Chapter 15
Dr. Seward's Diary—cont.For a while sheer anger mastered me. It was as if he had during
her life struck Lucy on the face. I smote the table hard and rose
up as I said to him, "Dr. Van Helsing, are you mad?"
He raised his head and looked at me, and somehow the tenderness
of his face calmed me at once. "Would I were!" he said. "Madness
were easy to bear compared with truth like this. Oh, my friend,
whey, think you, did I go so far round, why take so long to tell so
simple a thing? Was it because I hate you and have hated you all my
life? Was it because I wished to give you pain? Was it that I
wanted, no so late, revenge for that time when you saved my life,
and from a fearful death? Ah no!"
"Forgive me," said I.
He went on, "My friend, it was because I wished to be ge
