Becca. The storms that had come in the night before were rougher than I had expected. However, through the whistling wind and cracks of lightning, I found solace in being wrapped up in bed with both children in my arms. The future was changing, and for the first time in months, I let my mind wander to James. To the deep darkness of his eyes and the warm touch of his body against mine. I wished more than anything he was here with me to relish in moments like this with the children and to see them both growing. I had to admit I was lonely, and even though I could admit it to myself, I couldn't admit it to anyone else. The last thing I wanted was for the others to be worried about me. Especially when I had taken so much for granted over the past year. In the morning light, I crept out of