Goodbye Letter for Darius
We are not perfect because no one is perfect but we are given the freedom to choose. We have choices to do what is right for us to make things perfect according to our likeness. Miracles can happen if we want to. We could make the impossible possible as long as we are willing to take the risk into the situation that gives us the struggle to identify what we really love.
Dear Darius,
It's been so hard for me to say these things but I really have to or else it would not help me to stop crying. I'm so sorry for what happened yesterday. I don't really mean to say goodbye. You know how much I care for you and you are so important to me. Maybe at some point, I'm just nothing for you..maybe I'm just someone that you are fond to talk with when you have nothing to do or when you get bored but it's okay..besides I understand.
Not an excuse that I'd been struggling with the distance that you're making between us even though I know your reasons. I respect that. I'm just hurt that you're making it too obvious. I'd never drunk in my whole life maybe once but that was a very very long time ago..but last night it was so different. I miss you and it hurts me that I know the reasons why you are being so distant from me.
With my friends who kept on asking me to drink... emotionally, I took a shot, and for some reason, it made me feel so lonely and hurt thinking that anytime soon I have to let you go. I can't stand being okay with you. Tipsy, I message you, it was a wrong move. It shouldn't be that way but it already happened.
I even realized that I should have agreed with you when you said that there's no point in calling and talking with each other because no matter how we are aware of what's the real deal between us in some cases there would be complications at a certain point and circumstances.
You are not dead inside. You are not cold. You are actually the opposite of those things. You are a very good companion. You're so sensitive because if you're not you would not make a distance between us. You're a very good listener and even though I get so annoying most of the time you always choose to understand and listen. You even said you're my crying shoulder, my first aid because you feel how to hurt I am. And with all of these small things you're doing it simply shows that you are a person with a good heart. A thoughtful person who cares even for a stranger like me.
I don't want to say goodbye to you in that state of mind and situation like last night. That's why I am writing this. I know that you can perfectly feel how much you mean to me in just a small period of time. I wish you good luck. You take care and it's really true that if you love someone you have to let them go even if it's so hard because that's the right thing to do.
Always,
Zoelle
