Devenity: Unknown World

Chapter 4

You could cut the air in the room with a knife, both Xayvion and Belcaris were ready to rip each other's throats out, Emerlae, however, just stood by and waited for her sister.

"Eme, let's go"

Belcaris took to her heels and stormed out of the cabin, I could breathe a little with her gone

"And you? Shouldn't you be following your sister?"

Xayvion looked at Emerlae, who was still in place

"Unlike my sister, I don't want to fight, I truly believe we can both come to an agreement if you just accept to listen to us"

"I-"

"Emerlae! Outside, now!"

Before I could even consider what she said, Belcaris yelled at the top of her lungs

"Your sister will never let that happen, take that thing out of here will yah"

Xayvion dismissed

I was caught between a rock and a hard place, I agreed with Emerlae, it's obvious they won't give up so easily and neither will Xayvion, if we could hear each other out I know the situation would be better.

Emerlae sighed

"We miss you Dev, I just want you to know that"

Those were her final words before leaving, my chest clenched at her words, she seemed so sincere and heartbroken.

"You see what I mean? They are irritating, especially the angry one"

"Hmm"

I couldn't agree nor disagree with him, Belcaris was a little on the annoying side but that could be because, if indeed I am her sister, she's frustrated that I don't remember her at all.

"Come on, don't let them get to you, you must be hungry"

"Starving"

"As anticipated, Charlotte is cooking something awesome, can't you smell it?"

"I'm a little distracted right now"

Xayvion took my hand and pulled me out of the living room

"Less thinking, more eating"

"Yes sir"

***

Although my mind was clouded with thoughts I couldn't ignore Charlotte's food, she went all out in celebrating me waking up, there was so much meat my mouth watered just looking at it

It was almost as if my stomach tripled since the last time I ate, I munched down on everything in sight until only bones remained on the plate, I was even tempted to eat them.

Xayvion was shocked by my massive appetite, he sat in awe and watched as I devoured each plate one at a time. When I was done I offered to wash the dishes but Charlotte chased me from the kitchen.

It was early in the afternoon when Mabaya finally came to visit me, I missed her so much, the feelings were returned as she hugged me when she first saw me, I think it was the first time we embraced.

"You have changed a lot child"

"I know, I feel so different, like I'm inhabiting someone else' body"

"Sit down and tell me what exactly you feel and how you woke up"

We both sat in my own room, it hadn't been touched since I went into the coma.

"Well, where to even begin? Somehow it feels like every time I blackout I always enter this strange void".

"What's in the void?"

"I don't know, I can't see or feel anything, it's just me, alone, battling with my thoughts"

"What kind of thoughts?"

"The usual, who or what am I, where do I come from? Those sorts of things"

"And when you were in the void this time, were you still thinking about the same thoughts?"

"No...I don't think so, or I just can't remember"

"So how did you wake up?"

"I think I forced myself up"

"Oh?"

"Yeah, I was feeling really hot or something, I was tired of being in the void I guess"

Mabaya had a thoughtful expression on her face

"I think there's more to it, you really can't remember anything else?"

"I'm afraid if I try to remember I might go back to the void or my head will hurt really badly again"

"That's understandable, we'll try again when you're ready"

"Thank you"

I was grateful to talk to Mabaya again, her grandmother-like aura always gave me comfort.

"By the way, how have you been? With all the things that have been happening, I can imagine it hasn't been easy for you"

"Because I'm old?"

"No, because you're the pack healer"

"I'm messing with you child, I have been doing quite well, it is true that my work became ten times harder because of the constant attacks but it keeps me on my toes"

"I still can't believe those bastards are going on a rampage, what exactly is wrong with them?"

"If I said I knew I would be lying to you, it has shocked even the council"

"If you ask me, the council should be replaced, how can so many bad things be happening and they don't know what to do?"

"Take it easy on them, they have decades worth of experience, these new times are coming with problems they've never faced before"

"Hmm...I guess you're right"

"But that aside, your body has undergone quite a transformation, do you feel like it's indicating what species you are?"

"That's all I've been thinking about since I woke up and realized these changes, truth be told, because of those two girls..."

"Belcaris and Emerlae?"

"Y-yes, I assume you know them because they keep coming here"

"Yes, we've also had some conversations every now and then"

"Really, what do you guys talk about?"

"Let me worry about that, don't go astray from the topic"

"Right"

She hadn't changed one bit, always as mysterious as ever

"Anyway, because they claim to be my sister that would mean I'm a werewolf, like everyone else, but if that was so, how come no one has sensed me yet? Werewolves sense fellow werewolves, right?"

"You are correct, if indeed you are their sister you could be a werewolf but there is no proof of it"

"Exactly"

"But what if you were?"

"Huh?"

"So to say they bring evidence and confirm you are indeed their sister, what explanation would there be for your wolf not to be sensed?"

I know Xayvion didn't want me to concern myself with complicated issues since I've just woken up but it can't be helped. Whenever Mabaya is around, she always gives me something to think about;

"That's a tricky one, if indeed they had proof then I guess...I would have to follow them to see what would happen"

She smiled

"I'm glad you're thinking that way, I can tell you know that what is to come is far more dangerous and confusing than what you faced 2 years ago"

I breathed out

"I know, that's all I've been thinking about actually, it's really scaring me"

"Don't be scared, with new confusion comes new strength, you aren't the same girl from 2 years ago, now you're more mature and I know for a fact you were brought here for a reason"

The kind words of a wise woman were food for my soul

"Thank you, I take all your words to heart"

***

Night fell, I was shocked at how quickly it came, Mabaya and I talked for ages which was probably the reason why time went by so quickly. On my mind was so much, I tried to do as Xayvion said, he wanted me to rest so badly but I had rested enough already for the past years, I wanted to do so much but I didn't know how to go about my plans. I was just in the middle of a deep line of thought when I received a visitor at my room, it was Xenia;

"Am I bothering you?"

"No, I was actually hoping for someone to drag me out of my thoughts before I hurt myself"

"Thinking again? Didn't Xayvion say you should take it easy?"

"I know, but what would you do in my shoes?"

She sat at the foot of the bed

"Probably the same"

"You see?"

"But, I would also binge-watch an entire season of tvd to get my mind off things"

"As the current situation stands I don't know when next I'll ever be able to do that"

"I know how feel about all this pressure suddenly falling on your head after a while of being doormat but you really need to take it easy"

"You're right, and I've been so caught up in my own issues I haven't even asked you how you've been coping with the beta position"

"It's been...well"

She suddenly became troubled

"Xenia talk to me, what's wrong?"

She moved closer

"Ever since you went into the coma I have been stressed beyond words, as we speak I'm literally at my limit"

"What? Don't say that, I'm sure you're doing a wonderful job" 

"No matter what I do I will never be Dax"

Her voice cracked

"Is that what this is all about?"

"Dax would never crack under the pressure I'm complaining about, he was always one step ahead and everyone knew they could trust him, but me, it's been two years and I even finally got my wolf out but I still sense everyone's doubt"

"Xenia-"

"I froze one time, during an attack I was so overwhelmed to be put in the front lines, because of that, someone got hurt...because of me...I'm such a useless beta"

"Xenia, no"

I held her shaking body in my arms, she squeezed me back in response and cried on my shoulder. After seeing how much everyone had grown and changed since I last saw them, I knew they had all faced intense battles, not only with the new bloods but within themselves as well, I'm yet to find out what Xayvion has kept bottled up.

"Xenia no one becomes an ace overnight, yes it's been two years but that doesn't mean you should be the territories best beta already...you were assigned to this position at a really hard time, you are filling in the place of a man you saw as your father for so many years, of course, you're going to feel pressured to match up to him and keep his name alive through your actions but the way I knew Dax...he would always tell us to just do our best"

"Would he be proud of me if he saw me now, crying after every mere inconvenience?"

"Yes, you know why? Because he always told us to never ignore our emotions, he knew the importance of that, Dax would be extremely proud of you right now because you're doing your best and giving your all, even when it seems rough"

she wiped her tears and sniffed

"It's been two years of you enduring whatever life threw at you, you should be proud of that"

"Thank you so much...I really needed to hear that, I really needed you"

"I'm here to stay, I promise, we'll get through all the troubles and hardships together, as you are facing your own I am facing my own as well, and as you are passing through them I will as well, just like sisters"

The truth was we all needed healing, every last one of us needs to get back to the way we were before, it's what Dax would want and I'd be sure to give it to him

"I can't believe how cool you are now?"

"Are you trying to say I was lame before?"

"No, but you're definitely not the way I remembered you from years back"

"Is that a good thing or a bad thing?"

"I just said you were cool, didn't I?"

"Get out of my room you sassy thing"

I proceeded to throw my pillows at her head

"Okay, I'm sorry, quite it"

A strange pillow fight followed until I felt my headache return

"You should really rest now"

"Yeah, or Xayvion won't be very happy, keep me company till I fall asleep?"

"I wasn't going to leave anyway"

"Nice"

Laying next to Xenia and holding her closely suddenly brought back the images of Belcaris and Emerlae, I had no idea why they suddenly crossed my mind, perhaps it was because Xenia and I were behaving like sisters. To come all the way here and claim I was their sister meant they missed their sister so much, they missed her embrace and comfort, it was obvious they had been through so much, I wonder how much I have to do with them.