I just want to be loved

Thrown under the bus

Twenty four hours a day, seven days a week, four weeks a month and twelve months a year. A year has gone by and my baby is a year and two months old. It's time I went back home and faced reality. Luca must be twenty five years and I'm turning twenty one in August. Yazz left to visit her parents in France . They hardly come to their own country.

Yesterday, I spent the day packing my clothes and Ina's because the apartment I found is fully furnished and I already bought everything else for it. I take my bath and when I'm done, my outfit is layed out on the bed, obviously placed by Rose who was ironing them. Rose is my helper and a very nice petite lady. I wear my white sexy knit ribbed two piece crop top and long skirt pairing my outfit with black fur sandals. Im meeting up with Martin when I get there because I miss him and he wants to see Ina so badly. I top off my look with a messy bun and some tendrils.

I walk back into my room and find Rose placing Ina on the bed after giving her a bath and I decide to take over.

"Hey my little princess" I kiss her on her forehead and tickle her making her laugh.

"Mama" she says breathlessly causing me to stop.

" Yes baby"

"Dada"

" You are going to see him baby"

Suprisingly, the first word she said was dada the first time she spoke. She learnt how to walk in her seventh to eighth month and I made sure to capture every moment.

I dress her up in black ripped jeans, a black jumper written "I'm dad's little angel" with black and white converse. I also style her hair in a messy bun. My little angel is my little twin though she has some of her father's features.

When I'm done, I look around and sigh. Im going to miss this place. It has memories of my baby and I'm not selling it. I ask Rose to help me put the bags in the car.

"Ina" she looks at me and walks towards me with her hands in the air wanting to be carried and I do. Walking into the living room, I'm suprised Izzy is here. Ina starts to wiggle wanting to be carried by him.

"Hi , Izzy what a surprise?"

"Couldn't let my two mamas leave without saying goodbye" Izzy wanted a relationship with me but I told him I'm not ready. We have made out a couple of times but not the big step. He hugs me and I retain the hug.

"Im going to miss you Izzy" I say as my eyes get teary.

""Im going to miss you too baby girl and I'll come visit you soon before I leave for Russia". He kisses Ina on her forehead and she hugs him tightly puckering her lips for him to kiss her and he does.

I go back in the house and tell Rose to be cleaning the house once a month. I give her this months pay and bid her goodbye. Izzy already has Ina strapped in her car seat and he's talking to her.

"Bye little Izzy" he tells her kissing her forehead and she starts laughing "bye! bye! bye!" She screams and makes silly noises and she looks cute.

He turns around looking at me longingly with hooded eyes.

"You look sexy little mama" he pulls me to him by my waist and kisses me while rubbing my butt because he knows it turns me on.

"I'll miss this big butt" he says squeezing it and puts his head on my shoulder.

"Okay I have to hit the road now. You know I have six hours ahead of me."

"He opens my door and waits for me to take my seat. He looks at Ina and she's sleeping, this girl sleeps all the time. He kisses me again and lifts my skirt a little and the next thing I know is my thong been moved to the side and my folds been caressed. We kiss deeply and I suppress my moans when he pumps one finger and it's not long before I c*m undone on his fingers.

"Take care of yourself and my baby little mama" he say with a smirk and kisses me passionately before our final goodbyes and I hit the the road.

After six hours of driving, to which I had to speed in some areas with no traffic, we finally arrived. Ina slept again, I guess she was tired of talking to herself. I went to mum's place because I'll be moving to my house tomorrow. I tell mum I'm going to meet Martin.

"Shay you just got here and Israel is tired"

"Mum I'll be back, Martin wants to see her. He has never seen her in person."

"Okay but get back early my baby needs to rest" she says dismissively giving Ina back to me.

I drive to East Park Mall and Martin tells me to meet him at Kegg and Lion which is also a bar and grill. I know this is risky because Chicago's is at the same mall and might bump into Luca. I park my car waking Ina up and she's looks around looking so lost.

"Mama?" She calls out more like a question as she rubs her eyes.

"Yes baby I'm here" I say and pick her up.

We make our way towards Kegg and Lion getting stares from people while others are practically eye r****g me. I adjust my baby on my right hip. Martin calls me telling me where to find him. In no time, I see him but he's not alone. He's with someone who's back is facing me. He has a man bun and I don't know any man with long hair.

Immediately Martin sees me, he gets up and gives me a hug. He tries to get Ina but she refuses. Im suprised the man at the table is still in the same position. Martin pulls out a chair for me and as I'm about to take my seat, I look at the man's face and it's like I've been slapped in the face.

The moment I've been dreading is finally here. My mouth is hung open and my heart is beating rapidly. The man sitting there is non other than the famous, arrogant and egoistic hunk, Luca Castillo.

"Shayna it's nice to see you after all these months or should I say years?" He says with his signature smirk.

Im lost for words, I want to say something but my mouth keeps opening and closing like a fish. Ina starts wiggling stretching her arms for Luca to get her and he does.Do the Castillo's know their own blood. I turn to Martin and it's clear he threw me under the bus. I wish the ground could swallow me but I have to face reality.

Luca keeps looking at Ina intently and kisses he forehead. She starts touching his face playing with his beard and hair.

"Dada dada" she keeps calling him while laughing "mmmmm" she puckers her lips for a peck and he pecks her lips.

"Yes principessa, dada is here" this confirms my suspicion and I feel bad for keeping her away.

"Luca I'm sorry" I say with fear. He gives me a glare

"This is not the time nor the place." He says lowly gritting his teeth. I shut my mouth facing anywhere but him.

Martin tells me he wants to talk to me privately. I follow him not before telling Luca to take care of Ina to which he doesn't reply. When we are out of earshot, he looks at me.

"Shay I'm sorry I couldn't keep your secret. He kept bugging me about you and why you left."

"It's fine I'm the one at fault here" I reply as I hug him. He says he has to meet someone and leaves. I walk back to the table and Ina is busy with her dad. I call her but she doesn't pay any attention to me.

"What's her name?" Luca asks

" Inaya Israel Castillo" he looks at me intently.

"You gave her my last name?"

"Yes"

He nods his head and continues with whatever he was doing. He kisses her all over her face and she starts clapping while kissing him back on the cheeks. She holds his cheeks pulling his face to hers and she pecks his lips . That seems to amaze her because she laughs and claps her tiny hands again.

My phone goes off and it's Izzy requesting for a video call. I pick up the call and his face pops up.

"Hey baby"

"Hi Izzy how are you?"

"Im good thanks, what's up?"

"Where's my baby?" I turn the phone towards Ina so that she can see him. When she hears Izzy calling her, she turns around smiling widely and starts waving trying to kiss him through the phone leaving sloppy marks on my phone.

"I miss you mamas. Hi " he must be saying hi to Luca who seems to be fuming with anger. If looks could kill, Izzy would be dead.

He grabs the phone and before I can snatch it back he says "whatever your name is I don't want you calling my wife ever again." And cuts the call.

"Wife my foot, give my phone back" he puts my phone in his pocket and talks to Ina like nothing happened.

"Luca what's wrong with you?"

"Have you been bringing other men around my daughter? It seems your w*****g is still lurking around even after having a baby. Have you no shame woman?"

"Luca I won't let you insult me like you used to. Im not the same girl you walked over. I grew up Luca and even if I have someone else, how does it bother you? Now if you think I'm going to sit here and take your insults then you can forget about seeing your baby. For once respect me if not as a woman then as the mother of your child" I seethed with anger.

"Im sorry" what? Did I hear Luca apologize? I put on a goofy smile.

"Im so famished, can we order something to eat now?" I ask.