Becca. After the conversation with James the day before, I felt the need to escape for a few days. I wasn't sure what I was going to do or where I would go, but the confusion I felt made me unsure of everything. I was going completely against my beliefs and acting a fool. However, deep inside me, I felt nothing but love for him. Love… I couldn't believe I could still feel such a thing after Chad. Yet, with James, he made me feel like anything was possible. Sitting on my bed, I took in my open suitcase and stacks of clothing I had been folding. I had no idea what I was doing, but the thought of leaving him broke my heart. How had this man complicated my life as much as he had? Perhaps I needed to just come clean with him. Tell him how much I cared about him, and see if there was a