Broken Love

Chapter 2 Crush

Zemira Villalos

I saw him smiling widely in the TV screen, looking so happy and refined, wearing a signature clothes while smiling at the camera for a pose. I can hear people in the background, calling his name to get his attention. Everyone is praising his works and admiring with your looks.

It's really clear that you are already up there, sobrang sikat mo na. Kasikatan na pinaghirapan mong makuha. You sacrifice a lot for that dream, kasi ako ang isinakripisyo mo kapalit ng pangarap mo.

But all is good now, no regrets because i see my worth, naabot ko ang pangarap na mag-isa that supposed to be tayong dalawa na magkasama. I am now successful on my own. And there you are, very successful man as well.

Sana sa tagumpay mo ngayon, naging masaya ka, yun naman talaga ang pangarap ko para sayo, ang maging masaya ka.

You deserve all what you got. You really work hard for it.

One day if will meet again, hope you would still remember me. I'm just here, looking at you from afar, admiring from the distance; usal ko sa kanya while looking at him on tv like i was talking to him in person.

I remembered our memories together like it never even pass. Ang pinagdaanan namin noon na gusto kong balikan kasi dun ako naging masayang lubos. Ang masayang alaala namin kung paano kami nagsimulang mangarap together and how we ended reaching our dreams apart, instead the two of us like we promise before.

The past

We were classmate back then, his really persistent, napakakulit. I know nagpapansin lang siya sa akin coz he says it out in the open. He is always vocal on saying words na crush niya ako. Ako naman kinikilig sa bawat hirit niya pero di ko pinahalata.

Who wouldn't like him? He is the most handsome guy not just in our class, kundi sa buong batch namin. Kung ako ang muse, siya naman ang prince charming.

We had an opposite personality. Maingay siya at madaldal sa lahat, ako tahimik lang. I prefer to step behind and observe. I don't really talk so much unless it is important. But him, he is sociable and achiever sa maraming bagay, gutsy, at mataas ang confidence sa sarili, in short he is a leader.

While ako matalino lang but shy kulang sa self confidence, may maraming insecurities sa sarili. Kaya sabi ko sa sarili, maging successful ang taong ito kasi madiskarte, brave, di mahiyain at magaling magdala sa sarili.

Marami siyang kalukuhan sa klase namin pero di naman nakaka-offend. I feel his sincere care and admiration sa akin. He is a gentleman, lagi niya akong inalala, asking me if i am okay, what i like, always brings me foods. Those are the qualities na nagustuhan ko sa kanya.

One afternoon wala kaming klase sa 2 subjects kasi nasa seminar ang teachers namin. Then most of my classmates nasa labas, only few left in the room at isa ako dun.

Then he suddenly came to me lumuhod sa harapan ko at binigyan ako ng roses

Zem, i know you already knew my feelings for you. Can i officially ask you to be my girlfriend? I really really like you a lot; saad niya while looking into my eyes, he is hopeful for me to say yes.

Kahit ayoko ko ng ganito na on the spot ako at may nakatingin na mga tao, pero i still say yes coz i also like him for a long time.

Woohoo finally sinagot na ako ng crush ko; nahihiya ako sa sigaw niya, kasi he got the attention already from our classmate na walang alam. But what can i do? He is very happy and i am too.

That was one of our best moments. He is proud that i am his girlfriend, we are so happy.

I always supported him on his dream specially to be a singer. I saw a big potential na sisikat siya, he is talented in that craft.

He have wrote a lot of songs, ako ang nagtyaga na i-arrange yun na sa tingin ko maging mas maganda pakinggan. When he practice singing and playing instrument ako ang audience at the same time critics na din. He is so inspired to do his passion. I can see it in his eyes, his eagerness when he is composing a song.

Babe ang swerte ko sayo, maganda na, matalino at mabait pa. Promise ko sayo, di kita iiwan, magkasama tayong bubuo sa ating pangarap; his word that time nasa bahay niya kami nagpapractice para sa competition na sasalihan niya.

Kapag naging sikat na ako na singer, isasama kita sa mga tour ko, kilalanin ako Babe, di lang dito sa atin at sa buong Philippines kundi sa international din at isasama kita kung saan ako naruruon. Ang sarap pakinggan ng mga sinasabi niya, full of hope.

Ang taas talaga ng pangarap niya; isa yun sa nagustuhan ko sa kanya, he wouldn't settle for less.

When he tried to join any singing contest, andun ako palagi, cheering in the crowd and when he lose, ako ang unang tatayo at i-comfort siya.

Okay lang yan, marami pa naman dyan na pwede mong salihan, di lang sila marunong tumingin lang magaling; by that he would laugh and light up his mode again.

Babe, remember walang magaling na di nagstart ng mahirap or sa failure. Think of this as your training ground to stardom.

I tried to motivate him when he feels discourage. I realize relationship is two way, when one is down, the other should stand kasi di pwedeng dalawa kayong malugmok.

Literally kung nasaan siya andun ako, kilala na kami pareho ng mga magulang namin, both of the families accepted our relationship, basta lang daw di kami lalampas sa limitasyon. Sabi ng parents niya, i am a good influence sa kanya. Sa side ko di masyado kasi nakikita nila na palagi akong wala, minsan late na makauwi dahil sinamahan ko siya sa mga contest.

I am so happy and contented sa relationship namin. Never pa kaming nag-away, we supported each other. We understand kung ano ang pinapasok at obligation na kaakibat nito. Kahit di pa kami mature by age but our mind seems mature dahil narin siguro sa kahirapan sa buhay, maaga kaming namulat sa reality.