirk as I rolled my eyes.

‘Dating’ He said 

I smiled and to a sip of my tea I pulled out my phone to answer the phone call to my dad. I didn’t know what to say he can’t know that I was with Jackson.

‘I need you to come to my job after school,’ He told me 

When we got to the school, I could see all eyes on us before we even got out the car. I walked with my head high like there was nothing bother me at all. The school day was quick but was very painful, kids were pointing and staring at me and I just had to deal with it. When I got home, I went to sleep.

* A month later*

The weather slowly change within the month of October we had a three day break because a gas line blew up. So that gave me an excuse to stay home for my birthday and a six-day weekend. There was a knock on my room door. I opened it with a smile and went back to burring myself in my blanket. He came over and yanked it off.

“Happy birthday,” Jackson said 

“I texted you saying, I didn't want to celebrate my birthday,” I said 

He pulled me outside into a car I was still in my pajamas. My parents said nothing to us as he pulled me outside.

“Were spending the weekend together,” He said 

I looked down and got out of the car. He leaned on the car as he was pulling me close.

“We can't just go away for the weekend my parents wouldn't approve,” I said 

“I already asked your mother, and she agreed,” He said 

I smiled at him from the corner of my eye I saw Sebastian. I moved out of Jackson's reach and I looked down at the concrete floor.

“Sebastian, what are you doing here,” I asked 

“I wanted to come here and hand your present in person,” he looked at Jackson “But I see you busy”

“No I'm, not I'm going back upstairs Jackson just wanted to say happy birthday in person too,” I said 

I walked into the house. I didn’t stop to see if they were talking to each other. I pushed my back towards the door. There was a knock at the door and I answered it.

“Sebastian wanted me to hand you this,” Jackson said

He walked over to the fridge and picked a grape off the vine and cleaned it. Before placing it in his mouth and then walking over to me placing the grape in my mouth. 

“Okay, give me ten minutes,” I said 

I ran upstairs, and he followed when we made it to my room. His lips touched mine. He pulled my button's crop top button, his icy fingers grazed my boobs.

‘Stop what if my parents come back,' I said 

“It's weird because your parents think we're dating but we're not,” He said 

I didn't want to talk about this now because this is a conversation about what we are,  I  don't know what we are. I laid on the bed with him checking the ceiling wall I laid on my side his finger pushed some of my hair.

“What am I to you,” I asked

‘’Why the f**k does it matter that what the world does it label it s**t that doesn't need to be' He said  

Of course he was going to say that. He gave me a confusing answer, saying that we’re dating with actually saying we're dating. His finger raised my leg and there was a faint cough from the door of my room until it swung open.

“Hi dad,” I said 

My father shot Jackson a look, I mouthed to my dad to stop I grabbed my sweater on the floor to cover myself. My father sat himself down on the bed in the middle of us, I looked at the door trying to get him to leave. 

'Dad, can you please go?' I asked

'Leave the door open Isabear' My father demand 

My father walked out of the room, I threw some stuff in a bag and changed my shirt and went downstairs, my father threaten Jackson and then we walked out the door. I threw my stuff in the truck's backseat and Jackson pulled off 

“Are you hungry,” he said 

I shook my head and went back into my phone Sebastian was texting this conversation is going to be entertaining.

Sebastian: So what are you two

Me: We’re having fun

Why did he care wasn't he dating Claire after all, he bragged about all on i********: and he thinks that a gift is going to make me beg on my knees for him he is wrong?

Sebastian: Do you love him

Me: that none of your business 

I turned off the phone and looked out the window.

“Where are we going,” I asked 

“Out don't you see we are out,” He said 

I rolled my eyes an hour into the ride, and he stopped at a gas station. The sun was going down.

“We should be at the hotel in like twenty,” He said 

A hotel fancy. I thought at the gas station there was a bearded man just stared at us then he spoke

“How much for the girl,” he said 

“Excuse me, I am not for sale,” I said 

He ignored me and then looked at Jackson for an answer.

“As she said, she not for f*****g sale and women aren't property,” He said 

The old man got up and grabbed one of my boobs. Jackson clenched his fist and jammed into that old man's face. When I got outside, I grabbed Jackson's face and kissed him.

“You didn't have to do that,” I said 

“Yeah, I did he grabbed your boob,” he said 

We got back in the car and he continued to drive to the hotel Jackson wanted to carry me to the room. When we got in our room, I removed my clothes and took out a shirt.

“Is that my shirt,” he said 

I nodded as I walked into the bathroom to remove my makeup.

“what the hell does he mean to do you love him,” Jackson yelled 

I stormed out of the bathroom “Why the hell are looking through my text messages,” I said

I snatched my phone from his hand. I was having fun before he looked through my phone. If there was no trust in this, then what the point of going further in this.

“I bet your father can't wait to hear that I f****d up, so he kicks my ass right,” Jackson said 

“Yeah, he also not going to like that you also had s*x with his daughter, either,” I said 

He smiled at me before placing me on the desk.

'I don't want to fight with you but I'm also going to need my T-shirt back before the end of this trip’ He said 

He pecks my lips once before doing it again I felt something poking me and I just ignored it.I looked down at his growing boner. He looked at me to see what I was looking at. He only pulled his head up by my finger. I looked at him deeply in his ocean eyes 

'Jackson I love you,’ I said, gasping 

He had nothing to say, I just felt stupid to tell him that. I got down, and I went to bed. Maybe he will forget about tomorrow. I turned off the lights, I can't believe I told him I love you.

*Next morning*

When I woke up, he wasn't in bed; I was debating on if I should just go home. He walked out of the bathroom with a towel covering his waist, but I could still see his v-line. I grabbed my phone, and he looked over at me. He handed me a box.

‘What the f**k is this’ I asked 

‘It’s one of you birthday present,’ He replied 

I rolled my eyes and moved it to the desk, I walked to the bathroom I just need a distraction from it all. There was a knock on the door I didn’t want to answer, but I know how he gets. I grabbed the door and opened it. I didn’t know what to say, so I looked at my feet.

‘I’m going to go get breakfast do you want anything,’ He asked

‘I’m not hungry,’ I replied 

I slammed the door and locked it I turned around to turn on the shower there was a knock on the door what the f**k did he want from me.

‘Your dad called he said that Sebastian came over to see you,’ He said  

Why the f**k can't Sebastian Blake leave me the hell alone like it over I moved on.

‘It must have to be important then,’ I said 

‘I love you,’ He said 

I feel like he said I love you because I said my smart comment about Sebastian; I rolled my eyes in disgust, He can’t say I love when he thinks it is going to fix the issue that just sick. I got in the shower and I walked out the bathroom with a towel covering me I grab my bag, staying silent the entire time.

‘Come on Isa don’t be like that’ He said 

‘Don’t do what you can’t say I love you thinking it's going to solve all of our s**t’ 'You either love me or you don’t ’ I said 

I walked back into the bathroom with my clothes and stuff; he gave me a soft knock on the door I took a glass of water. 

‘I want to tell you about my ex Heather ,’ He said 

‘Why would I want to hear about you ex,’ I said 

My wet hair hit my back , I took the hair drier and started drying it, Jackson made his way in here and  sat on the sink, I went over to grab my marble, purple bra, my black panties and a hoodie dress. Jackson pulled the ripped cheer skirt from the bag.

‘Why you bring this, I thought you quit cheer,’ He asked 

‘ I'm getting it tailor and then going back to cheerleader,’ I said  

After I finished getting ready I got dressed, I’ve felt stressed without coffee, I grabbed my handbag and walked out. Jackson followed me into the hallway. There was this girl she had dark brown hair and her eyes were brown and her skin was medium golden. It was glowing she looked at Jackson and then at me and I took a guess that she was Heather . She had a curvy body; she was beautiful.

‘I had fun last nig-’ She said before he cut her off 

‘Heather’ He said 

‘What does she not know, I could see how this look he's getting drinks with his ex-girlfriend getting and leaving his new girlfriend,’ She said with a pushy smirk

‘I’m not his girlfriend,’ I mumbled 

I turned around to the room all I heard was them arguing; I heard stories about Jackson, but I just ignored them. I started jamming stuff in my bag as Jackson came through the door. Maybe I'll hitchhike a ride from some stranger.

‘Yeah, get drinks with your ex's while you have a girl in your room,’ I said 

“I didn’t even know she was here’ He said 

I just laughed. Of course he didn’t. He much have planned this and asked Heather to be apart from the joke like it would have been funny as hell. Now I have a call from Katherine what the hell did she want from me.

‘ What the f**k do you want? 'I asked 

‘What do you think mommy dearest would think when she finds out your father is sleeping with me,’ She said 

I threw my phone at the wall so Jackson an asshole, Kathrine sleep with my father and I'm butt of all the jokes.

‘I'm going home,’ I said 

Jackson had Heather to worry about, and I had my family to deal with two different things for two different people.                                                                                                                   

'You want to go home, I'll take you home' He said 

We walked to the elevator my eyes went to him here and there but wander to the ground when we got out the loud of the lobby of people coming in and leaving out. When we got into his car I rolled up in a ball and looked out the window.

‘ I’m stopping to get you something to eat , I don’t want to hear I’m not hungry bullshit,’ He said  

‘You'll just going to be wasting your money,’ I said 

 I needed to talk to dad when I get home I want to hear if it was true did he sleep with Katherine. I rested my arm on the black leather armrest and he tried to grab it and I just jerked it away.

‘Don’t’ I said, 

‘Why because you think I waste all this time to get you, so then I could go ruin that by being with my ex's?’ He asked 

I didn't bother answering him. I was just worrying about my issue at home my father could be a child monster. The man that said he would protect me from them is that man. I started texting my dad to get an answer because I needed them I felt my head was going to blow.

Me: Dad, do you have anything to hide 

Dad: What are you talking did mom tell you

Me: Wait mom knows

Dad: Yeah, we have been hiding from you for a while, when Carson found out and he was mad 

I couldn’t believe that sick I turned off my phone. He was telling people, and they didn't warn me about what could happen.

‘I can’t go home, I can’t explain why I just can’t. As much as it pains me to stay with you,’ I said 

Jackson's phone went off he grabbed it before I could see who was calling him, maybe it was Heather  wanting to get back with the love of her life. He sigh the words mom; I guess someone doesn't get along with there mother. He put his phone on speaking.

 ‘Hey where are you I went to your place I didn’t see you there,’ She said 

She had a sweet voice and Jackson was at his mother. She just wants to see her son, her daughter left her along with her husband, I don't know the full story so I should butt out.

‘Yeah, I’m hanging out with Isadora, I told you that, you just want something to b***h about,’ He said 

Why does he talk to his mother like that, also does he talk about me to his mother? I wonder what he tells her? How long would he talk about me to her we knew each other for three months was he bring me up randomly? He hung up the phone on his mother mid-sentence. I moved my hand back on the armrest and he touched it with his thumb.

‘My father had an affair with an eighteen-year-old student and  my mom, brother knew. Katherine the girl and now everywhere I go daughter of a child-fucker I could forget college.’I rant 

‘You’ll have me and you shouldn’t have to be punished for something you father did, can you open the gift,’ He said handing me the small black box from earlier

I open it and it was key inside, I looked at Jackson he nodded before I could answer. He gave me a key to his place. We were waiting for the light to turn green I leaned over and kiss him he tried to remove my seat belt .

‘We can’t okay are you trying to cause an accident on the road,’ I said

My phone went off it was my dad I didn’t have time for this like what was I going to say to him like what he did was sick. Jackson seen how stress I was and grabbed my phone from my hand.

‘He going to think something up like I’m going to go to the police or something,’ I said 

“Why aren’t you’ He asked 

He stopped in there was walk trail he got out and then walked over to me and open my door he held out his hand. I grabbed it being hesitant and got out the car he told me to get on his back.

‘My fa-’I said before he 

‘Don’t say because he's your father,’ He said 

He had a point just cause he had a hand in my procreation doesn't mean I own him life; we got out of the car and started to walking. When we got to the hill Jackson placed a blanket down I couldn’t help but look at my phone. California had beautiful walking trail, but that beautiful is ruin with Kathrine call I tried to turn my attention to something else.

‘So what did you to drink,’ I asked 

‘Isadora Prince are you jealous of my ex,’ he said shocking tone 

Why would be jealous of Heather , she give me Zendaya vibes and who doesn't like Zendaya I kinda understand why Jackson dated  her and she doesn't care about was others think abut her and she what on her mind?

‘I just needed to talk to her,’ He said  

I wonder what he needed to say to her I was kinda getting hungry now I got up, and he grabbed my hand and we walked back to the car. When we got to the car, I laid back on the seat and Kathrine texted me.

Kathrine: Listen, answer the f*****g phone 

Me: Why, what my dad did has nothing to do with me

Kathrine: I see how you and your dad are the same, like how you knew I liked Jackson, and you started f*****g him 

Me; Nobody knew we're hooking-up you had a good two months to ask him out.

Kathrine: Let me guess you 're with him now 

Me: Yeah, he's my boyfriend

I put my phone up I'm done with all this drama it's stressing me out, Jackson’s phone went off I could tell by whoever it was they pissed him off. Then I realize it was Kathrine I heard b***h laugh in the distance as I looked out the window. I don't know what they're talking about but I don't want him to have a deal with it this is my issue.

 ‘You don’t have to do that okay this is me and my family issue not yours’ I told him

He gave that look like I got it taken care of it as I looked out the window. I took out my phone and texted my dad because this has to end.

Me: Dad, I’m sorry but I’m going to the police

Dad: For what did Jackson do something to you

Me: Dad don’t play with me I’m not dumb I know what you did with Kathrine

Dad: Isadora, how did you find out

Me: so it's true 

I slammed my phone down on the armrest and cried I can’t believe my dad who grew up as my best friend did this. Who wants to believe that there dad is a monster, in my mind I'm waiting to wake from a bad dream.

“I need to go home,” I said 

‘You don’t have to go home if you don’t want to,’ Jackson said 

I nodded and assured him it was just for clothes, nothing more. My house was nowhere longer than fifteen minutes from the hotel. When I got home, my father was on the couch he got up when he saw me come through the door.

‘Don’t okay I’m here to get clothes and school stuff.’I said, 

I rushed upstairs knowing that my father would come after me, when I got up stares I tried to barricade the door. My father yelled and banged at the door I don't think I was ever this scared of my father besides the time he burned me with curling iron for quitting ballet..

‘You’re not going anywhere were going to fight this as a family,’ He said 

My dad was scaring me somehow he found their way in pulling me and his grasp was strong I could see the anger, the pain in my father's eyes. He finally let me go after realizing what he did I knew that this would be a good time to run out the door. I ran downstairs to Jackson I explained everything to Jackson went back in the house with me. 

‘Go get your stuff,’ He said 

When I got back upstairs, my mother exit her room in a robe she followed me into my room. I ignored her and went back to packing as Jackson helped. My mother looked confused I don't even know what going on in my mind.

'Someone called the cops your dad was just placed in the car,' Jackson said

'Can someone explain to me what going on,' My mom said 

I walked downstairs there were cops trying to ask me questions and I can't even think there voices are faint. I heard words like text message, photos and phone calls but I don't know what sentence it matched with I just heard words from time to time. One officer picked up a picture of ten-year-old me smiling with my father at my baseball game when I was ten. I remember that day well mom couldn't show up cause she had to do some s**t that was to important than being there for her child. That was the day I found out all love ends badly and that nobody, not even a soul, meant to be happy.