CHAPTER 32 Jake wasn’t at the Ronald McDonald house when I got back. I wasn’t surprised, and I was too exhausted to waste any energy wondering where he went. He could have been at a bar getting drunk with Charlene for all I cared. I needed to think. Ask myself if it was right for me to stay mad at him. He shouldn’t have cheated on me. That was stupid. But he felt bad about it, and he came clean. Which is more than I’ve done. I’ve got my secrets, and I plan to keep it that way. What Jake doesn’t know won’t hurt him. Except there’s the guilt, too. Part of me thinks that Elder Tom’s right. God’s punishing me for my sins by making Natalie suffer. I can’t change what I’ve already done. That’s why we call it the past. But after our fight, I started wondering if I should tell Jake about what