Theo I don't know where I am but it's dark, just complete darkness. I can't see, feel or hear anything. I'm confused but also extremely grateful for not being able to feel anything because there's no longer any pain, I can't remember the last time I went more than an hour without any pain. I've been here for a while now and it is amazing but I do need to figure out where I am. I've tried to speak to Luca but he's not answering me, I don't know if he's blocked me or if he's just not speaking to me for some reason or maybe he's finally left me. Honestly, I don't think he's left me, and I don't think he'll ever leave me but if he has then it's ok he deserves more from his life than I can give him but I'd be lying if I said I don't miss him, I wish he was here with me. Being alone is not a f