Jordan
I didn’t want to go to work today. I didn't want to do anything but stay home, wallow in my own self pity and hate myself for the situation I put us in. I have been trying to call Summer every thirty minutes all night long to try to get her to talk to me. I’ve been sending her messages and she hasn’t read any of them. It's excessive but honestly, I don't care. I know I messed up and I need to fix it before it's too late so I figured, if I harass her now she will have to speak to me at some point. I knew she wasn’t with Ray since she drove right by her house and I stood outside for over a fuckin hour, seeing if she turned around or came back or something. I f****d up, big time. I don’t know why I kicked her out. I don’t know why I accused her of these things. I didn’t want her to le
