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As calmed as he was when his mother left him, in a few hours Silver was already pulling on his chains angrily and salivating. He could feel the demon inside him writhing, he felt his burning need and his body temperature suddenly rose and he couldn't stand it anymore. The pain between his ribs gave him a hard time too, loneliness was not a problem, but he was no longer able to bear it at this moment. His hair was loose and sweaty, he couldn't even wash it because it was chained to the wall and no one responded to his angry screams.
His patience ran out and his demon was already angered as well. No one passed by him for hours and although he was a private person, who usually liked to be alone, now he did not like to suffer alone. He was not used to being apart from his family like this, and he was missing their support.
That was a great lesson for him to learn. Alone we are in this world from the start to the end and we need to live it all, still alone.
He fell asleep and woke up, and he lost track of time until his father came to him.
-Chained, My Prince?
He entered the cell and came closer to check on his ribs. The place was all bruised now and Silver gasped in pain when his father touched it. Anger got the best of him and he tried to hit him in defense.
-Easy, boy, his father did not get upset but only stepped aside, out of the way of his son's movements. That is what has gotten you in chains, My prince! Do you want to spend the rest of your year here?? Like this?? his father raised his voice at him.
-No!
Silver was tormented by the fact that, although it upset them, they looked at him with the same love when they should have been disappointed by his behavior, while they only tried to protect him when in fact they should have punished him. What was wrong with them?
-Then stop this! Is it not hard enough for you yet? the change happening in your body and mind, the hurt, does it have to be the chains too?? Is this what you are looking for ??
-No, answered Silver ashamed, lowering his eyes.
-Then stop acting like a spoiled child and be the man you were raised to be!
Silver found it difficult to control his temper. He felt the hunger like he had not even fed all this week, or even in months.
-I feel angry, all day I have felt it like this, writhing inside me!
-I know.
-How can you know??
-I have been right there where you are now, My prince! his father yelled his first words angrily but finished the sentence in a low voice, getting Silver's attention.
-Please help me! I don't know how to control it...
-I know. His father looked at him and sighed, sitting himself on the rock that was supposed to be the bed.
You need to talk to your demon and make peace with him. You basically have the same needs, you just both need to acknowledge each other's needs and fulfill them, that is all.
-Ohh, is that all?? Father...
-YES! That is all.
-But how can I do that when you tell me he needs some mate I don't even know if I would ever like...
-Ha! You know, your mother told me the exact words when I asked her to speak to her demon about her mate.
-By then... did you know she was your mate?
-I did.
-And she did not?
-She did not, and she did not want to know, so she just closed the connection to her demon, and guess what... she got out of her mind just like you do now!
-Did you chain her in here?
-Me?? You do not chain a king, my prince. I just had to train my patience, to keep my demon in control until she opened to hers in order to see me and accept me.
-How, father? How could you train it? I thought I was patient.
-You are, my son. You just need to think about objectives, and long-term benefits. What do you want the most right now?
-Freedom. I don't want to be here; I don't like to be chained; I don't know how she could ever bear this, ever!!!!
-Freedom always comes with a price. Do you want out? You work on taming your demon.
-Yes, but, HOW??
-Breathe, My prince. Breathe first. Your demon does not work against you. He is just showing off your uninhibited intimate part. Think about it like this: the saruman male is the dominant part of the relationship, while the female must submit to the male. That's why for now it's so hard for you to tame him, because if he found his female, he would exercise dominance over her, if you would help him, not over you. The sooner you help him mate, the sooner you find your peace. Understand? By fighting against him, all you do is build up his anger and increase your pain. You need each other in order to survive. Do you understand?
He understood. Of course he understood, so he nodded. But there was easier said than done. How could he connect to his demon when he was under the impression that he was howling inside needing to just follow his wild drives?
-I need to go for a run...
-Like your mother would go for her gallops in the storms and once almost ended up killing herself. My prince, now you cannot pay attention to the environment around you. You are not safe.
-Then how did you do it, Lord? How was it for you?
-I gave me time, My prince. I meditated every day, morning and evening, from my childhood, just like I taught you all to do it.
-Every day?
-Every day!
-Father!!
- One year! That was how much it took your mother to accept me.
-Eeerrrrr, I need to kill someone...
-No, you need to calm down!
-I need to feed...
-You did feed, yesterday. And any moment, your sister will bring you food.
-I don't need food, Lord, I need blood...
-That is not what you need, My prince. What you really need is to open your eyes and find your mate, and get her ready to accept you in order to be able to possess her. What you actually need is to possess your mate, and own her, in order to create the bond between you two. Only after that, you will win back yourself.
-How do I find her?
-You meditate and listen to your saruman. He will speak to you and point her to you when he will find her.
-How will he point her to me?
-You will know, they make it very clear to you.
-Was yours clear about mother?
-Yes. The moment I saw her, he let me know she is the one. Every time I had her in front of my eyes, he was pointing me towards her. She was underage at that time, so her saruman did not recognize me, so I had to wait and be patient until she did. I did not want her to get scared and lose her forever.
-True, Silver sighed deeply, turning his head on his back. And how did you deal with everything you felt inside, father? It hurts.
-I know, My prince. It hurt me too. I am sorry for the pain you feel now, but that will teach you to appreciate your mate later. The harder the process, the higher the value you will feel she has.
-One year, father? You are crazy!
-Ha, his father laughed looking at him. Your mother was all worth it, My prince. Hear your saruman and make peace with him. Let him know you will find your mate and you will give him what he needs too. You will both get what you need, trust me on that.
-How is it?
-What?
-How was it when you found her and she recognized you?
-Hmmm... It was magic, My prince. She was here, where you are now, but when she opened her eyes and ears to what her saruman told her, she found out about me. I was there by her side for some time and she had never looked at me that way. But when she did... it was magic.
-She said she did not want to find a mate either at first...
-No, she had a kingdom to rule. But when she started to feel the pain, she listened.
-I don't know how to listen...
-That is easy. Just talk to him, get used to talking to him, I taught you that when you were a child. Remember?
-Hmm, yes.
-Talk to him and don't fight him about this. He is right in his choice, you will see. The mate he will present to you is the right one for you. Just don't fight it, please make it easier for yourself.
-Will try it.
-Alright. I see your mother brought you your books; he looked at the things his mother brought him and already placed them next to the rocks.
-Yeah.
-Good, so you will not get bored at least. Read. Will help you clear your mind and open your ears to the voice inside you. I will see you later again.
-Yeah.
Silver looked at his father standing up and going towards the door.
-Lord! ... Are you... disappointed in me?
-No, My prince. This is just another lesson we are learning together.
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