THE BILLIONAIRE'S SECRET ( MxM))

10. LUSTING FOR HIM!

LUSTING FOR HIM

RYAN'S POV

The night was long. I couldn't wait for morning to come. In fact, I was not able to get any sleep.

I kept tossing and turning in bed, hoping that morning would come sooner.

I was under stress. I didn't have the peace of mind all and Sundry have. I was being followed and threatened and this freaked me out. I wish that I had someone to talk to .

I am always alone. My previous job could not allow me to have friends hence most of the time I am always lonely.

It is boring for sure. Humans are social beings and we all need that someone to talk to in moments like this.

I checked my watch but it was only 12:00am in the night. The night was still young.

Since insomnia had hit me so hard, I decided to Netflix and Chill. I scooped a small amount of ice-cream from the fridge and that is what I snacked on as I watched the last season of The Queen of The South.

I was hardly two episodes give when a thought struck my head. I quickly switched from Netflix to Google.

I quickly typed his name, "BRODY COX" and from there, I started going through his pictures.

Damn! My boss is so hot. My eyes were feasting on his abs like a home driven teenager.

He is going to be the death of me, I swear. If I want to survive, then I have to be as far away from him as possible. Being close to him will make me want to kiss him and hold him close to me.

Fuck! Just by looking at his photos, I realised that I was turned on. OMG! I have fallen for him so hard. I never imagined that this could happen to me so soon.

He is my boss. Even though I hope that the two of us might end up together, the situation is unpractical. Brody is the CEO and has a name to protect but as for me, I am just a cleaner. Someone he can ever look at with those eyes I want him to look at me with.

This is saddening by the way. It is really hard to fight what I am feeling yet I know that what am feeling will make me hurt everyday.

No matter what I think or do, Brody will never love me let alone get close to me.

The best thing to do is to fight the feeling. Heartbreaks are worst than physical pain and that is not what I wanted for myself.

I want to be loved.

At around 3:00 am in the morning, I retired to bed. The only thing that gave me hope was that, I would end up dreaming about Brody and this was going to surely make me happy.

At least in my dream,everything will be so real and perfect even if that is not the case in my day to day life.