Breaking The Fate

Chapter five

Chapter five: The beach is my therapy.

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For the first time, I lock myself in the bedroom. Nobody in this place is allowed to lock their bedroom doors, but I am locking them.

I am scared that August will come in and continue what he was trying to do. I feel disgusted only by thinking about it, and I can't help but think of what might've happened if Iris didn't come in.

I let myself cry again because of how sickening I feel.

I wasn't born to be August's wife, and I know that for sure.

"Leah, open the door!" I hear August's voice from behind the door as he twists the knob aggressively multiple times.

I want to yell no, but the sobs escaping my mouth aren't stopping anytime soon.

I don't want him to know that I am crying or think I am scared of him.

I am not scared of him, I am afraid of what he's going to do, and I don't want to make a scene.

"G-give me a minute," I manage to get those words out of me.

I storm into the bathroom and wash my face with cold water.

After a minute of trying to calm down, I look at my red nose and curse myself for my nose that turns red whenever I cry.

I walk back and forth in the bathroom, wishing for my red nose to disappear. "Close your eyes, and I'll be here with you tonight. I'm by your side, and I promise we are not saying goodbye."

I sing quietly to the song my brother used to sing to me. When we got in trouble, he knew I was scared when my hand began to shake to reduce my nerves, and he would sing me this song.

It has stuck in my head ever since the day we got caught by the police. Alexander had the idea to steal candy from a small supermarket, but he didn't think that there would be any cameras around the area. When we hid behind a bin to eat, we heard footsteps in front of us, and that causes my anxiety to rise.

Now I sing this song when I feel nervous or scared because it helps.

"No matter what happens, I'm right here by your side, I am your brother, and we will always have each other," I sing quietly to myself.

A couple of minutes later, and August is wiggling the doorknob, I look at myself in the mirror to see that my red nose has finally disappeared.

I get out of the bathroom and open the bedroom door. August looks mad as he scowls at me. "What? Did you forget the rule?"

"No, and I don't care about the rule," I glare at him. "What do you want?"

"How dare you speak to me like that?" He raises a clenched fist. "Do you know who you're talking to?"

"I don't care who I am talking to," I answer. "You lost my respect when you disconnected me from my family, who live thousands of miles away from me."

I close the door on his face because I can't handle looking at his ugly- annoying face that makes me want to punch him so hard that he won't wake up ever again.

I am not a horrible person, I made mistakes in the past, but they weren't as big as killing someone. I will never kill someone. I can't imagine why that soul left the body, and I am sure if I killed someone by accident, I would die after him.

However, when it comes to August, my views on murderers change. I am killing someone who is destroying our world, but the only problem is, I am the only one who knows that he's a bad guy.

A bad king.

I feel like I am missing something, but I don't know what.

I feel lost and empty like I am about to explode any minute now. It sucks being away from your family, and it sucks more to be married to a heartless man.

August finally disappears after banging on the door for a while, and this time I look at the secret clothes I have behind all the dresses.

I look at my black sweatpants and a plain white t-shirt. I take the blue hoodie and wear it.

I will try to sneak out of this prison for a couple of hours because I need to be alone.

I take my phone and throw it onto the floor, and I begin to step on it over and over again until it breaks into pieces.

I know when August finds out, he is going to try and track my phone. He is creepy.

I want to run away, and I want to escape this crazy place. I feel like I am alone in this, and I want out of here.

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I know my way out of this prison, and I already told the guards that I will be leaving.

I reach the beach, and I tell Mateo to wait for me in the car.

I chose Mateo to come with me, and the only thing he is going to do is sit in the car.

I decided the beach is the best place to go since I can throw my worries out into the sea.

I said yes to August, so it is no one's fault but me.

However, how would've I known that he'd turn on me overnight?

I don't cry, but I think about the night I said goodbye to my family. The last night I saw them, and I haven't seen them since then.

Flashback

Logan smiles sadly at me. "I'm probably going to miss you."

We are standing in the middle of the hallway, in between the kitchen where my mom and Iris are chatting, and the living room where my father and August's father – plus the rest of my brothers – are talking about the changes I will have and the challenges that I might face.

"You better," I hit the back of his head lightly. "I am probably going to miss you too."

"Alexander was crying last night," he whispers in my ear. "Don't tell him I told you."

I smile. "He is my favorite brother."

"Shut up," he scowls. "Let the others hear you, and they will freak out."

I pout. "I don't know why I agreed to this."

"Me too," he mumbles. "Look, August can be out of his mind, but he is a good man, and you always have to remind him that he's a good man."

I whine. "So, August is not the person everyone thinks he is?"

"No, no!" He shakes his head. "He is exactly what everyone thinks about him, but he has a little bit of a dark side, like any other human being. Just because he is a king, it doesn't mean that he isn't a normal human being."

"Why are you telling me this?" I ask, crossing my arms over my chest. "Do you not want me to marry him?"

"Leah, you're already married to him," Logan rolls his eyes playfully. "You are my little sister, and I don't want to see you get hurt."

"So, you think August is going to hurt me?" I gasp. 

“No, he is not going to hurt you,” Logan chuckles.

Flashback ends

I don’t know how I was strong enough to handle three months without my siblings. Logan, Alexander, Scarlett, Meghan, Ashton, Daniel, Joseph, and Nate.

We did everything together; we were inseparable. They were the ones who taught me how to live, how to care about others, and how to be kind to others. Without them, I can’t live, I can’t care about others, and I can’t be kind to others.

They were my rock, and they were the greatest gifts my parents ever gave me. Well, I was a gift to them.

My mother gave birth to my two sisters; first, she was only seventeen when she had Meghan, then one year later; she gave birth to Scarlett. They waited until my mom turned twenty to get another, hoping for a boy. Luckily, they had Joseph. They wanted to stop, but mom wanted a friend for Joe, so one year later, she had Ashton.

Then, they stopped trying to get kids because they had four already. Two girls and two boys, the perfect family.

However, accidents happen, and they had Daniel after six years of not having babies. Then, they wanted a friend for Daniel, so one year later, they had Nate.

Another accident happened, and they had Logan. Following behind him after two years was Alexander. In less than a year, my parents wanted to try for one more.

According to them, one more couldn’t do any harm, and they prayed for a girl, and they had me.

Meghan got married when she was twenty-eight, and Scarlett got married six months before me. 

August is why I didn’t see them in so long, and it makes me hate him even more.

I glare at the sea, and I scream. No one is here but me, so I am not disturbing anyone.

I scream all my anger out. “I-”

“I heard that the sea fires back when you scream at it for no reason,” an unfamiliar voice appears behind me.

I jolt backward, and I turn around to look at the boy—a handsome boy who is shirtless – shaped six abs, messy curly blond hair, and brown eyes.

“That’s ironic,” he laughs. “Fire and water don’t get along, and the sea won’t fire back if-”

He begins to laugh out of nowhere, and he looks at me when he finally stops. “Reece.”

I don’t answer but stare at him weirdly.

“Now it is your turn to tell me your name,” he sighs. “Unless you don’t have a name.”

I raise my eyebrows at him but still do not respond.

“Do you speak English?” He asks.

“Leah,” I finally respond.

He nods. “Nice name, but a little too late. Are you okay?”

“Yes,” I furrow my eyebrows.

“For the first time, you’ve answered quickly,” he grins.

I ignore him and turn around to look at the sea.

“I know I am a stranger, but I promise I don’t bite,” he stands next to me and stares at the sea.

“I came here to think, and I want to think alone,” I tell him. “So, leave me alone.”

He is not from around here. He would’ve recognized me by now.

“Instead of throwing your worries into the ocean, tell them to me, and I will help you for sure,” he grins widely.

I want to be nice to him. As a queen, I have to be kind to others, but again, I can’t be kind when I don’t have my siblings by my side.

“Can you please leave me alone?” I mumble, looking down at my bare feet.

“August must’ve hurt you badly,” he tells me, looking at me with furrowed eyebrows.

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