Howard
I laid down on my bed in my apartment. There was no practice, and I had nothing to do, so I was bored. If my mood was better, I could have gone outside to look for something to do, but I just didn't feel like it.
How could Mom do this to me?
My thoughts were unfair, and I knew it, but they persisted. Because I missed the dinner, I didn't hear it at the same time as Zoe did, but Mom had called me and told me about her getting married with no warning to me, and to Ben of all people. I wished now that I'd sucked it up and gone to sit with them so I could read Zoe's reaction to the news, or at least tried to talk to her.
Fuck!
This just made everything that much more complicated for me.
Because I was taking Ben's deal, I hadn't had time to talk to Zoe. I didn't want to tell
