Broken

Chapter 9: Landon's Confession

“I’ll begin with the divorce of my parents, the summer right before 6th grade, my mom cheater so did my dad, it was messy it messed with my emotions and changed me into a monster, I woke up in a bad mood the first day of 6th grade. My mom was picking me up to bring me to school, my father was drunk still from the night before, they started fighting as I got ready, I finished went downstairs, my dad came at me punched me in the ribs a few times, I held in the anger he caused, my mom brought me to school, I got out and walked in, I spotted you, the prettiest girl in class to me.

My brain went crazy, it twisted into anger as I looked at you, I kept thinking of my dad, I took out all of that anger on you instead of him, I shouldn’t have, I tried to stop myself but my bipolar got the best of me, don’t worry I’m much better now, on meds so I won’t snap and harm you. I never meant to hurt you, ever. As the years went on my parents relationship got worse, my anger got worse, I was fueled by Tanner and Greyson too, they both teamed up and it was so wrong of us, but we felt it was the best way, you never ratted us out, but we also threatened you so you listened, you took all our s**t for 5 years and then disappeared, dying did I kill you? Break you? Was I the reason your heart stopped? I saw you were gone for a week and came back, you were different. Im so sorry for all the awful s**t I did to you baby, I will never ever touch you like that ever again I promise.”

As he finishes I look at him, “I tried to kill myself, I succeeded you could say, my heart stopped a few times, they didn’t think I would make it, Trevor found me bleeding out, any longer it would have been too late. Yes you did break me, you guys pushed me over the edge into darkness I never thought I’d ever face, I’m alive by a miracle.

Yes my heart stopped because of the actions of that day, what you did tore my heart out, all the beatings did from you guys. It was never ending pain, it sucked badly, when you and Greyson stopped hurting me, I felt a bit better, but Tanner was still ripping me open, almost pushing me back into that darkness, I had to spill my soul to a therapist, I still do, until she clears me and feels I’m not going to hurt my myself again. Which don’t worry I’m not going to ever do it again, working on the not crossing my mind, she told me that would take some time, but with enough good things happening, I might be able to fight it off quicker. You and I will be happy, I’m still pissed at Trevor, but all the feelings I had for him disappeared, he f****d me over, I have moved on. I have you and that’s all I care about right now not him.”

He squeezes my leg gently, “You are so full of forgiveness, you didn’t ever need to forgive for what I did to you. ”

I hug him tightly, “It’s because I love you.”

“I love you too baby,” he replies then kisses me.

I kiss back, he wraps his arms around me hugging me as he kisses me. Once he pulls away I smile at him, he pulls me up,

“Let’s head back to Natalia’s baby,” he says grabbing his keys.

I nod, and take his hand holding it, “Okay let’s go.”

We walk out of his room, walking downstairs and out to his truck, he unlocks it, we get in and he drives back to Natalia’s. He parks, we get out, he locks his truck and we go into Natalia’s house, Natalia’s making breakfast,

“There you two are, ” Greyson says.

I look at him, “Yep.”

“I needed a shower and to change,” Landon replies.

Tanner glares at me per usual, I roll my eyes wishing he’d cut his s**t, it was quite annoying. Landon caught me rolling my eyes, seeing Tanner’s glare, he looked at Tanner, slightly annoyed at him and his glares, I had a feeling Tanner was jealous, it drove me crazy. I wanted to know his reasoning, but with that I probably would, but for now I had heard two off their stories, Tanner’s had yet to come.