I’ve never felt love before. I just never had it in my life.
If you would ask me, I couldn’t tell you what it’s like. Its smell, its taste, its feeling, or its warmth. I could only guess.
I think you can find it in these little things. The taste of your favorite cake just out of the oven when you get home from school. The smell of freshly picked strawberries. The feeling of a soothing hug when you need comfort. The warmth and security of knowing you are accepted and wanted. Because someone who loved you did all those things for you. I never had that.
My father never showed any kind of affection towards me. The only feeling he had for me was hate and deception. He blamed me for my mother’s death. He could never forgive me even though I was just a small helpless baby.
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