Shades of Life

Her Past

Ever since I was a kid, I loved princess stories. My mom is a big fan of animation so she was the one who introduced me to Tom and Jerry and instantly it became my favorite but when I grew up I loved princess stories and Barbie movies. I was obsessed and to some degree I still am.

I still believe in finding my Prince Charming, do I sound delusional?

Well, you are not wrong. In this society and with this generation finding a true person is closer to null.

When I met Vishwa, my ex to be exact I fell for him hard.

Why? You may ask.

And let me answer, there were several reason.

He was sweet, thoughtful, kind and a perfect package that is until I found out his real intentions.

And now I hate sweet. If someone is really sweet to me, I just want to claw their eyes out. If someone gives me attitude, I swoon over them.

Yeah, I’m that kind of weird.

I had no idea that his father worked in one of my dad’s business venture before. First day of college when dad dropped me off, he was me with dad. I wouldn’t say I’m the hottest girl in the world but I’m beautiful. I have good facial features that I inherited from my mom including my black wavy hair.

Yeah, I was one of those girls who hated curly hairs but longed for straight hairs.

Now, I’m ashamed of myself as curly hairs are more beautiful than other sets and I’m thankful to have them.

So, moving on…

When he saw me that day, I came into his radar. I usually stayed with my gang of high school friends and after few months he got close to one of my guy friends. At that time, I didn’t know how manipulative he was so I don’t blame my friend. He used to join us everywhere we went. Slowly, he became close to everyone and including me.

Yes, still very ashamed!

He was funny and jolly. He gave special attention to me and like a fool I found it charming. Not that he was the first guy trying to court me but he was the first guy who took his time to get to know me. Now I know, he just wanted to know my dad and my family’s worth.

I never thought an 18 year old guy could be this devilish and manipulative.

As months went by, we got really close. He was not a bad looking guy, he was tall and I guess that checked out every other thing for me. Right before our second semester exam, he proposed to me. And I still can’t believe I said yes.

I was up in my head about first love and the jitters, the butterflies, the hot feeling that you get from the person you like. We dated for 5 months and let me tell you we were a star couple. Everyone knew about us and some of our teachers too.

You all know how nosy Indian teachers are.

It was all roses and butterflies until one of my close friend came and told me something.

She broke us up and I love her for that.

You see, as he was a very charming guy a lot of girls took interest of him. No one knew what kind of a compulsive liar he was.

And for some awful reason I trusted him.

Even though he was interested in me, except well for my father’s money, I never put out.

Call me a prude but I was not comfortable with physical intimacy and I thought he respected it as he never forced me when I told him to stop.

That was my first relationship and I had my own insecurities. Being a single child, I was spoilt rotten. I was sheltered from evil my whole life and now I know my extended family members are more dangerous than a poisonous snake.

I got to know from my friend that he was seeing another girl who was a senior. When I heard about it, I didn’t believe her but I didn’t let it pass either. I’m a very skeptical person, though I trusted him I just couldn’t shake off this weird feeling that I had.

He stayed in a room made by his other two friends. Though he had a house in the city, he asked his parents to stay separately to enjoy engineering life.

We used to meet up in that room and spend some quality time.

When my gal friends got to know about this, there were more skeptical then me and was protective of me. Though they treated him as their friend, you know what they say ‘Sisters before Misters’.

They came up with a plan, they started checking up about our relationship more than often. I didn’t think much about that at that time as our third semester exam was closer. I wanted to avoid all the negative energy and just study.

On the last day of our exam, my friends came up with a plan. I had a plan with him to go out and spend some time together but he cancelled it saying that he is going out with his family as some relatives from out of town are here. I agreed but I did feel fishy though as he usually avoids his family.

My friend’s house was near to his room, just a couple of blocks away. So, my friends planned to hold a party or girl’s night at her house.

I was excited at the thought that I could meet him when he comes back from the family dinner.

We all got to her house, we sat around and talked for hours and just goofed around. Mainly, gossiped. After that we walked some movies and went for dinner. Once, dinner was over they all got ready for a walk which was weird because we never did that before.

I kept texting him to see if he came back from the dinner but he never responded.

We all started walking outside her house and one of my friend suggested we go to the next block as there was nice shade so we agreed and after 10 minutes of walking around talking and having fun they stopped right outside his room.

I looked at him in confusion as to why they stopped here. He didn’t respond which clearly meant he was still at that dinner. At least, that’s what I thought. They were like ‘Let’s go knock, may be he might be back and his phone’s battery must be over’. I contemplated for a second but was like ‘What the hell, what’s the worst that could happen’ and knocked on his door.

After few minutes of knocking ringing the bell, I told them that he must not be back but they were insisting of knocking some more. Giving them weird look, I stayed back and the very next minute he opened the door in his shorts.

I exclaimed hi to him but he stood there shocked and all my friends rushed in pushing him aside. They kept asking about his roommates and went into his and his friend’s bedrooms. I stood there shocked by their behavior thinking ‘What has gotten into them’ but stopped when we a heard a high pitched squeal followed by my friends curses.

I looked at him who stood there shocked. I asked him what happened and he panicked and I like a fool I actually got worried about him.

My friends came out of his room dragging a girl out who was in her inner wears.

I stood there shocked not knowing what to say. He started blabbering and stammering while I just starred at that girl. I was blank and numb.

He started saying that she was one of his friend’s sister and was staying here in his friend’s room but I couldn’t pay any attention.

What the hell is happening.

Is all I could think about.

I stared at him in teary eyes and punched him as hard as I can on his face. I’m sure I heard his nose break. One of my friend who we called Lady Bheem, kicked him in his family jewels.

Good, that would keep him from sticking it in other girls.

That night my friends took me back to my friend’s house and let me cry. Not for loosing but for being such a fool. After a while, they told me how they heard from one of our friend who they told to keep an eye on him, that the senior girl would be going back to Delhi and this would be her last day here. He gave my friends confirmed news that Vishwa’s roommates will be out to give him some privacy and so they took me there to show me his true colors. They told me that they found out when the exam’s started and as I wasn’t spending any time with him during exams, they didn’t tell me not wanting to ruin my exams.

I’m not ready to trust another guy after him, but I know I will when I find the one for me.

Yeah, I still believe in finding prince charming.

Not a knight in shining armor, this princess doesn’t need no protection.

She can handle herself very well and with having friends like I do, I’ll be completely fine.