Chapter 4: A Little Mess
3 years later
Victoria Abbel's Point of View
Isang malutong ang sampal ang inabot niya mula sa akin. Nagulat ito dahil sa aking ginawa at halatang hindi niya inaasahan ang ginawa ko. Everyone gasped from what I did.
"What's that for, babe?" Ngumisi pa ito nang nakakaloko habang nakahawak sa kanyang pisnge.
"You f*****g tell them that it wasn't me! You imbecile." I shouted at the top of my lungs. Saan ba pinaglihi itong lalaking 'to ng mama niya. Sandali nga, may mama ba siya? Mukhang nakulangan sa aruga ng magulang!
He stood up from his chair and put his hand on my shoulders. I sighed in relief. Finally, he'll gonna clean the mess he'd made.
"Gather up everyone! The rumor is real. She's the one in the video. And yes, we're f*****g each other that time." Everyone murmured and muttered something ill about me. Huminga muna ako ng malalim at tinanggal ang pagkahawak niya sa akin.
His name is Dean and he's a dickhead, an asshole, a brute, you name it. I knew him since I transferred here and he's been hitting me for 3 years now. He's the quarterback of the football team. He's cocky, full of himself, just like I said, an asshole. With blonde hair and glossy skin. He's handsome yet I don't really like him. His attitude sucks and hit girls like it's a normal thing to do. Siguro dahil tatlong taon na niya akong hindi nakukuha ay nagpakalat ito ng video raw naming dalawa. Great. Now everyone thinks that I have a s*x scandal with this prick. He really wanted to have s*x with me and I turned him down every single time! I mean nobody wants to have STD. Nang lumipat ako dito ay hindi ko akalain na siya agad ang makakasalamuha ko.
Dahil sa inis ko ay umalis na lang ako sa cafeteria at hinayaang pagbulongan ng mga studyante dito.
My life here is so damn hard. Maraming nangyari sa tatlong taon na pagmamalagi namin dito. Kahit na madaming nangyari ang sa akin ay hindi pa rin siya mawala sa isip ko. He's been always here in my mind and in my heart.
It's too hard to cope and conform to their culture. It's really different from what I grew up with. I find a hard time adjusting to the environment here and I have no one to talk to about it. I wished I didn't leave 3 years ago. My life...is a mess.
I saw in the news from 2 years ago, that he already has a girlfriend. I knew Trevor. Hindi siya ang tipo ng lalaki na papatol na lang kung sino-sino. He's a reserve type of guy. I'm asking myself. What if hindi ako umalis, siguro ako ang naging girlfriend niya? It's really unfair on my part. I've been liking him for many years yet he didn't give me a chance to prove it. And now I'm gone, he found a girlfriend! Congratulations! And now I'm here, stuck in this life. Girlfriend, really? But I need to remind myself that it's just a rumor. Besides, Trevor is a public figure. He's famous all over the world. Ilang kanta na ba ang kanyang nagawa na sumikat talaga? His song sold million of copies!
"Oh what are you doing here?" I raised my eyebrow to my brother Cainn. Parang nagulat siya agad nang makita ako sa bahay.
"Are you cutting classes? Oh no! Don't go in there!"
"Stop being so weird, Cainn. And you can't keep me coming in the dining area." Hindi ko pinansin ang sinabi niya at dumiretso sa dining area just to see a girl almost wearing next to nothing. She has a nice body and long curly blonde hair. Is she wearing lingerie? In the middle of the afternoon? Who is this hoe?
"What the f**k? Are you f*****g her in the dining area?" Pagalit na sambit ko habang nakatingin sa kanilang dalawa.
"I told you not to go here." He muttered.
"Oh god! Who is she?" The girl asked my brother and cling to him like a leech.
"Stop bringing hoes in our house Cainn, if you have any respect left in your body." I grinned my teeth and I was about to leave when my stupid brother said something.
"And stop acting like a virgin, as if you are clean." Halos mamula ako sa sinabi niya. This guy can be an asshole sometimes.
"Oh! Your video was already all over the internet." I almost cry from what he said. Lumapit ako sa kanya at tsaka sinampal. Nagulat siya sa ginawa ko. Both of them gasped from what I did.
"What the f**k? I am still your brother, Victoria Abbel, why are you such a b***h!"
"Hindi ko akalain na maniniwala ka sa simpleng video lang, Cainn. You're an asshole and I hate you for believing it without even asking me if I was really in that video!" I shouted and leave instantly. Umakyat ako sa second floor at dumiretso sa kwarto na aking ginagamit. I locked the door and looked at the ceiling while lying on my bed. Bigla na lang bumuhos and luha na kanina ko pa pinipigilan na bumagsak. I looked at our family picture at the side of my bed. Oh, are we still a family? I wonder. Sa inis ko ay itinaob ko ang picture frame upang hindi ko na ito makita. I was living with my brothers. And I call this house because this was never a home to me. Ilang beses tumunog ang phone ko kaya wala na akong magawa kundi tingnan kung bakit ito tumutunog. There was lot of notification. I checked it and I got angry from what I saw.
Nakaupload na nga ang aking video kuno with Dean. This motherfucker is a complete asshole. It hit one hundred thousand likes and one thousand comments and five hundred thousand shares. I reported the account and tried giving Dean a private message.
vtrabbl: Isang malutong na putangina para sayo Dean.
I typed and sent it. Wala pang ilang minuto ay agad naman siyang nagreply.
iamdean: Do you love it? Btw, what are you talking about. LOL.
vtrabbl: My cousin is a lawyer and I can sue you for defamation in the higher court.
iamdean: Whatever, I'll take it down if you go out with me.
vtrabbl: And also blackmail.
iamdean: Not scared, try harder.
vtrabbl: f**k you.
iamdean: I will f**k you, okay? Do you want it now?
I throw my phone in the bed and scream. That guy and his f*****g unbreakable ego! My breast isn't even like that! Saan niya ba ito napulot? The girl really looked like me. Hindi ko maitindihan kung bakit niya ito ginagawa. Dahil siguro nasugatan ko ang ego niya. I once shouted at the corridor that his d**k is small, kahit hindi ko pa naman nakikita and he told me that he will have his revenge.
I know I shouldn't be affected since I am really not the girl in the video, but still, my moral is damaged. And I am worried. What if Trevor saw this? Agad kong winaksi sa aking isipan si Trevor. He already has a girlfriend. Okay, fine. I admit I believed what I've read in the news even if it's just a rumor. I am out of the picture.
I bit my lips and tried not crying. I always cry. Napapagod na akong umiyak. Naiinis ako dahil sobrang babaw ng mga luha ko. And I don't have someone to cry on. My brothers have their own lives.
I grabbed my phone and dial a number.
"Nikos." I tried to make my voice firm.
"What is it, witch?" I bit my lips so I will not cry. Hindi na ako iiyak. I'm so tired of crying.
"Please help me." I can hear the hesitation in his voice.
"What kind of help? I really have a lot on my plates right now." I got disappointed by what I heard. Kaya hindi ako agad nakapag salita.
"f**k my work. What is it, tell me and I will help you." Bigla akong nabuhayan sa sinabi niya. I told him everything and he's just listening to me. And I almost forgot the feeling of having someone who will listen to you. It was nice...
"I'm gonna kill that bastard. Wait for me; I'm coming for you, Tori." That was the nicest thing I heard in my entire existence.
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