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Seke dragged his body from the sleepdisk. He’d never felt so heavy in his life. Grief over breaking his vow to Becka brought back the guilt of her death, as strongly as if it had just happened.
He wasn’t sure if the fact that vecking Leora had been the most satisfying experience of his life made it better or worse.
Worse. Because knowing that having her had been better than Becka—more satisfying on every level—not just the physical one—only increased his guilt.
Worse—because he didn’t know how to keep it from happening again. How to get her out of his mind and heart. How to save himself from the crushing shame.
It was early—still dark on Ocretia—but Zandians didn’t require as much sleep as humans. He stepped into the washtube to clean up then dressed and left the chamber. Stars knew
