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Kaion watched in amazement as his helpless little sister grew up and she was already self-sufficient without him. Without the slightest help from him. She fished all the fish. Then she cut them and cleaned them. By the gods, his sister handled a knife correctly and cleaned the fish with the knife, let's face it!
Then he watched her confusedly as she struggled with a knife to dig a pretty deep pit - for Moon kept an eye on him and did not let him lift a finger to help her, Senere did everything! She dug a pit which she used as an oven! Who else was doing this these days! In their world? He didn't know anyone! And yet, she did.
And this was his little sister that could not do anything! Never!
She lit the fire all alone and she also fitted the stones into the pit. She made them lunch, all by herself, and they spent such a great time like normal young people, having fun. After they ate, they just spent their time walking around and talking about little things. He was impressed to find out her voice, and it seemed she had an opinion about almost everything. It had been so long since Kaion and Senere had spent so much time together!
Moon left them alone, still with each other, to catch up for lost time.
Kaion realized that she had already changed so much in so little time. She could do things on her own, she would try to she would even succeed. She was not afraid, and she was not complaining about anything. She was curious; she was not acting anything important; she liked being in nature.
-Senere, what about home?
-I was serious, Kai. I don't want to go home.
-And what will Dad do, Mom?
-The woman my father married will not do anything, as she was never interested in us, you know too well. And Dad? What's wrong with him? He'll be glad he doesn't have the Senere problem on his mind anymore. -Why do you say that?
-Because I remind him of our mother and he could never get over it. Because she blames me for her death because she gave birth to me ...
-It's not your fault ...
-No, I know I'm not to blame, but everyone looks at me like that and their eyes speak more than words.
-How so?
-You know, when they talk behind my back every time I hear her "how much she looks like her, poor child..." or "how unfair, that she died and left behind such a helpless child ...". And they all talk like I have no ears to hear ... I hear them all, Kai. Everyone.
-Father never says that, and I never said that either. You have us...
-No, I don't even have you, Kai! Is you who have me and is you who lock me up every time you think I am a danger and is you who do not let me do anything. I just want to be free. I just want to be able to live, learn, breathe.... just breathe... and here I can do that. I will not go back there, Kai. I will not!
-What if I change?
-Change what, brother?
-Everything can be changed. When Dad sees that you can handle yourself ... as you would show me today in the woods ...
-Dad won't change at all, Kai. He won't let me do anything!
-He loves you, Senere, you are his daughter!
-No, Kai. I'm the monster that killed his beloved wife.
-Do not say that!
-It is the truth!! Am I not? Because that's what he sees in me, Kai, and that's what he's going to see all his life. That's it.
-You're wrong, Senere!
-I don't think I'm wrong. If I were wrong, he would have spoken to me as he takes you aside to speak to you; he would not avoid me, nor would he lock me in silence for days in my room, holding me captive. He would teach me things, he would take me out, he would smile and speak to me!
-He does speak to you...
-When you are home, Kai, and only because I am a pain and I ask him so many times the same question that I annoy him and I force him to answer me like that. He does not want me there, he just wished I would be locked up somewhere where he would not hear me nor see me...
-He doesn't hold you prisoner, Senere, you're exaggerating ...
-Am I exaggerating, you think? You don't know anything, Kai. He locks me up when you are gone! You don't know what he's like when you go to the border for weeks and you leave me all alone! I don't have anyone, Kai, I don't even have you there.
Listen, I understand you have a life there. You have a name and some appearances to keep. You have your friends and you have everyone looking gup to you. I have NOTHING there! I have nothing to lose either. They will not even remember me. They do not care, and I don't want to go back. I want to stay here, look here! I could make friends here! They talk to me, they treat me like a real person, not just as some little doll ready for mating! I am not a piece of furniture but a person with thoughts and feelings and this is how they see me here. There are people who look at me and see me! I talk to myself and they teach me things without putting me down. Without telling me how incapable and useless I am for being so ignorant and for not knowing how to do things so well. They help me learn! They teach me! They let me live!
Please, trust me, he does not care... He will not know... I just... let me disappear!
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