My Omega Slave

Chapter 4 ~ Theo

Theo

After the Alpha told me to leave the kitchen I quietly made my way back to my bedroom hoping to avoid seeing anyone on the way there, and thankfully I was successful. My shirt is full of blood from my broken nose so I take it off and grab the only other shirt I own, it needs washing but it's better than being covered in blood.

I decide to grab my dirty clothes and bar of soap and head to the lake and wash my clothes while I have some time. It's not often I can wash my clothes as I have to use the same bar of soap for washing my body and clothes and the bar of soap has to last me one whole year. If I run out before I won't get anymore but I will get beatings for smelling bad. I learned the hard way not to run out of soap before the year is up.

Only once it happened way before Jack was Alpha and he and two of the Warriors beat me within an inch of my life. They said that the smell of me was so bad that it was making everyone ill and they beat me so badly that I was in the pack hospital for three weeks. I was just grateful that Alpha Jason found Jack with me and had me taken to the doctor or I doubt I would have survived the beating.

Of course, Jack lied and told him that I was attacked by Rogues but I wasn't surprised about it. A wolf like Jack doesn't own up to what he's done. A wolf like him doesn't see any wrong in what they do either. They think that they are entitled and use scare tactics or blackmail to keep the bad s**t hidden while they use the world to gloat about the rare fake good that they do.

And just as I suspected he would Jack took the full credit for saving my ass from the Rogues when all along he was the one responsible for the state of me, well him and two of his ass-kissing Warriors. I'll never forget the feeling of relief when I woke up in the hospital room and knew that I was going to be ok. But I also knew that would be the only time that I would ever see the pack doctor, Jack would be more careful in the future and I was right. That was the last time that I saw the pack doctor for any injuries, I'm not allowed. I'm made to just heal myself and get on with my work.

Alpha Jason was a good man, he had no idea about the stuff that went on with me. Other Omegas were treated badly but thankfully nothing like me, I wouldn't want anyone to suffer as I do. I know if Alpha Jason had known about the abuse he would have stopped it but I just couldn't take the risk, it wasn't just my life at risk but the other Omegas. Jack has made it very clear that if I told Alpha Jason what was going on that he would hurt the other Omegas and I wasn't willing to play with their lives so I kept quiet. Of course, none of us expected the Alpha to die as he did and after his death, things only got worse.

Werewolves have incredible healing speed so it's very rare they need to visit the hospital and most injuries will heal within a few hours but that only works for healthy strong werewolves. I used to be incredibly strong before I came here, and with my height of 6ft5, I never had trouble instilling fear into other people enough that it kept my family safe. But since I've been here I've lost all that strength, all the muscle, and now I just look scrawny and useless.

Who am I kidding I am useless I don't have the strength to stand up to anyone anymore mentally or physically. Between the beatings, Whippings and only being fed when Alpha allows it I'm just a mess. Yes, you heard right I'm not allowed to eat a normal amount of food like everyone else, hell some days I'm not allowed to eat at all, I have to be grateful for any scraps the Alpha throws my way. The Omegas eat in the kitchen so Jack always got away with starving me even before he became Alpha.

There's only so much of this abuse that anyone's body can take though and I know one day my body will give up, I won't be able to fight it anymore and I'll just die. Believe me, when I say I've had moments where I've willed the end to come, almost begged the Moon Goddess to allow me that one mercy of death.

I've had moments where I've thought about just ending it all myself and I've come close to doing it more than once but for some reason, I just can't do it. I don't know why or what the reason is but something always stops me, always holds me back, and right at this very moment all I can think of is how easy it would be to run through the forest to the cliff tops and simply jump off, end it all, no one would miss me and I would be free.

"Theo...Theo, please don't do it, I'm here, I'd miss you." Luca my wolf invades my thoughts with the saddest voice I've ever known him to have. I still don't know how he's around usually once you get too weak your wolf leaves you, moves on to someone else, and your wolfless. However Luca has never left me, he's always stood by me, even though I haven't been able to run in wolf form for the last six months due to being so unhealthy he's still here with me.

He's been the only wolf I've had in my life that hasn't hated me since the day that I lost my family and pack. Hearing Luca's voice brings me out of my mind and I focus my attention on the beautiful view in front of me, the lake, the trees, and the calm and peace that it brings me.

"I hate knowing your sad Luca you know I do but why shouldn't I do this? Just end it all, I can be free and you'd get a new wolf to live with, someone who deserves you and can let you run free. Can be strong and brave, not hiding from everyone and everything."

"I don't want another wolf, Theo it's always been us, we'll get through this together. Things will get better one day I promise just please hang on for me, for us, you're not alone. It won't always be like this, Theo."

"I'm sorry Luca. I won't do anything I just pray to the Moon Goddess that your right and better times will come." I realize I've been by the lake for a while now and should head back to the house to clean the kitchen up. I grab the clothes that I've washed and soap and make my way back to my room. I hang my wet clothes on the makeshift line I have in my room and make my way to the kitchen. My ribs are throbbing and my head is pounding and I send a silent prayer to the Moon Goddess that today ends quickly, I need to lay down, and the sooner the better.