THE EPISODE OF THE LETTER WITH THE BASINGSTOKE POSTMARK
I have a vast respect for my grandfather. He was a man of forethought.
He left me a modest little income of seven hundred a-year, well
invested. Now, seven hundred a-year is not exactly wealth; but it is an
unobtrusive competence; it permits a bachelor to move about the world
and choose at will his own profession. _I_ chose medicine; but I was
not wholly dependent upon it. So I honoured my grandfather's wise
disposition of his worldly goods; though, oddly enough, my cousin
Tom (to whom he left his watch and five hundred pounds) speaks MOST
disrespectfully of his character and intellect.
Thanks to my grandfather's silken-sailed barque, therefore, when I found
myself practically dismissed from Nathaniel's I was not thrown on my
beam-ends, as most young men in my position would have been; I had
time and opportunity for the favourite pastime of looking about me. Of
course, had I chosen, I might have fought the case to the bitter end
against Sebastian; he could not dismiss me--that lay with the committee.
But I hardly cared to fight. In the first place, though I had found
him out as a man, I still respected him as a great teacher; and in the
second place (which is always more important), I wanted to find and
follow Hilda.
To be sure, Hilda, in that enigmatic letter of hers, had implored me not
to seek her out; but I think you will admit there is one request which
no man can grant to the girl he loves--and that is the request to keep
away from her. If Hilda did not want ME, I wanted Hilda; and, being a
man, I meant to find her.
My chances of discovering her whereabouts, however, I had to confess
to myself (when it came to the point) were extremely slender. She had
vanished from my horizon, melted into space. My sole hint of a clue
consisted in the fact that the letter she sent me had been posted at
Basingstoke. Here, then, was my problem: given an envelope with the
Basingstoke postmark, to find in what part of Europe, Asia, Africa, or
America the writer of it might be discovered. It opened up a fine field
for speculation.
When I set out to face this broad puzzle, my first idea was: "I must ask
Hilda." In all circumstances of difficulty, I had grown accustomed to
submitting my doubts and surmises to her acute intelligence; and her
instinct almost always supplied the right solution. But now Hilda was
gone; it was Hilda herself I wished to track through the labyrinth of
the world. I could expect no assistance in tracking her from Hilda.
"Let me think," I said to myself, over a reflective pipe, with feet
poised on the fender. "How would Hilda herself have approached this
problem? Imagine I'm Hilda. I must try to strike a trail by applying her
own methods to her own character. She would have attacked the question,
no doubt,"--here I eyed my pipe wisely,--"from the psychological
side. She would have asked herself"--I stroked my chin--"what such a
temperament as hers was likely to do under such-and-such circumstances.
And she would have answered it aright. But then"--I puffed away once or
twice--"SHE is Hilda."
When I came to reconnoitre the matter in this light, I became at once
aware how great a gulf separated the clumsy male intelligence from
the immediate and almost unerring intuitions of a clever woman. I am
considered no fool; in my own profession, I may venture to say, I was
Sebastian's favourite pupil. Yet, though I asked myself over and over
again where Hilda would be likely to go--Canada, China, Australia--as
the outcome of her character, in these given conditions, I got no
answer. I stared at the fire and reflected. I smoked two successive
pipes, and shook out the ashes. "Let me consider how Hilda's temperament
would work," I said, looking sagacious. I said it several times--but
there I stuck. I went no further. The solution would not come. I felt
that in order to play Hilda's part, it was necessary first to have
Hilda's head-piece. Not every man can bend the bow of Ulysses.
As I turned the problem over in my mind, however, one phrase at last
came back to me--a phrase which Hilda herself had let fall when we were
debating a very similar point about poor Hugo Le Geyt: "If I were in his
place, what do you think I would do?--why, hide myself at once in the
greenest recesses of our Carnarvonshire mountains."
She must have gone to Wales, then. I had her own authority for saying
so.... And yet--Wales? Wales? I pulled myself up with a jerk. In that
case, how did she come to be passing by Basingstoke?
Was the postmark a blind? Had she hired someone to take the letter
somewhere for her, on purpose to put me off on a false track? I could
hardly think so. Besides, the time was against it. I saw Hilda at
Nathaniel's in the morning; the very same evening I received the
envelope with the Basingstoke postmark.
"If I were in his place." Yes, true; but, now I come to think on it,
WERE the positions really parallel? Hilda was not flying for her life
from justice; she was only endeavouring to escape Sebastian--and
myself. The instances she had quoted of the mountaineer's curious homing
instinct--the wild yearning he feels at moments of great straits to bury
himself among the nooks of his native hills--were they not all instances
of murderers pursued by the police? It was abject terror that drove
these men to their burrows. But Hilda was not a murderer; she was not
dogged by remorse, despair, or the myrmidons of the law; it was murder
she was avoiding, not the punishment of murder. That made, of course, an
obvious difference. "Irrevocably far from London," she said. Wales is
a suburb. I gave up the idea that it was likely to prove her place of
refuge from the two men she was bent on escaping. Hong-Kong, after all,
seemed more probable than Llanberis.
That first failure gave me a clue, however, as to the best way of
applying Hilda's own methods. "What would such a person do under the
circumstances?" that was her way of putting the question. Clearly, then,
I must first decide what WERE the circumstances. Was Sebastian speaking
the truth? Was Hilda Wade, or was she not, the daughter of the supposed
murderer, Dr. Yorke-Bannerman?
I looked up as much of the case as I could, in unobtrusive ways, among
the old law-reports, and found that the barrister who had had charge of
the defence was my father's old friend, Mr. Horace Mayfield, a man of
elegant tastes, and the means to gratify them.
I went to call on him on Sunday evening at his artistically luxurious
house in Onslow Gardens. A sedate footman answered the bell.
Fortunately, Mr. Mayfield was at home, and, what is rarer, disengaged.
You do not always find a successful Q.C. at his ease among his books,
beneath the electric light, ready to give up a vacant hour to friendly
colloquy.
"Remember Yorke-Bannerman's case?" he said, a huge smile breaking slowly
like a wave over his genial fat face--Horace Mayfield resembles a great
good-humoured toad, with bland manners and a capacious double chin--"I
should just say I DID! Bless my soul--why, yes," he beamed, "I was
Yorke-Bannerman's counsel. Excellent fellow, Yorke-Bannerman--most
unfortunate end, though--precious clever chap, too! Had an astounding
memory. Recollected every symptom of every patient he ever attended. And
SUCH an eye! Diagnosis? It was clairvoyance! A gift--no less. Knew what
was the matter with you the moment he looked at you."
That sounded like Hilda. The same surprising power of recalling facts;
the same keen faculty for interpreting character or the signs of
feeling. "He poisoned somebody, I believe," I murmured, casually. "An
uncle of his, or something."
Mayfield's great squat face wrinkled; the double chin, folding down on
the neck, became more ostentatiously double than ever. "Well, I can't
admit that," he said, in his suave voice, twirling the string of his
eye-glass. "I was Yorke-Bannerman's advocate, you see; and therefore I
was paid not to admit it. Besides, he was a friend of mine, and I
always liked him. But I WILL allow that the case DID look a trifle black
against him."
"Ha? Looked black, did it?" I faltered.
The judicious barrister shrugged his shoulders. A genial smile spread
oilily once more over his smooth face. "None of my business to say so,"
he answered, puckering the corners of his eyes. "Still, it was a long
time ago; and the circumstances certainly WERE suspicious. Perhaps, on
the whole, Hubert, it was just as well the poor fellow died before the
trial came off; otherwise"--he pouted his lips--"I might have had
my work cut out to save him." And he eyed the blue china gods on the
mantelpiece affectionately.
"I believe the Crown urged money as the motive?" I suggested.
Mayfield glanced inquiry at me. "Now, why do you want to know all this?"
he asked, in a suspicious voice, coming back from his dragons. "It is
irregular, very, to worm information out of an innocent barrister in
his hours of ease about a former client. We are a guileless race, we
lawyers; don't abuse our confidence."
He seemed an honest man, I thought, in spite of his mocking tone. I
trusted him, and made a clean breast of it. "I believe," I answered,
with an impressive little pause, "I want to marry Yorke-Bannerman's
daughter."
He gave a quick start. "What, Maisie?" he exclaimed.
I shook my head. "No, no; that is not the name," I replied.
He hesitated a moment. "But there IS no other," he hazarded cautiously
at last. "I knew the family."
"I am not sure of it," I went on. "I have merely my suspicions. I am in
love with a girl, and something about her makes me think she is probably
a Yorke-Bannerman."
"But, my dear Hubert, if that is so," the great lawyer went on, waving
me off with one fat hand, "it must be at once apparent to you that _I_
am the last person on earth to whom you ought to apply for information.
Remember my oath. The practice of our clan: the seal of secrecy!"
I was frank once more. "I do not know whether the lady I mean is or is
not Yorke-Bannerman's daughter," I persisted. "She may be, and she
may not. She gives another name--that's certain. But whether she is or
isn't, one thing I know--I mean to marry her. I believe in her; I trust
her. I only seek to gain this information now because I don't know where
she is--and I want to track her."
He crossed his big hands with an air of Christian resignation, and
looked up at the panels of the coffered ceiling. "In that," he answered,
"I may honestly say, I can't help you. Humbug apart, I have not known
Mrs. Yorke-Bannerman's address--or Maisie's either--ever since my poor
friend's death. Prudent woman, Mrs. Yorke-Bannerman! She went away, I
believe, to somewhere in North Wales, and afterwards to Brittany. But
she probably changed her name; and--she did not confide in me."
I went on to ask him a few questions about the case, premising that I
did so in the most friendly spirit. "Oh, I can only tell you what is
publicly known," he answered, beaming, with the usual professional
pretence of the most sphinx-like reticence. "But the plain facts, as
universally admitted, were these. I break no confidence. Yorke-Bannerman
had a rich uncle from whom he had expectations--a certain Admiral Scott
Prideaux. This uncle had lately made a will in Yorke-Bannerman's
favour; but he was a cantankerous old chap--naval, you know
autocratic--crusty--given to changing his mind with each change of
the wind, and easily offended by his relations--the sort of cheerful old
party who makes a new will once every month, disinheriting the nephew
he last dined with. Well, one day the Admiral was taken ill, at his own
house, and Yorke-Bannerman attended him. OUR contention was--I speak
now as my old friend's counsel--that Scott Prideaux, getting as tired of
life as we were all tired of him, and weary of this recurrent worry of
will-making, determined at last to clear out for good from a world where
he was so little appreciated, and, therefore, tried to poison himself."
"With aconitine?" I suggested, eagerly.
"Unfortunately, yes; he made use of aconitine for that otherwise
laudable purpose. Now, as ill luck would have it"--Mayfield's wrinkles
deepened--"Yorke-Bannerman and Sebastian, then two rising doctors
engaged in physiological researches together, had just been occupied in
experimenting upon this very drug--testing the use of aconitine.
Indeed, you will no doubt remember"--he crossed his fat hands again
comfortably--"it was these precise researches on a then little-known
poison that first brought Sebastian prominently before the public. What
was the consequence?" His smooth, persuasive voice flowed on as if I
were a concentrated jury. "The Admiral grew rapidly worse, and insisted
upon calling in a second opinion. No doubt he didn't like the aconitine
when it came to the pinch--for it DOES pinch, I can tell you--and
repented him of his evil. Yorke-Bannerman suggested Sebastian as the
second opinion; the uncle acquiesced; Sebastian was called in, and,
of course, being fresh from his researches, immediately recognised the
symptoms of aconitine poisoning."
"What! Sebastian found it out?" I cried, starting.
"Oh, yes! Sebastian. He watched the case from that point to the end; and
the oddest part of it all was this--that though he communicated with
the police, and himself prepared every morsel of food that the poor old
Admiral took from that moment forth, the symptoms continually increased
in severity. The police contention was that Yorke-Bannerman somehow
managed to put the stuff into the milk beforehand; my own theory was--as
counsel for the accused"--he blinked his fat eyes--"that old Prideaux
had concealed a large quantity of aconitine in the bed, before his
illness, and went on taking it from time to time--just to spite his
nephew."
"And you BELIEVE that, Mr. Mayfield?"
The broad smile broke concentrically in ripples over the great lawyer's
face. His smile was Mayfield's main feature. He shrugged his shoulders
and expanded his big hands wide open before him. "My dear Hubert,"
he said, with a most humorous expression of countenance, "you are a
professional man yourself; therefore you know that every profession
has its own little courtesies--its own small fictions. I was
Yorke-Bannerman's counsel, as well as his friend. 'Tis a point of honour
with us that no barrister will ever admit a doubt as to a client's
innocence--is he not paid to maintain it?--and to my dying day I will
constantly maintain that old Prideaux poisoned himself. Maintain it
with that dogged and meaningless obstinacy with which we always cling
to whatever is least provable.... Oh, yes! He poisoned himself; and
Yorke-Bannerman was innocent.... But still, you know, it WAS the sort of
case where an acute lawyer, with a reputation to make, would prefer to
be for the Crown rather than for the prisoner."
"But it was never tried," I ejaculated.
"No, happily for us, it was never tried. Fortune favoured us.
Yorke-Bannerman had a weak heart, a conveniently weak heart, which the
inquest sorely affected; and besides, he was deeply angry at what
he persisted in calling Sebastian's defection. He evidently thought
Sebastian ought to have stood by him. His colleague preferred the claims
of public duty--as he understood them, I mean--to those of private
friendship. It was a very sad case--for Yorke-Bannerman was really a
charming fellow. But I confess I WAS relieved when he died unexpectedly
on the morning of his arrest. It took off my shoulders a most serious
burden."
"You think, then, the case would have gone against him?"
"My dear Hubert," his whole face puckered with an indulgent smile, "of
course the case must have gone against us. Juries are fools; but they
are not such fools as to swallow everything--like ostriches: to let me
throw dust in their eyes about so plain an issue. Consider the facts,
consider them impartially. Yorke-Bannerman had easy access to aconitine;
had whole ounces of it in his possession; he treated the uncle from whom
he was to inherit; he was in temporary embarrassments--that came out at
the inquest; it was known that the Admiral had just made a twenty-third
will in his favour, and that the Admiral's wills were liable to
alteration every time a nephew ventured upon an opinion in politics,
religion, science, navigation, or the right card at whist, differing by
a shade from that of the uncle. The Admiral died of aconitine poisoning;
and Sebastian observed and detailed the symptoms. Could anything be
plainer--I mean, could any combination of fortuitous circumstances"--he
blinked pleasantly again--"be more adverse to an advocate sincerely
convinced of his client's innocence--as a professional duty?" And he
gazed at me comically.
The more he piled up the case against the man who I now felt sure was
Hilda's father, the less did I believe him. A dark conspiracy seemed to
loom up in the background. "Has it ever occurred to you," I asked, at
last, in a very tentative tone, "that perhaps--I throw out the hint as
the merest suggestion--perhaps it may have been Sebastian who--"
He smiled this time till I thought his smile would swallow him.
"If Yorke-Bannerman had NOT been my client," he mused aloud, "I might
have been inclined to suspect rather that Sebastian aided him to avoid
justice by giving him something violent to take, if he wished
it: something which might accelerate the inevitable action of the
heart-disease from which he was suffering. Isn't THAT more likely?"
I saw there was nothing further to be got out of Mayfield. His opinion
was fixed; he was a placid ruminant. But he had given me already much
food for thought. I thanked him for his assistance, and returned on foot
to my rooms at the hospital.
I was now, however, in a somewhat different position for tracking Hilda
from that which I occupied before my interview with the famous counsel.
I felt certain by this time that Hilda Wade and Maisie Yorke-Bannerman
were one and the same person. To be sure, it gave me a twinge to think
that Hilda should be masquerading under an assumed name; but I waived
that question for the moment, and awaited her explanations. The great
point now was to find Hilda. She was flying from Sebastian to mature
a new plan. But whither? I proceeded to argue it out on her own
principles; oh, how lamely! The world is still so big! Mauritius, the
Argentine, British Columbia, New Zealand!
The letter I had received bore the Basingstoke postmark. Now a person
may be passing Basingstoke on his way either to Southampton or Plymouth,
both of which are ports of embarcation for various foreign countries.
I attached importance to that clue. Something about the tone of Hilda's
letter made me realise that she intended to put the sea between us. In
concluding so much, I felt sure I was not mistaken. Hilda had too big
and too cosmopolitan a mind to speak of being "irrevocably far from
London," if she were only going to some town in England, or even to
Normandy, or the Channel Islands. "Irrevocably far" pointed rather to a
destination outside Europe altogether--to India, Africa, America: not to
Jersey, Dieppe, or Saint-Malo.
Was it Southampton or Plymouth to which she was first bound?--that was
the next question. I inclined to Southampton. For the sprawling lines
(so different from her usual neat hand) were written hurriedly in
a train, I could see; and, on consulting Bradshaw, I found that the
Plymouth expresses stop longest at Salisbury, where Hilda would,
therefore, have been likely to post her note if she were going to the
far west; while some of the Southampton trains stop at Basingstoke,
which is, indeed, the most convenient point on that route for sending
off a letter. This was mere blind guesswork, to be sure, compared with
Hilda's immediate and unerring intuition; but it had some probability
in its favour, at any rate. Try both: of the two, she was likelier to be
going to Southampton.
My next move was to consult the list of outgoing steamers. Hilda had
left London on a Saturday morning. Now, on alternate Saturdays, the
steamers of the Castle line sail from Southampton, where they call to
take up passengers and mails. Was this one of those alternate Saturdays?
I looked at the list of dates: it was. That told further in favour
of Southampton. But did any steamer of any passenger line sail from
Plymouth on the same day? None, that I could find. Or from Southampton
elsewhere? I looked them all up. The Royal Mail Company's boats start
on Wednesdays; the North German Lloyd's on Wednesdays and Sundays.
Those were the only likely vessels I could discover. Either, then, I
concluded, Hilda meant to sail on Saturday by the Castle line for
South Africa, or else on Sunday by North German Lloyd for some part of
America.
How I longed for one hour of Hilda to help me out with her almost
infallible instinct. I realised how feeble and fallacious was my own
groping in the dark. Her knowledge of temperament would have revealed to
her at once what I was trying to discover, like the police she despised,
by the clumsy "clues" which so roused her sarcasm.
However, I went to bed and slept on it. Next morning I determined to set
out for Southampton on a tour of inquiry to all the steamboat agencies.
If that failed, I could go on to Plymouth.
But, as chance would have it, the morning post brought me an unexpected
letter, which helped me not a little in unravelling the problem. It
was a crumpled letter, written on rather soiled paper, in an uneducated
hand, and it bore, like Hilda's, the Basingstoke postmark.
"Charlotte Churtwood sends her duty to Dr. Cumberledge," it said, with
somewhat uncertain spelling, "and I am very sorry that I was not able
to Post the letter to you in London, as the lady ast me, but after her
train ad left has I was stepping into mine the Ingine started and I was
knocked down and badly hurt and the lady gave me a half-sovering to
Post it in London has soon as I got there but bein unable to do so I
now return it dear sir not knowing the lady's name and adress she having
trusted me through seeing me on the platform, and perhaps you can send
it back to her, and was very sorry I could not Post it were she ast me,
but time bein an objeck put it in the box in Basingstoke station and now
inclose post office order for ten Shillings whitch dear sir kindly let
the young lady have from your obedient servant,
"CHARLOTTE CHURTWOOD."
In the corner was the address: "11, Chubb's Cottages, Basingstoke."
The happy accident of this letter advanced things for me greatly--though
it also made me feel how dependent I was upon happy accidents, where
Hilda would have guessed right at once by mere knowledge of character.
Still, the letter explained many things which had hitherto puzzled me.
I had felt not a little surprise that Hilda, wishing to withdraw from
me and leave no traces, should have sent off her farewell letter from
Basingstoke--so as to let me see at once in what direction she was
travelling. Nay, I even wondered at times whether she had really posted
it herself at Basingstoke, or given it to somebody who chanced to be
going there to post for her as a blind. But I did not think she would
deliberately deceive me; and, in my opinion, to get a letter posted at
Basingstoke would be deliberate deception, while to get it posted in
London was mere vague precaution. I understood now that she had written
it in the train, and then picked out a likely person as she passed to
take it to Waterloo for her.
Of course, I went straight down to Basingstoke, and called at once at
Chubb's Cottages. It was a squalid little row on the outskirts of the
town. I found Charlotte Churtwood herself exactly such a girl as Hilda,
with her quick judgment of character, might have hit upon for such a
purpose. She was a conspicuously honest and transparent country servant,
of the lumpy type, on her way to London to take a place as housemaid.
Her injuries were severe, but not dangerous. "The lady saw me on the
platform," she said, "and beckoned to me to come to her. She ast me
where I was going, and I says, 'To London, miss.' Says she, smiling
kind-like, 'Could you post a letter for me, certain sure?' Says I, 'You
can depend upon me.' An' then she give me the arf-sovering, an' says,
says she, 'Mind, it's VERY par-tickler; if the gentleman don't get it,
'e'll fret 'is 'eart out.' An' through 'aving a young man o' my own,
as is a groom at Andover, o' course I understood 'er, sir. An' then,
feeling all full of it, as yu may say, what with the arf-sovering, and
what with one thing and what with another, an' all of a fluster with not
being used to travelling, I run up, when the train for London come in,
an' tried to scramble into it, afore it 'ad quite stopped moving. An'
a guard, 'e rushes up, an' 'Stand back!' says 'e; 'wait till the train
stops,' says 'e, an' waves his red flag at me. But afore I could stand
back, with one foot on the step, the train sort of jumped away from me,
and knocked me down like this; and they say it'll be a week now afore
I'm well enough to go on to London. But I posted the letter all the
same, at Basingstoke station, as they was carrying me off; an' I took
down the address, so as to return the arf-sovering." Hilda was right, as
always. She had chosen instinctively the trustworthy person,--chosen her
at first sight, and hit the bull's-eye.
"Do you know what train the lady was in?" I asked, as she paused. "Where
was it going, did you notice?"
"It was the Southampton train, sir. I saw the board on the carriage."
That settled the question. "You are a good and an honest girl," I
said, pulling out my purse; "and you came to this misfortune through
trying--too eagerly--to help the young lady. A ten-pound note is not
overmuch as compensation for your accident. Take it, and get well. I
should be sorry to think you lost a good place through your anxiety to
help us."
The rest of my way was plain sailing now. I hurried on straight to
Southampton. There my first visit was to the office of the Castle line.
I went to the point at once. Was there a Miss Wade among the passengers
by the Dunottar Castle?
No; nobody of that name on the list.
Had any lady taken a passage at the last moment?
The clerk perpended. Yes; a lady had come by the mail train from London,
with no heavy baggage, and had gone on board direct, taking what cabin
she could get. A young lady in grey. Quite unprepared. Gave no name.
Called away in a hurry.
What sort of lady?
Youngish; good-looking; brown hair and eyes, the clerk thought; a sort
of creamy skin; and a--well, a mesmeric kind of glance that seemed to go
right through you.
"That will do," I answered, sure now of my quarry. "To which port did
she book?"
"To Cape Town."
"Very well," I said, promptly. "You may reserve me a good berth in the
next outgoing steamer."
It was just like Hilda's impulsive character to rush off in this way at
a moment's notice; and just like mine to follow her. But it piqued me a
little to think that, but for the accident of an accident, I might never
have tracked her down. If the letter had been posted in London as she
intended, and not at Basingstoke, I might have sought in vain for her
from then till Doomsday.
Ten days later, I was afloat on the Channel, bound for South Africa.
I always admired Hilda's astonishing insight into character and motive;
but I never admired it quite so profoundly as on the glorious day when
we arrived at Cape Town. I was standing on deck, looking out for the
first time in my life on that tremendous view--the steep and massive
bulk of Table Mountain,--a mere lump of rock, dropped loose from the
sky, with the long white town spread gleaming at its base, and the
silver-tree plantations that cling to its lower slopes and merge by
degrees into gardens and vineyards--when a messenger from the shore came
up to me tentatively.
"Dr. Cumberledge?" he said, in an inquiring tone.
I nodded. "That is my name."
"I have a letter for you, sir."
I took it, in great surprise. Who on earth in Cape Town could have
known I was coming? I had not a friend to my knowledge in the colony.
I glanced at the envelope. My wonder deepened. That prescient brain! It
was Hilda's handwriting.
I tore it open and read:
"MY DEAR HUBERT,--I KNOW you will come; I KNOW you will follow me. So
I am leaving this letter at Donald Currie & Co.'s office, giving their
agent instructions to hand it to you as soon as you reach Cape Town.
I am quite sure you will track me so far at least; I understand your
temperament. But I beg you, I implore you, to go no further. You will
ruin my plan if you do. And I still adhere to it. It is good of you to
come so far; I cannot blame you for that. I know your motives. But
do not try to find me out. I warn you, beforehand, it will be quite
useless. I have made up my mind. I have an object in life, and, dear as
you are to me--THAT I will not pretend to deny--I can never allow even
YOU to interfere with it. So be warned in time. Go back quietly by the
next steamer.
"Your ever attached and grateful,
"HILDA."
I read it twice through with a little thrill of joy. Did any man ever
court so strange a love? Her very strangeness drew me. But go back by
the next steamer! I felt sure of one thing: Hilda was far too good a
judge of character to believe that I was likely to obey that mandate.
I will not trouble you with the remaining stages of my quest. Except
for the slowness of South African mail coaches, they were comparatively
easy. It is not so hard to track strangers in Cape Town as strangers in
London. I followed Hilda to her hotel, and from her hotel up
country, stage after stage--jolted by rail, worse jolted by
mule-waggon--inquiring, inquiring, inquiring--till I learned at last she
was somewhere in Rhodesia.
That is a big address; but it does not cover as many names as it covers
square miles. In time I found her. Still, it took time; and before we
met, Hilda had had leisure to settle down quietly to her new existence.
People in Rhodesia had noted her coming, as a new portent, because of
one strange peculiarity. She was the only woman of means who had ever
gone up of her own free will to Rhodesia. Other women had gone there
to accompany their husbands, or to earn their livings; but that a lady
should freely select that half-baked land as a place of residence--a
lady of position, with all the world before her where to choose--that
puzzled the Rhodesians. So she was a marked person. Most people solved
the vexed problem, indeed, by suggesting that she had designs against
the stern celibacy of a leading South African politician. "Depend upon
it," they said, "it's Rhodes she's after." The moment I arrived at
Salisbury, and stated my object in coming, all the world in the new town
was ready to assist me. The lady was to be found (vaguely speaking) on
a young farm to the north--a budding farm, whose general direction was
expansively indicated to me by a wave of the arm, with South African
uncertainty.
I bought a pony at Salisbury--a pretty little seasoned sorrel mare--and
set out to find Hilda. My way lay over a brand-new road, or what
passes for a road in South Africa--very soft and lumpy, like an English
cart-track. I am a fair cross-country rider in our own Midlands, but I
never rode a more tedious journey than that one. I had crawled several
miles under a blazing sun along the shadeless new track, on my African
pony, when, to my surprise I saw, of all sights in the world, a bicycle
coming towards me.
I could hardly believe my eyes. Civilisation indeed! A bicycle in these
remotest wilds of Africa!
I had been picking my way for some hours through a desolate plateau--the
high veldt--about five thousand feet above the sea level, and entirely
treeless. In places, to be sure, a few low bushes of prickly aspect rose
in tangled clumps; but for the most part the arid table-land was covered
by a thick growth of short brown grass, about nine inches high, burnt up
in the sun, and most wearisome to look at. The distressing nakedness of
a new country confronted me. Here and there a bald farm or two had been
literally pegged out--the pegs were almost all one saw of them as yet;
the fields were in the future. Here and there, again, a scattered range
of low granite hills, known locally as kopjes--red, rocky prominences,
flaunting in the sunshine--diversified the distance. But the road
itself, such as it was, lay all on the high plain, looking down now and
again into gorges or kloofs, wooded on their slopes with scrubby
trees, and comparatively well-watered. In the midst of all this crude,
unfinished land, the mere sight of a bicycle, bumping over the rubbly
road, was a sufficient surprise; but my astonishment reached a climax
when I saw, as it drew near, that it was ridden by a woman!
One moment later I had burst into a wild cry, and rode forward to her
hurriedly. "Hilda!" I shouted aloud, in my excitement: "Hilda!"
She stepped lightly from her pedals, as if it had been in the park: head
erect and proud; eyes liquid, lustrous. I dismounted, trembling, and
stood beside her. In the wild joy of the moment, for the first time in
my life, I kissed her fervently. Hilda took the kiss, unreproving. She
did not attempt to refuse me.
"So you have come at last!" she murmured, with a glow on her face,
half nestling towards me, half withdrawing, as if two wills tore her
in different directions. "I have been expecting you for some days; and,
somehow, to-day, I was almost certain you were coming!"
"Then you are not angry with me?" I cried. "You remember, you forbade
me!"
"Angry with you? Dear Hubert, could I ever be angry with you, especially
for thus showing me your devotion and your trust? I am never angry with
you. When one knows, one understands. I have thought of you so often;
sometimes, alone here in this raw new land, I have longed for you to
come. It is inconsistent of me, of course; but I am so solitary, so
lonely!"
"And yet you begged me not to follow you!"
She looked up at me shyly--I was not accustomed to see Hilda shy. Her
eyes gazed deep into mine beneath the long, soft lashes. "I begged you
not to follow me," she repeated, a strange gladness in her tone. "Yes,
dear Hubert, I begged you--and I meant it. Cannot you understand that
sometimes one hopes a thing may never happen--and is supremely happy
because it happens, in spite of one? I have a purpose in life for which
I live: I live for it still. For its sake I told you you must not come
to me. Yet you HAVE come, against my orders; and--" she paused, and drew
a deep sigh--"oh, Hubert, I thank you for daring to disobey me!"
I clasped her to my bosom. She allowed me, half resisting. "I am too
weak," she murmured. "Only this morning, I made up my mind that when
I saw you I would implore you to return at once. And now that you are
here--" she laid her little hand confidingly in mine--"see how foolish I
am!--I cannot dismiss you."
"Which means to say, Hilda, that, after all, you are still a woman!"
"A woman; oh, yes; very much a woman! Hubert, I love you; I half wish I
did not."
"Why, darling?" I drew her to me.
"Because--if I did not, I could send you away--so easily! As it is--I
cannot let you stop--and... I cannot dismiss you."
"Then divide it," I cried gaily; "do neither; come away with me!"
"No, no; nor that, either. I will not stultify my whole past life. I
will not dishonour my dear father's memory."
I looked around for something to which to tether my horse. A bridle
is in one's way--when one has to discuss important business. There was
really nothing about that seemed fit for the purpose. Hilda saw what
I sought, and pointed mutely to a stunted bush beside a big granite
boulder which rose abruptly from the dead level of the grass, affording
a little shade from that sweltering sunlight. I tied my mare to the
gnarled root--it was the only part big enough--and sat down by Hilda's
side, under the shadow of a great rock in a thirsty land. I realised at
that moment the force and appropriateness of the Psalmist's simile. The
sun beat fiercely on the seeding grasses. Away on the southern horizon
we could faintly perceive the floating yellow haze of the prairie fires
lit by the Mashonas.
"Then you knew I would come?" I began, as she seated herself on the
burnt-up herbage, while my hand stole into hers, to nestle there
naturally.
She pressed it in return. "Oh, yes; I knew you would come," she
answered, with that strange ring of confidence in her voice. "Of course
you got my letter at Cape Town?"
"I did, Hilda--and I wondered at you more than ever as I read it. But if
you KNEW I would come, why write to prevent me?"
Her eyes had their mysterious far-away air. She looked out upon
infinity. "Well, I wanted to do my best to turn you aside," she said,
slowly. "One must always do one's best, even when one feels and believes
it is useless. That surely is the first clause in a doctor's or a
nurse's rubric."
"But WHY didn't you want me to come?" I persisted. "Why fight against
your own heart? Hilda, I am sure--I KNOW you love me."
Her bosom rose and fell. Her eyes dilated. "Love you?" she cried,
looking away over the bushy ridges, as if afraid to trust herself. "Oh,
yes, Hubert, I love you! It is not for that that I wish to avoid you.
Or, rather, it is just because of that. I cannot endure to spoil your
life--by a fruitless affection."
"Why fruitless?" I asked, leaning forward.
She crossed her hands resignedly. "You know all by this time," she
answered. "Sebastian would tell you, of course, when you went to
announce that you were leaving Nathaniel's. He could not do otherwise;
it is the outcome of his temperament--an integral part of his nature."
"Hilda," I cried, "you are a witch! How COULD you know that? I can't
imagine."
She smiled her restrained, Chaldean smile. "Because I KNOW Sebastian,"
she answered, quietly. "I can read that man to the core. He is simple
as a book. His composition is plain, straightforward, quite natural,
uniform. There are no twists and turns in him. Once learn the key,
and it discloses everything, like an open sesame. He has a gigantic
intellect, a burning thirst for knowledge; one love, one hobby--science;
and no moral instincts. He goes straight for his ends; and whatever
comes in his way," she dug her little heel in the brown soil, "he
tramples on it as ruthlessly as a child will trample on a worm or a
beetle."
"And yet," I said, "he is so great."
"Yes, great, I grant you; but the easiest character to unravel that
I have ever met. It is calm, austere, unbending, yet not in the least
degree complex. He has the impassioned temperament, pushed to its
highest pitch; the temperament that runs deep, with irresistible force;
but the passion that inspires him, that carries him away headlong,
as love carries some men, is a rare and abstract one--the passion of
science."
I gazed at her as she spoke, with a feeling akin to awe. "It must
destroy the plot-interest of life for you, Hilda," I cried--out there
in the vast void of that wild African plateau--"to foresee so well what
each person will do--how each will act under such given circumstances."
She pulled a bent of grass and plucked off its dry spikelets one by
one. "Perhaps so," she answered, after a meditative pause; "though, of
course, all natures are not equally simple. Only with great souls can
you be sure beforehand like that, for good or for evil. It is essential
to anything worth calling character that one should be able to predict
in what way it will act under given circumstances--to feel certain,
'This man will do nothing small or mean,' 'That one could never act
dishonestly, or speak deceitfully.' But smaller natures are more
complex. They defy analysis, because their motives are not consistent."
"Most people think to be complex is to be great," I objected.
She shook her head. "That is quite a mistake," she answered. "Great
natures are simple, and relatively predictable, since their motives
balance one another justly. Small natures are complex, and hard to
predict, because small passions, small jealousies, small discords
and perturbations come in at all moments, and override for a time the
permanent underlying factors of character. Great natures, good or bad,
are equably poised; small natures let petty motives intervene to upset
their balance."
"Then you knew I would come," I exclaimed, half pleased to find I
belonged inferentially to her higher category.
Her eyes beamed on me with a beautiful light. "Knew you would come? Oh,
yes. I begged you not to come; but I felt sure you were too deeply in
earnest to obey me. I asked a friend in Cape Town to telegraph your
arrival; and almost ever since the telegram reached me I have been
expecting you and awaiting you."
"So you believed in me?"
"Implicitly--as you in me. That is the worst of it, Hubert. If you did
NOT believe in me, I could have told you all--and then, you would have
left me. But, as it is, you KNOW all--and yet, you want to cling to me."
"You know I know all--because Sebastian told me?"
"Yes; and I think I even know how you answered him."
"How?"
She paused. The calm smile lighted up her face once more. Then she
drew out a pencil. "You think life must lack plot-interest for me," she
began, slowly, "because, with certain natures, I can partially guess
beforehand what is coming. But have you not observed that, in reading
a novel, part of the pleasure you feel arises from your conscious
anticipation of the end, and your satisfaction in seeing that you
anticipated correctly? Or part, sometimes, from the occasional
unexpectedness of the real denouement? Well, life is like that. I enjoy
observing my successes, and, in a way, my failures. Let me show you what
I mean. I think I know what you said to Sebastian--not the words, of
course, but the purport; and I will write it down now for you. Set down
YOUR version, too. And then we will compare them."
It was a crucial test. We both wrote for a minute or two. Somehow, in
Hilda's presence, I forgot at once the strangeness of the scene, the
weird oddity of the moment. That sombre plain disappeared for me. I was
only aware that I was with Hilda once more--and therefore in Paradise.
Pison and Gihon watered the desolate land. Whatever she did seemed to me
supremely right. If she had proposed to me to begin a ponderous work on
Medical Jurisprudence, under the shadow of the big rock, I should have
begun it incontinently.
She handed me her slip of paper; I took it and read: "Sebastian told
you I was Dr. Yorke-Bannerman's daughter. And you answered, 'If so,
Yorke-Bannerman was innocent, and YOU are the poisoner.' Is not that
correct?"
I handed her in answer my own paper. She read it with a faint flush.
When she came to the words: "Either she is not Yorke-Bannerman's
daughter; or else, Yorke-Bannerman was not a poisoner, and someone else
was--I might put a name to him," she rose to her feet with a great rush
of long-suppressed feeling, and clasped me passionately. "My Hubert!"
she cried, "I read you aright. I knew it! I was sure of you!"
I folded her in my arms, there, on the rusty-red South African desert.
"Then, Hilda dear," I murmured, "you will consent to marry me?"
The words brought her back to herself. She unfolded my arms with slow
reluctance. "No, dearest," she said, earnestly, with a face where pride
fought hard against love. "That is WHY, above all things, I did not want
you to follow me. I love you; I trust you: you love me; you trust me.
But I never will marry anyone till I have succeeded in clearing my
father's memory. I KNOW he did not do it; I KNOW Sebastian did. But that
is not enough. I must prove it, I must prove it!"
"I believe it already," I answered. "What need, then, to prove it?"
"To you, Hubert? Oh, no; not to you. There I am safe. But to the world
that condemned him--condemned him untried. I must vindicate him; I must
clear him!"
I bent my face close to hers. "But may I not marry you first?" I
asked--"and after that, I can help you to clear him."
She gazed at me fearlessly. "No, no!" she cried, clasping her hands;
"much as I love you, dear Hubert, I cannot consent to it. I am too
proud!--too proud! I will not allow the world to say--not even to say
falsely"--her face flushed crimson; her voice dropped low--"I will
not allow them to say those hateful words, 'He married a murderer's
daughter.'"
I bowed my head. "As you will, my darling," I answered. "I am content to
wait. I trust you in this, too. Some day, we will prove it."
And all this time, preoccupied as I was with these deeper concerns, I
had not even asked where Hilda lived, or what she was doing!