Alpha and his abused mate

I'm Lily Water and I'm the daughter of the Alpha of the Black Water pack. My pack treats me like I'm nothing because my mother died in child birth. My dad can never forgive me for killing his mate. I have light brown hair and green eyes with freckles on my face. I have scar's all over my body and under weight. I get clothes from the trash because I am not allowed nice things. I am like nothing to anyone here. I'm like a punching bag for anyone. I have no one, I'm all alone here. I get abused, tortured, and many failed attempts of being r***d by males in my pack, most of the time it's my older brother Sam. Sam is everyone's favorite because he strong, smart and he is next in line for alpha. He is already mated to Amy. Amy is cold hearted and only cares about money and power. She is like the queen of the pack. Everyone does anything she says. I am not aloud outside the house. Not even for school. My dad gives me a book and tells me to learn. I don't get that much time to do it because I have to cook and clean the whole pack house. Our pack is not the strongest but we make up for it in size. We were close to becoming one of the top three but my mom died and my dad could not take his mates death so we dropped in ranks over night. I know very little about being mates and that type of stuff because nobody will tell me and my wolf Lilith stopped talking to me a year ago when I did not fight back. I really miss her.