BLAZE

GETTING FREED

Abria

Rushing back to my room, I shut the door behind and locked every window to keep myself isolated for a while. It was so disgusting to see how they all agreed calling me a traitor When they don’t know what exactly they are. I could have let it go past my numbness to them but still, My heart was filled with hatred and now it was overflowing with it. It’s too painful to give a f**k but i did give one.

I heard the knocks and voices from the outside. They kept banging the door but I left them doing the s**t as long as they wanted. I knew that they would give up soon and leave on their own. There was no room for negotiations and I was in no mood of uttering a single word to those brainless creatures. I wanted peace for myself because if I don't let my demons calm down, there will be destruction everywhere. More, I need to clear my head to be me again.

In order to treat my wounds, I need to get it clean before it gets infected by manifested plaque called cailleachs. The infection of this outside world is lethal. No matter how sweet and appealing it is, in reality, it is fatal for anyone. It’s one’s inner voices that can prevent major accidents but if they let down and do whatever the s**t we want, the ship is going to sink either way. Once the knocking on the door recedes, I let my tears fall down and I sobbed till I was completely numb.

Why do I have to be hurt when I wasn't wrong in the first place? What have I even done so sinful that I have to clarify each of my steps? Even my own blood doesn't understand what is happening with me? What to expect from others? I wanted to tear this heart and shred it into pieces.

Why does nobody care about someone’s feelings but they are ready to fight for theirs? I was the stupid one in this fight. That son of a b***h tried to provoke me for his benefit and I fell into that trap.

How dare that woman say that I am a traitor? First, they don't want to give me a chance to see them as my family and later they blame it on me, that I have no interest in being a part of this place. How can someone be happy staying here while everyday they fight for their existence?

It won't be a lie if I say I was jealous when Daphne cried for her child. The way she held him and kept him laying on her lap, I felt the same urge to push him away and take his place in her lap. It's not that I have a feeling for her to be my mother or anything but I envy this prince for having a mother who cares for him.

Though, my father has raised me alone and I respect his struggle and strength… but he never let me be.. just me.. Not for a while, I felt that I was someone’s daughter. This heart long craved for love from a mother. Sometimes, I used to make a doll and admit that she is my mother. I used to idolise other children’s mothers like mine. But some things never change, even if you got what you wanted.

My own father never understood my feelings. Though I really appreciated his work and respected his wishes, I never complained about anything he did for me, knowing well that it is really difficult to raise a child while being a single parent.

He always kept inside a barrier… a barrier bounded by rules and regulations. Strictness was the mesh around it, in case I tried to get out of it. In someone's eyes, he was a perfect father who took a mother's place in his child's life… but I couldn't accept this. Not at all, after knowing the truth. Perhaps, there are still a lot of truths that need to be released when the time comes. There are a lot of things for which I am not prepared but i am prepared to explore them and go down to their roots.

But sometimes, I miss my father a lot. Something was better than nothing. His presence was enough to light up my whole world but that lamp he ignited had blown off a while ago.

I kept thinking about the life I had before discovering my powers, it was filled with joy and trust. No fake people around us, just me and dad.

Now as I am away from him and his barrier, I miss him more. I miss the way he surprises me by making my favourite breakfast. My first play school and my first day in college. I wasn't this free ever.

I wish I could be free once again.. because this freedom cost me something I won't be able to repay.

I don't remember when I fell asleep on the floor. The loud bangs on the door wakes me up. I was shocked and tried to recover from the trauma. Slowly but I was regaining everything around me which enraged me too. I wanted to slam open the door and slapped the b***h standing at the doorstep.

I won't mind if I get executed for hitting her because she was testing my patience… and this was the reason enough to blow a solid punch on her face. I rushed to open the door and found the ice queen standing instead of Daphne. I wasn't expecting her but she enraged my developing anger.

"What do you want?" I asked with an annoyance in my voice.

"Abria, are you hurt? I saw your fight with Igor…" she asked me about my wound.

"Alright… but it's none of your concern… Now, please, leave me alone…" I was about to shut the door when a human sized icicle smashed through the door and I stood flabbergasted at the side.

The queen walked inside the room and grabbed my arm gently.

"Glad to see you are healing… I was really worried about you, Igor is doing fine under the observation of our oldest healers. I am sure he will be back soon on the grounds. Now our healers will be here to treat your wounds precisely." She smiled genuinely at me.

The healers arrived in the room and soon they started their inspection. I Wasn't hurt but minor injuries which were healed by using healing potions. I was advised for a proper rest, that’s all. I sighed when they left us alone in the room.

"Why? Why are you being so concerned about it? I have insulted you, called you names and what not.. Ten why are you being so modest with me?” I was really frustrated but I wanted to keep my calm.

She smiled while holding my hand and gently kissed me on my forehead. “Because, you are my daughter. I know you don’t want to call me your mother or even want to keep a relationship with me. And I am fine with that… but, there is a condition… i don’t want you to get involved in unnecessary fights around the palace…” she was looking through my soul while talking to me.

“I wasn’t the one who started that…” I said while being low.

“It doesn’t matter.. And forget whatever happened today.. You should start your new day fresh from tomorrow.. Now just take some rest and good sleep. I will inform the chef to prepare your favourite dishes and send them here..”

The way she was treating me melted my heart a bit. I was glad that I didn't have to go out and face other people here.

“Thank you, your majesty…” I bowed to her.

“You don’t have to do that… just be the way you are… and remember, your past or your blood’s past will never define your character… it is something you have to build and prove the wrong who judge you wrong… not only because you have to smash that truth in their faces, but to prove your worth to yourself…” she stated confidently before leaving.

I was really wondering about the things I have heard about her. Are they really true or I was just getting scammed again? Oh.. it’s much to get over some feelings. I let it be the way it was and rated in my room till the time. Of course, I had wonderful dishes for dinner, just as the queen promised me. It definitely lights up my mood but it doesn’t mean that everything is fine. There is still some business left to be done.

I will never forget my agenda for coming here. No matter how sweet and amazing she appears, she has captured a powerful witch and I need to find that witch sooner.