The love he had for Ryan made me shed tears and wished he had that same love for me. I could sense the emotion of love in him. It was also the same love I saw in Stefan’s eyes when he defended Lucy against me.
It was like he never knew who I was anymore.
What am I to these people, a monster that doesn’t deserve to be loved?
Fuck, why do I feel so much pain?
My heart ached continuously for a month. I could hardly eat or drink a cup of water.
I was exhausted. I refused to see anyone or Griffith after that fight we had.
I was really weak and slept all day in my bed.
Broken into a thousand pieces, the Alpha I gave my heart to broke it into a million pieces.
Will I ever be able to heal from this trauma? I am hurt and I don’t know what else to do. I am broken and wish I could just fade away into nothing.
Rumors were spreading like wildfire across the realms. People are saying it was my fault that Stefan left me.
I couldn’t satisfy him.
I wasn’t suitable to be a proper wife and Luna, that’s why he didn’t choose me.
He chose my best friend, Lucy, because she was more suitable than I am. They were mates and were the perfect match for each other.
An Alpha was more respected than an outcast, anyway. Everyone sided with Lucy instead of me and said I was worthless, nothing but a killjoy. That’s what I was to these people. No one cared. I was an important figure to them.
All they cared about was that I was useless and not fit to be the daughter of a Lycan, the princess of the realm, and I couldn’t stop my people from spitting on my face.
They all sided with someone who stabbed me in the pack because my stepfather hates my guts.
I wish I was someone else; I wish I wasn’t this flimsy; wish I was smarter than this. Then, maybe Lucy and Stefan wouldn’t have betrayed me.
I was nothing but a pushover and a grub in front of them. I wasn’t someone they could fear, so why wouldn’t they be able to do whatever s**t they want to do?
It was their lives, not mine for me to control, and what even broke my heart even more, was that Lucy was having his child after having an affair right under my nose with my mate.
She broke my trust and if I ever knew they were mates, I would have let them go.
I would have accepted the truth because the moon goddess ordained it. It hurts, but I would have let them go.
I couldn’t sleep for days, left in my room, in the dark because I had locked myself in and told everyone to not disturb me. I wasn’t in the mood to be saying anything to anyone, so I accepted it and did not look back.
Griffith harshly warned me not to slap his boyfriend ever again.
Shocked at his response. I thought he understood me really well. I thought he knew who I was and why I would react this way. It was just too hard to endure after what he had done.
Everyone was stabbing me in the back. My mates were all leaving me and I was all alone, in a dark hole, eating and swallowing my darkness.
Griffith was right. I was in pain.
I didn’t like the fact that my mother left her last marriage and got involved with a man who pretended to the public he loved me and my sister, yet, behind the scenes he was a monster who maltreated us at any slight point and my mother defended him in every way because he was her husband and forgot about I and my sister.
I find out he was against me getting married to Stefan from the start because he didn’t want to celebrate the marriage of a girl who wasn’t his biological daughter that’s why when Stefan came to him, he quickly agreed to it and said I was a nobody that he will fully support him and take all the expenses just to push me aside.
Knowing this shattered me. All these years, I had been living with this bastard. This was what he thought of me, his baggage.
It felt like history was repeating itself, but in another dimension.
Suddenly, I felt my door unlocked and someone was coming in.
I quickly stood up from my bed and saw him. He was wearing a black long jacket; he shut the door and his presence made sense to me. I could feel his dark aura, then I knew who he was at that moment and my mouth gasped the minute he walked up to me and slapped me so hard across the face.
Stepfather.
“Get up this instant,” he roared as I stood up from the bed and glared at him. Then a strange woman came into the room, looking around in disgust.
‘This room reeks of too many PHEROMONES.’ she remarked with a smug on her face and she was heavily pregnant.
“I want you to pack your bags and leave this instant.” he pointed at the door.
When he saw I wasn’t moving, he came to me and dragged me to the door in annoyance and pushed me out of the room.
I saw my mother crying helplessly as she stood up, came up to me and also slapped me hard across my face.
“I wish you were never born,” she cried out and held my neck, clenched it so hard and punched me in the stomach. I fell to the ground, crying so hard at the pain I was feeling, which was tearing me apart.
My stepfather grabbed me and held me in the neck. “You are going to follow your mother and obey her instructions. Do you understand me?” He clenched it even tighter. I was almost out of breath and confused. Why were they doing this to me?
Turns out, my stepfather was getting a divorce from my mother and getting married to his mistress, who was already carrying his child.
These were the worst days of my life and I became a punch bag, a toy and a slave. Anyone could push around as they desire and never get appreciated, shown love or affection by my parents.
“What have I ever done to you?” I received another slap from him as he pushed me to the wall.
Alphas, men and their mistresses. I spat on the floor in disgust.
“You scorn me.” I spoke, looking at both of them.
“Don’t talk to me in such a manner. I am a Lycan and I deserve to be well-respected. You are nothing but trash.”
“Then act like a Lycan who deserves respect.” I yelled furiously at him. “You’ve been nothing but a thorn in my flesh ever since you became my father. You took everything from me. Stefan and everyone, because you ridicule me and announce to everyone, I’m not your biological child.”
He landed another slap on my face and pushed me to the wall, clenching my neck with his claws.
He sneered. “You are nothing but a w***e, and I am very lucky that you are not my actual daughter. The only regret I have is getting married to your mother and I wish my brother raped your asshole before you got him killed.”