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I drove away at di ko alam kung saan ako nagpunta basta liko nalang ako ng liko kapag may makikita akong kanto. I hate this feeling, bakit kailangan pang magkaganito?
"Sobra na akong nahihirapan at nasasaktan, why?" I whisper and let the tears run down to my cheeks while I'm heading on unfamiliar way that I never saw before
"I wish leion is here with me" I said and wipe my tears gently while I keep looking at the surroundings na nararaanan ko.
It's getting late and habang tumatagal ay nagiging mapuno ang daanan sa kalsada at umoonti ang mga nakakasalubong Kong sasakyan, I feel lonely at and the pain is killing me.
"Leion" I whisper and his face flashed on my mind, he look happy and lovely
"I love you my Aubrey, I'm here for you, I will always love you and save you kahit buhay ko pa ang kapalit, just for you my Aubrey" he said and caress my left cheek while staring straight to my eyes and his smile, so sweet and make my heart melt and the butterflies on my tummy, they're acting wild inside and my mind is shaking
"I love you too leion, I can't imagine myself without you" I said and smile at him while holding his hand, he close his eyes at pinagdikit ang noo namin dalawa
"You're my one and only, my Aubrey" he whisper and his lips gently brush in my lips
"You're my one and only too leion" I said and parked my car, I used the hood of my jacket dahil sa malamig naman talaga sa Canada but bawal akong mahamugan lalo na't buntis ako at ang buntis ay napakaselan
"Wow" I said with amusement on my voice while I can't shift my gaze on other direction because of the beauty of city lights
This scene make my system relaxed. I wish leion is here while taking care of me.
"Please, hug me if hear me" I whisper habang nakapikit at dinadama ang bawat hangin na dumadaan sa katawan ko.
"Magkakasipon ka nyan pati lalamigin ang baby mo" he said saka ako niyakap sa likod ko
"N-nick" I utter saka napapikit at sunod-sunod nang pumatak ang mga luha ko saka hinilig ang ulo ko sa balikat nya at hinawakan ang kamay nya na nasa tyan ko at nararamdaman ko ang mainit nyang kamay sa tyan ko at hinaplos ng marahan
"Salamat, salamat kase lagi kang andyan kahit na pinagtatabuyan kita nick" I said saka sinandal ang ulo ko sa balikat nya
"I'm always here for you Aubrey, kahit iwanan ka nang lahat, andito lang ako para sa baby mo" he said and caress my tummy
"You're such a good man nick, nakakatawa lang ng pagkakataon na nagkakilala tayo, it was unexpected, even this. Di ko ineexepect na ikaw makakasama ko. I thought I will face these battle alone, but you taught me how to share my problems when its too much to solve" saka ako napangiti ng iharap nya ako sa kanya at tinitigan ang mga Mata ko
"Were here for you Aubrey I would like to take away all of your problems para di kana mahirapan, I can't see you in that way, its hard for me to saw you suffer that much" he said and sighed
"Magiging okay din ako, time make the wound heal, and the scar will be the trophy that remind you how tough person you are" I whisper and let my tears run down to my cheeks, napakahirap lang tanggapin na wala na sya, na iniwan nya na ako. Akala ko Hindi sya susuko sakin.
Dapat Sana Hindi nalang ako nanakbo sa labas ng garden, Sana Hindi nalang ako pumayag na magpakasal agad nang araw na yon, Sana hinayaan ko syang magpaliwanag, Sana hinayaan muna ako na bigyan ng pagkakataong makasama sya, I'm not ready to loss him, not this time, even not in the other time, I want him to love me and have a happy family
"Aubrey, masaya na sya kung nasaan man sya ngayon so stop blaming yourself, its not your fault okay?" I just nod and wipe my tears saka nya naman pinatungan ang jacket ko at napatingala kami sa langit, the snow is falling
"Snow flakes, oh god" I said saka napaikot-ikot habang dinadama ang snow na tumatama sa balat ko, it feels so good
"Kapag babae si Lianna Snowe at kapag lalaki ay Leiongrei flyames" I randomly said habang pinapanood ako ni nick sa bawat kilos ko at nakangiti sya habang pinapanood ako
"Nick" I calk his name and smile, I mean I show my biggest smile
"Thank you for everything and taking care of me" I said saka naman sya lumapit sakin at niyakap ng mahigpit
"Honestly, could I stay at your side and let me take care of you, pati narin ang baby mo?" He ask saka naman ako napangiti ng mabilis at hinawakan ang kamay nya
"You can, but if you feel ashamed at me because of my situation well don't obligate yourself, I'm not your responsibility, you're free to do everything that you want to" saka naman sya tumawa ng mahina
"I don't feel ashamed to you Aubrey, I knew that you can do this and you can handle, you're a tough lady kaya" ngumiti ako saka nya naman hinawakan ang magkabilang kamay ko
He look straight to my eyes and his eyes told so many stories that he never said to other
"If you're ready just tell me okay? I'm not- damn it" he cuss and look away na para bang nahihiya sakin at tinalikuran ako
"What is it nick? Come on spill it" I said saka sya nahihiyang hunarap saakin at huminga ng malalim at napapikit ng Mariin
"I said I really l-like y-y-you" he utter saka tumalikod at nagumpisa namang mamula ang tenga nya that make me laugh hard
"What a confession nick, but I like the way you blush like a tomato" I tease him saka ako napaupo sa ko
"Stop making fun of me! Its hard to confess my true feelings when I saw how bad your situation is and all I can do for you is to help you stand again and help you with all that I can offer" he said and bury his face in my arm and I sigh while looking at the city lights
"Everything's gonna be alright, its just, I'm not ready to let myself move forward." Saka naman ako napahawak sa buhok ni nick saka marahang hinaplos ito saka naman humigpit ang pagkakayakap nya sakin
"I'll make you feel better, I promise"
-ilysb
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