Ivy Sparks
I want Ben, and I want this. I really do, but I'm so nervous. I've never gone farther with a guy than just making out. Nobody has ever touched me intimately or seen me in anything less than a swimsuit. I've never had my hands on any part of a man's body but his shoulders or back. So much of what I'm about to do is such a mystery to me. I don't know exactly what I'm supposed to do. Probably the best thing is to just let Ben take charge. The first time we kissed, he was very respectful, seemed to be constantly watching my reactions to things and not pushing any farther than I was comfortable. I know I can trust him to treat me well, but I also don't want to just lay there and react. I want to make sure he understands that I'm not just letting him have me. That this is something
