Addicted to their Love

Chapter 18 Xavier

Xavier's p.o.v.

Yes, Sir. Two words, I heard so many times, from students in the mornings...from submissives in the nights. But it never sounded this f*****g perfect.

" You can't help it can you?", I husked, taking another dangerous step toward her.

Yeniffer exhaled a shaky breath, biting her lip as she stared up at me, her face a light shade of pink as I towered over her, trapping her between that iron desk and me.

" He-help what?"

She blinked at me nervously but didn't push me away, her bright blue eyes looked up at me as if waiting for me to do anything...as if giving me full control. f**k.

Yeniffer has all I'm running away from.

My jaw clenched and I hurriedly put my hand in my pockets before they start moving on their own and do something perverted.

I should really leave right now, but if I leave now, I don't think I will ever summon enough courage to talk about this clearly with her. I don't like lying or pretending. I'll make everything clear, and then, we'll go back to our normal routine, me teaching...her learning, that's it.

No stalking, staring, sniffing, and all the other kind of sick things.

" You said you don't have a crush on me, it's good...it should remain that way.", I stated, trying so hard to act sensible but I'm sounding foolish even to my own ears.

What exactly I'm trying to do anyway?

She said, she didn't have a crush on me, I should let it go. But I can feel she is lying. Ha! As if I'm some lie detector. Pathetic.

" What are you saying?", Yeniffer mumbled, peering up at me with a confused face.

" I'm saying even if you feel that way, I can never return those feelings.", I replied, loudly and clearly.

" What are you talking about.", she frowned.

What...how clearly she wanted to hear. Is she deliberately pushing me, I thought as I stared at her, face still pink and nervous, eyes blinking at me...breath too erratic. No, she doesn't look like she is acting though.

" What do you even mean...that way.", Yeniffer muttered lowly, her eyes flickering from my lips to my eyes. And my knuckles clenched tightly inside my pockets.

" You're gonna make me say it?", I scoffed as I walked closer, shoving her small body more at the desk, " I was trying to put it delicately, but...", I rasped leaning my face down, the way we both were looking directly at each other.

Her lips parted as I breathed near her mouth, our cold noses brushing together, just like our breathless bodies. My eyes stared at her lips for a long moment, and then at her eyes, I let her believe I'm going to kiss her.

But then, Yeniffer whimpered when I suddenly stepped back, taking away the warmth her body must have felt as she just shivered. Her face was red like a rose, and f**k these doe blue eyes, they have this begging look, I'm enjoying too much. And I shouldn't enjoy it, and she shouldn't feel it, feel this.

I took another step back and leaned on the wall, staring back at her still-stunned little face, " See, that look on your eyes...", I smirked, " It's screaming, 'I want you to break me, screw me'...You want it right?"

" Right.", Yeniffer breathed in a daze, still looking at me from a hooded gaze.

I didn't foresee her accepting it this easily though. Yeniffer always surprises me. Anyway, she makes it easy for me to make her understand it now.

" But, you shouldn't want it, not from me, Yeniffer."

I gave her a pointed look when she was about to step closer to me, she instantly stopped right there. f**k, she is perfect.

" It's my fault anyway.", I shook my head, " I thought it's cute how attached you got, and I kept you too close. I'm sorry.", I confronted her honestly, feeling so f*****g guilty as I watched her sad face.

But I've to make her understand, if her obsession will keep going like this, then at last, it's going to be her who will leave hurt and in pain. She is too young and naive.

My eyes looked at her sternly when Yeniffer gripped the iron desk so tightly that it... broke?

" You're also going to principal Magnus's office. No exceptions from now on.", I said, gaping between the desk and her angry golden eyes.

" You're not special to me, Yeniffer.", I rasped, more to myself than to her.

Yeniffer didn't reply after that, just left hurriedly, and this time I didn't stop her.

I strolled towards the iron desk instead and stopped in front of it. My eyes stared at the mended piece. It's a big and heavy desk...will at least take two or three jocks to pick it up.

And Yeniffer folded its corner like some piece of paper. Taking out my phone I clicked a picture of it and put it back.

As I rubbed the broken folded iron...only one question popped into my mind, the same one that I asked myself the day I first saw her.

What are you, Yeniffer Johnson?

•• ~~~••

I heard her heels clicking on the white tiles as I pressed the bell again. The small wooden door opened just in a few minutes, revealing a very cheerful-looking Elora.

Before I could even see her face clearly she pulled me inside, closed the door, and gave me a tight hug. Smiling, I wrapped my arms around her, put my chin on her shoulder, and inhaled the fruity scent of her cologne.

Suddenly, I felt guilty and squeezed her more tightly as if that will make this feeling go away. But it didn't.

I'm still feeling like an asshole.

What happened this morning...it was nothing. I didn't cheat on Elora. I didn't hug my student, or kissed her...or touched her. I just sniffed her...like a f*****g creep and got hard. But it shouldn't count, right?

Yeniffer left sad and angry, didn't even attend my class, nor did I see her in corridors or near my apartment. Before coming here, I took a bath, jerk myself...and thought of Elora, not once did I think about that silver hair beauty. I did nothing wrong.

Then why I felt wrong?

Elora wiggled and come out of my hold, giggling at my clinginess, " So, birthday boy, you look happy today.", her deep brown eyes chimed at me as she give me that same warm smile, that always made my heart soothe.

Little did she know, I'm being clingy because of guilt, not because of happiness. But, I am happy.

I should happy.