And Then She Was Gone (book 4)

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Alexa's p.o.v

I watch as my mate leaves with my sister and all of her friends. I have a feeling he is in love with her and wishes she was his mate instead of me. He has never said it out loud, but he doesn't need to say it. He is the Alpha to his pack and has never invited me to his pack. He has never introduced me to his parents. When we first saw eachother and found out we were mates he seemed happy. He yelled to everyone he was mated to a princess, then he saw me struggling to walk and his whole demeanor changed. When he found out I had a sister that is identical to me he started wanting to be around her. He once made a comment that twin werewolves sometimes are mated to one person, but said that he didn't feel a bond with Alexcia. I told him that it is maybe because we are Lycans. The goddess normally blesses us each with our own mate. He just nodded and never brought it up again. My family tells me to ignore them and try to cheer me up, but it hurts that he didn't even say hi, happy birthday or goodbye. We should just move on. We can't just wait here until he decides if he wants us or not. His wolf wants us and is angry at him. my wolf Ava tells me. Lycans can die if we reject eachother. I think to myself. We are strong, we will survive. Ava says. She is angry by the way he treats us and how he dismisses us and our feelings. I don't know why he even comes here if he doesn't even talk to me. No wait, I do know. He comes here for my sister.

The night ends and as I am walking upstairs to my room my friend Steve runs over to help me. "Good evening your majesty" he says and I laugh. "Really Steve?" I say and giggle. "Happy Birthday Alexa" he says and gives me a hug. "Thank you Steve. Why aren't you out with everyone else?" I ask. "Not my scene and definitly not my type of people. I'm not really fond of people who disrespect their mates. He is so lucky to be mated to you Alexa. I do not know how he doesn't see that. He should be worshipping the ground you walk on." he tells me. "I'm weak Steve. No Alpha wants a mate like me who can't even walk properly or shift." I tell him. "Well then he and all of the Alpha's with that mentality are ìdìots. Want to take a walk in the garden?" he asks me and gives me his arm to take. He walks very slow while we talk. Steve is so nice and caring. Why couldn't the moon goddess bless me with him as a mate? She sure works in mysterious ways. We talk about any and everything. He tells me how he hopes to find his mate soon. He really wants a fated mate, but says if the right person comes along he wouldn't mind taking a chosen one. He is just ready to love someone. I feel a little pang of jealousy for whoever ends up with him. He will be an amazing mate. I tell him about the painting my granmother gifted me. He offers to take me to an art show next weekend and I agree. Maybe I can get my grammy to go with us. We agree to keep in touch about the art show and he walks me me to my room. I do my nighttime routine and go to bed.

I wake up a couple of hours later feeling the worst pain ever. All over my body. I often get this feeling. I got scared when I first felt it. When I asked the dr what it was he said I was feeling the betrayal of my mate. He was being intimate with someone else. I pray to the moon goddess and just cry through it. This happens almost every night. You would think I am used to it by now. I am too embarrassed to tell anyone about it. He already doesn't hide that he doesn't want me, now imagine if everyone knew that he is sleeping around even now that he knows that we are mates. I will be the laughing stock of the castle and everyone will feel even more sorry for me. The pain is finally over and I can fall asleep. This usually drains me so much.

I wake up the next day and my family are all at the breakfast table. "Goodmorning honey" my mother says. "Morning" I reply. "How did you sleep sissy?" Alexcia asks with a smirk. "Fine" I reply. She rolls her eyes. What is her problem? "So girls, I was thinking that today we could all go shopping together. There's an event coming up in a month and I won't have time to go shopping because we are going to be really busy, so I need to go today." Mom tells us. "I don't think so mom" I say "Alexa" She snaps. "Oh leave her mom, she will just slow us down anyways." Alexcia says. "Alexcia, don't say that and Alexa you are going. Both of you go upstairs and get ready, now!" mom tells us. I groan. I hate shopping with them. Mom is going to make us try every single thing on. "Dad" I say hoping he can save me. "babygirl, you need to get out of the house. Go have fun with your mother and your sister. Mom needs some extra love. Help me cheer her up" he mind links me. "Okay, fine" I whine. Lets get a bunch of new clothes, I have a feeling our lives will change soon. Ava chimes in. This girl swears. Our boring pathetic life. I get upstairs and change and return back down and they are already waiting for me and my sister looks annoyed. I don't even stop and sit, I walk straight to the truck since it will take me longer to get there.

We get to the mall and my sister takes off. Mom walks with me and tells me to ignore Alexcia, that she doesn't know any better. Mom tells me about the new book she is reading and promises to let me read it when she is done. "How are you and your mate?" she asks. "I do not know mom. We do not even speak." I tell her truthfully. "Oh honey, mates are hard work sometimes. I hope things work out however you want them to. No matter what, daddy and I are always here for you you know that right?" she asks me and I nod. "Mom, how are you?" I ask her. I don't think people really ever ask her that. Atleast not anymore. "I'm fine" she says and tries to put on a brave face. I grab her hand and squeeze it. "We'll find her mommy. She has to be out there somewhere. Carter is going to find her." I tell her. Her eyes tear up and she gives me a sad smile. "So, what is this event?" I ask her, changing the subject so she won't be sad.

"It's a werewolf gala I think. I'm not entirely sure. I think some people receive awards, but your great grandfather personally requested dad to present some awards, so we have to go." she says. I nod that sounds cool. Atleast she will get out of the house for a couple of days. It will do her good. for us too. lets go to the gala or atleast take a trip somewhere. Ava says and I think it over. That actually sounds like a good idea. A trip somewhere sounds nice.