Finding Redemption

                  ****************************************                     Back in time?                     Second chance?                     Goddess of time?                     Magicians and sorcerers?                  Just like in fairytale stories?                 *************************************** Yes it's true, I was given a second chance for my pitiful ending. But unlike fairytale stories kung saan the prince protects his princess and had their happy ending. I was given a chance to find my redemption.  my life was not like that nor any similar to a disney princess who was loved by everyone.             ************************************** In this world where super natural exists. I chose to: Devote my whole life to fight in the battlefield for the prince and to bring him victory and crown and to earn his love.Despite being his fiance I chose to do everything for the prince and to be his female knight. I thought as long as we love each other I don't care if I lose my sanity and to stain my hands in blood.I don't mind being hated by the world as long as he loves me. I was selfish and wanted his love just for me. I was only a weapon for him, a sacrifice. My goal was to make him the next emperor so I tried my best to fight for him. Dala ang ulo ng emperor as an offering to him.I was happy dahil sa aking pagbabalik sa piling niya inaasahan kong ako na ang magiging asawa niya sa tabi niya but I was wrong! Ang tanging ginawa ko lang pala ay gawin silang masaya kasama ng iba at ako na magdurusa, for I was only a sacrifice for their happiness.I wasn't expecting this. Pinangakuan ako to be his queen pag balik ko mula sa battlefield. Pero ang tanging naghihintay lang pala sakin sa aking pagbabalik sa kaharian ay ang ka awa awang kamatayan. Wala akong lakas ng loob upang labanan siya, my prince, Who I loved so much. For all this time, I only fought for him, to protect him. And that is where i ended up dying in the hands of the most important person in my life. Abandoned?betrayed?killed? No, more than that. I was so shattered and in pain I can no longer think na kahit nabigyan man ako ng chance na bumalik sa nakaraan dahil sa ka awa awa kong sinapit, nawalan na ko lahat ng pag asang  lumaban pa. I can no longer fight. Bakit kailangang mangyare ito?ang ginusto ko lang naman ay masuklian din ang pagmamahal na binigay ko at mga sakripisyo ko.Pero kahit kailan, I was never loved. Kahit na nabalik ako sa oras by the goddess of time Hestia I already lost all my reasons to live, I would never hold a sword again. I will never LOVE him AGAIN. I won't fight anymore, I am so sick of being used and abandoned. But what if all I thought changed after all and destiny pitied me and redeemed my life . As I met the duke and prince Caitel in my next life,my life was never desame again. I know that I am here for a purpose, to redeem myself.           **********************************************