ISLAMIC POEMS

9. Change Me Ya Allah

CHANGE ME YA ALLAH

I know that I have my bad habits

And they go on a long list

I blind myself from thinking

That Allah is the Most Forgiving.

My dress code shows my awrat

Only because I want to look pleasant

But I do know I need to cover myself someday

So for now, I'll enjoy being myself today.

My love for pop music keeps me on the go

I sing along to every lyrics that I know

Even if I have a dusty Qur'an on the shelf

It won't matter 'coz I can't understand it by myself.

The call for prayer has sounded

I'm busy watching a movie instead

I just can't do obligatory prayers

My mind's too busy with something else.

Later tonight, I have a romantic date

With the person I'm in a relationship with

I'm a mature adult and I know what I'm doing

I am confident that what we have is a real thing going.

Then drinking alcohol is unavoidable

Because it is the norm, after all

Partying and going home late is the life

Nothing's wrong with a bit of fun every once in a while.

But...

My heart is empty with reasons I cannot comprehend

And there's a void that cannot be filled by company of friends

Something inside me know there's gotta be more to life than this

But I'm just too weak to give up my bad habits.

As I lie awake here in my bed

The rain pours hard and I feel the sadness

I long to give life a new meaning

I can't ignore that there's something missing.

Closing my eyes, feeling my heartbeat

Opening them wide, then sitting up straight

Listening to the rain, I started to contemplate

How I have caused my very own blindness.

Of course there's a God and HE is Allah

And a real Muslim engages in Salah

And Muhammad (s.a.w) is HIS Messenger

I was told that he among mankind is the best example.

I cannot change my past ya Rabb

But I want to start a new life

I need to know about You My Lord

And in Qur'an, therein to us You spoke.

I seek for repentance of my sins

I pray for Your Guidance and Enlightenment

Only in worshipping You can I ever be free

From the danger of pleasures so temporary.

Change me ya Allah, purify my heart

Give me a chance, a brand new start

Let it be not too late for me to be a Muslim

Surround me with people of good influence.

Change my goals in the dunya

Let me work hard for the Akhira

There where everlasting happiness exist

There where successful are the believers.

Transform my evil deeds into good deeds

Teach me to suppress my desires and needs

This world can be a prison for the mumin

Hence grant me the patience and perseverance.

Change my attitude of abusing your kindness

Of not feeling guilty upon doing a bad deed

Allow me to let go of the haram things

And that if I choose YOU, I can never be broken.

Change me ya Allah and grant me Jannah

Because in Jahannam, there's endless trauma

Above all ya Rabb, let me get to know YOU more

So that my submission upon Islam will never waver.

Ya Rabb, You alone can help me be Your Slave

Here I am, praying and trying to be brave

For none can ever guide anyone to the straight path

Other than Allah, to Whom I too shall be brought back.

Let me not waste the life and blessings You've showered

Let me not be one of the misguided

Change me ya Allah, ya Allah change me

I can only rely upon Your Will and Mercy.

Ameen.