Waves Of Emotion

Chapter 6 Dad's talk

Bella

Dad decided to stay in the house for few days na andito sya sa Manila. Bahay niya parin ito, siya ang naghirap at nagpundar, sarili niyang sikap. It’s only me, mom and our youngest stay here. Wala ng lalaking pumupunta dito simula nong nag-away kami ni Mom.

At night while I’m staying in the beranda para magpa-antok sana, Dad approach me to talk.

Can I sit here? Just wanted to talk to you. Tumango lang ako sa kanya.

For you, open it. He gives me a gift, a congratulatory gift. I open it. I see a gold necklace.

I had that for a long time noong umuwi akong galing Dubai. Di ko lang naibigay dahil sa mga nangyayari. When I see it in the store, it’s you that I think of that’s why I bought it for you. Let me put it in your neck. I give it to him. It looks good on you.

Tiningnan ako ni Dad ng maigi, he holds my face.

First of all I wanted to say congratulation Anak, even without me you able to do it. You made it, I am so proud of you; saad ni Dad sa akin na parang naiiyak. At ako parang naiiyak narin coz I remember all those times noong wala sya, ang mga hirap na pinagdaanan ko.

You have grown into a full blown woman now. Moments I have regretted that I wasn’t there, in those times you’re growing up. I wasn’t there to protect you, to guide you when you needed me. Being a full grown woman, ikaw na ang may hawak ng buhay mo ngayon. Where ever direction you want to go we are just right behind you. Me and your mom will always be there for you. Sorry we messed up, hope you will not commit the same mistake as we did.

Dahil sa nangyaring gulo, we never had a chance to patch things up, everything turn downhill. We forgot that kayo ang kapatid mo ang mas naapektuhan sa ginawa namin. We are busy of our own emotion, we forgot your emotion, we forgot na kayo ang mas nahihirapan sa aming paghihiwalay, and for that I’m so sorry, napabayaan ko kayo.

When your mom says na naging rebelde ka. Di ka nya ka kaya na, I blame myself. Kasi kami ang dahilan nun, so I decide to take your brother para maiwas sya sa mga sakitan nyo ng mom mo. I choose to take him kasi kaya ko pang isalba sya sa trauma. Ikaw kitang kita mo na lahat at di kita kayang harapin dahil sa maling mali kong desisyon noon. I was ashamed of you, di ko kayang harapin ang sumbat mo.

When your mom said, nagbago ka na, masayang masaya ako kasi bumalik ka sa dati. The worst feeling ng magulang is makitang nasa di magandang kalagayan ang anak. No parents would want that, parents wants to protect their children as possible as they can but we failed to do our job Anak. Patawarin mo si Daddy.

Now, in spite of what you have been through, you become a strong independent woman. Looking at you now, I’m so proud of you, so happy kahit wala na iyong award sa klase, okay na ako na naging okay ang buhay mo. But you got an award, much more proud Dad I am.

I see dad crying, ramdam ko ang bawat salita na sinabi nya. Di ko din mapigilang mapahagolgol ng iyak.

Dad, sorry kong nagrebelde ako. Di ko kasi kinaya ang paghihiwalay natin, those shameful words I heard from other people, the thought na kailan man di na tayo mabubuo ay siyang nagpabagsak sa akin. I was so lose dad, nawalan ako ng direction at motivation sa buhay. Good thing di ako pinabayaan ng mga kaibigan ko. They pulled me through that darkness.

Galit ako kay mommy sobrang galit, I blamed her for everything pero sabi ng boyfriend ko hawak ko parin ang buhay ko. Ako ang nagdala nito, nasa akin kung I will make the same mistake or not . Whatever I’m going to do ako parin ang aani sa anong mang desisyon na gagawin.

If I keep doing those, does it make me happy? Iyon ang tanong nya sa akin na nagpabago sa akin.

I keep so much hatred dad at mabigat sa pakiramdam. When I choose to let go, naging magaan na sya at good things happen. Kaya okay na ako ngayon. Though I still have things with mom because I don’t get it why she made those but I let go of that hatred, for myself, for my peace of mind at my heart.

Salaysay ko kay dad sa pinagdaanan ko, bihira lang kami magkapag-usap ng ganito, deep sincere talk.

Your guy must be very nice guy; saad nya sa akin talking about my boyfriend.

He is dad, never nya kong binitiwan sa panahon na lugmok ako, palagi siyang andiyan sa tabi ko; proud ko saad kay dad about Marco.

I must thank him for doing the job that was supposed to be my job, our job as parents. I admired him for that. Don’t let go of that man, he is good for you.

Nah never, di ko na sya bibitawan pa at gusto ako ng parents nya. Gusto na nga nila kaming magpakasal eh kaya lang we still have plans pa; nakangiting kong wika kay sa future plan namin ni Marco.

Well he always has my blessing because he takes good care of my angel. Tell him I wanted to talk to him before we went back to Davao.

You and mom seem okay; telling him my observation.

Me and your mom tried to be civil for all of us, para sa inyo na anak namin. We will bury the things happen in the past para sa inyo. We are old enough para mag-away pa. Things had happen and been done.

We realize the big impact we made sa inyo mga anak namin. At isa sa mga pinagsisihan namin coz we can could settle or do things differently para di kayo maapektuhan pero di namin ginawa. But we cannot bring back those times instead let’s move forward.

Yeah Dad, I’m happy to see you again and Kent. I really think you wouldn’t come, but you are here, thank you. And we hug each other. Yeah I missed dad so much.

Mahal, kmusta ka diyan? Marc called me.

Okay naman, I had talk with my dad, it was really a good conversation at gusto ka nya makausap sana before going back to Davao.

Really, that’s good. Sige tell Tito that I will visit there tomorrow.

Marco came in the morning sa bahay namin and I told dad he is here.

Good morning Tito, kumusta po? Gusto nyo daw po akong maka-usap?

Have a seat Marco. Yeah, i had talk with my daughter, the way she said it, seems you both are in good and she trusted you so much. Marco, you know what she been through and I’m counting you on that. You are her source of strength.

You had my blessing Marco, whatever it is, you had my support, all I’m asking is please take good care of her. You have done things I haven’t done to her. And that’s enough for me to entrust my daughter to you coz I know she will be in good hand.

Makaka-asa ka Tito, aalagaan ko sya at mamahalin. Maari maaga pa, pero if darating ang time na ready na kami magpakasal, I’ll just want to ask your blessing first. I wanted to marry your daughter in the future, kailangan lang muna namin mag-ipon.

Go Marco, I given my blessing already. You don’t have a problem with me.

Come here sweetheart, I know you are there listening in us. Akala mo siguro aayawan ko boyfriend mo.

Tawag ni dad sakin, nakita nya pala ako na nakikinig sa kanila. I'm happy seeing the 2 most important man in my life are here and happy.