My bad boy

Chapter 5

Jimin POV

'Ayo Jimin!' Mino greets and grins at me as I enter the illegal territory. I just look at him with a cold stare. I'm not scared of it or something. I mean I'm a member of a strong and feared gang so yeah. I know how to protect myself and the feeling of the cold metal of my knife is amazing.

I walk through the streets to my destination and this is Zico... He has very good drugs and cigarettes and I need some as well. I don't like the drugs like Suga or V. I am more into cigarettes to relief stress. This or s*x but now I just feel like s**t so I really need one.

The slutty girls with the short skirts and just bras look and almost eye f**k me but I don't give them a glance. The men who see me make space for me and don't disturb me. Evertime they lightly bow and show me respect cause they know I could kill them without to move much.

This is the effect of being Bangtan.

Finally I enter Zico's store. He sells of course his drugs and some other great illegal s**t.

I look around and see a male with blue hair standing there. His eyes meet mine and he swallows hard.

'Where's Zico?' I just ask monotone like always. God, I hate this

'H..he's uhh..'

'Bring him here.' I order and look darkly at him. He just nods before disappears behind the curtains.

'I told you to tell them I'm not here, the f**k' I hear Zico saying and look at him. He stops arguing and raises one eyebrow as he sees me.

'No, you?!' He grins and I chuckle.

'Yeah' I nod and he steps closer to me, giving me a bro fist.

'What's up Jimin?! I just gave you the drugs you wanted.' He laughs

'Yeah but Suga asked for more...' I tell him and he raises one eyebrow

'Aish again? So lazy this man and you have to bring it to him.' He says and leans against the counter. He's right. I'm not the delivery but Suga is the vize after Rap monster so I have to listen to him

'What does he need this time?' He asks

'Just like the last time and some heroin.' I explain

'Heroin? But he got some 3 weeks ago. This should be last for 8 weeks.' He raises one eyebrow and grins.

'Really, this man. And still looking so good while taking it.' He says and I nod.

'Yeah, V and he really likes this.' I say and he grabs the drugs, saves them in a clean bag.

'Oh and before I forget, can you give me some cigarettes?' I ask as he prepares Sugas order.

'Of course man. I just got a new delivery.' He grins and gives me the paper envelop.

'What's making this?' I ask and he thoughts

'400 $' It's expensive but his drugs are the best. Suga says it every time. I give him the money and see him grabbing the package of the stuff I want.

'Here' he gives it to me and I grab my money again but he shakes his head

'It's free for you.' He grins and I raise my eyebrow.

'Thanks bro.' I say and grab my order, pull one cigarette out and begin to smoke. The lungs fills with the smoke of it and my I feel a bit relieved, better.

'Good isn't it?' Zico asks and I breathe the smoke out

'Yeah.' I answer

'Goodbye.' I say

'Goodbye. Tell Suga he should take his stuff by himself!' He laughs while he shakes his head.

I go out and make my way home while smoking the item in my hand and wait for him.

Jungkook POV

After my tears stopped I get up to take a shower. I want to refresh myself cause I feel so dirty.. Dirty and used and hurt but the shower doesn't help. I cuddle into my oversized shirt and wear new pants. My lower region still hurts and I bite my lips while walking. Why do I have to feel like this? A part of me, no everything screams for Jimin! All this seems like he just wanted me for my body so I guess I read the signals wrong. He is so damn confusing. I'm so dumb and stupid. This is my fault, my fault to suffer and to feel like this. I don't want to work today, just want to be alone so I am glad as my boss calls me only to tell me I just have to come for 2 hours for my other patient. Her name's Eunji and she lost her parents last year. She often wants to be alone so I don't spend much time with her like with Yuki but I try with her and with each time which passes we get along better.

I leave my apartment with my bag and don't even look at Jimins door. I sniff softly and hope not to see him for today.

---2 hours later----

Eunji talked to me and it was... Interesting. She doesn't speak often and when she does she doesn't wants to talk about her parents. She supplants the fact that her parents don't live anymore and I just want to hold and hug her. This poor little girl. She's just 7 and now she's alone. I hope I can help her, just a little bit so she talks more, talks about the reality and moves on. It's painful, we all know but her parents want that too, want her to live a happy life.

I just make my way home and the sky is dark, clouded with mad-filled clouds like they will swallow the world. It gets colder but I don't feel it on my body. I walk further in a slow pace as raindrops hit my body. First they are small but they get stronger and stronger with each drop which falls. I get wet, even dripping with the tears of the sky and my heart feels so heavy. I have always liked the rain so I don't pick up the pace. Usually the darkness, the painful but still beautiful tears of the angels make me calm even happy but at this moment I just feel the hole in my heart.

After 5 minutes I see my apartment complex coming closer and I blink as the rain hits my eyebrow.

The sky gets even darker and it looks like the world won't exist tomorrow. Suddenly I catch a dark figure standing in the rain with bright mint-green hair. He has a lip piercing and stares intensely at me. I see a tattoo coveres his neck and goes down, maybe to his chest?! Another on his hand. He wears a leather jacket and dark jeans. He looks quite scary while he looks at me like I'm a piece of meat and so I just want to go home and don't look at him as I rush away. My breath hitches as I'm swung around and a big smirk covers his lips.

'You want to go away pretty boy?' His voice is disgusting and a cold shiver goes through my body but not by the coldness.

'L..let me g..go' I stutter and try to rip myself from him but he tightens his hold, his nails bore into my flesh and I whimper painfully.

'So cute like V said' his voice is smug and I don't like what he's saying. V? This man knows him? I just want to escape but he holds me tight..

'You should come with me. We can have a little bit fun.' He grins and I see his tongue plays with his lip ring. Pure panic fills me and he pulls me closer to himself. Oh god, what will he do?

'NO!' My voice is full of panic and fear as he places his other hand on my waist and slowly makes his way under my shirt.

'I know you want it. Your body's so nice, would look so good under me!' He says and I whimper as I feel his hand on my flesh and I'm sure his hand will leave a print on my arm. I move my body, try everything to escape but even as I hit his chest he just laughs at my action

'This won't help. You'll come with me. This will be nice. Me and V will have pretty much fun. Covered in my hickies and blood later' he says and my eyes widen as tears fills them. I try to move my arms and his shirt moves as I struggle to pull away from him and my eyes catch a dark metal item.... Ohh...... My blood freezes as I look at the gun on him. Who is he?

'Aww, you saw my toy.... I won't use it on you...yet so don't cry now' he suddenly pulls my chin hard, his grib makes me whimper by the pain

'You'll cry enough later!' With that he crashes his lips against mine. Tears fall down my eyes and I never felt so dirty, not even with Jimin. It hurts to know this man's doing this. I don't want this. He's disgusting and fear fills me, makes my legs limp.

'NO!' I scream as he begins to walk, pulls me with him and my body hurts more. My mind, my heart, my arm and my hip which he's holding on. I am too weak to do something against him.

More tears hit the ground and mixes with the rain so I can't see clear.

'THE f**k LET GO OF HIM!' An angry voice yells and I'm ripped off the disgusting man with such a strong force that I fall straight on my ass. I whimper by the hit and jump in shock as a hand touches my cheek. I have to blink cause my vision is blurry and I freeze again as I witness Jimin..... Jimin is touching my cheek, stroking the flesh softly. Why is he here? He really saved me.

'Aww look at this, our Jimin is doing cute with MY new toy. Even V told me something like this.' I breathe heavily as the man speaks with dirty voice. I see Jimins eyes flashing, he grints his teeth and turns around

'Your new toy? Suga, he's not! He's mine so f**k off!' He growls and my eyes widen. Why is he saying this? Why? Why? Why? I was just s*x to him, that was what he said..

Besides he knows this man who's having a gun too just like the last?! Something's with him and I want to know what. I want to get away from here.

'Jimin.. What's mine is mine and you know that. You know my position!' The man also growls annoyed and mad. Position?

'HE! IS! MINE! I don't care about your f*****g position. You're not the leader. If you touch him I'll kill you.' Jimin tells him and the other smirks and looks at me

'You'll kill me? For him? A nice body?!' I taste the saltiness of my tears and don't want to hear their words anymore.. The man is right, I was just a nice body..... Or not?

'Go and f**k someone else Suga.' Jimin growls and Suga grins but his eyes tell something else. They are dark like the night

'You're on very thin ice Jim.... Rap monster will know about this!' Suga says and his hand strokes over his gun as he smirks madly and then grabs it.

'I really hate when someone wants what I want.' He explains and licks his lip while his eyes fix me. Then I see Jimin takes out a gun as well and that was it...

I can't do this any longer, I have to go away and this is my chance. I get up as fast as possible as I can and run into the apartment complex. I don't feel the pain in the moment as adrenaline and fear fills me. I almost stumble over the stairs but make it into my safe apartment. Gureum barks but I just rush to the corner of my bedroom and sit with my back against the wall. My knees are curled up to my chest and I hold them while I shake badly.

Everything breaks down inside me and eats me up alive. My breath goes faster and faster and the tears cover my already wet hand.

Jimin POV

'I really hate when someone wants what I want' I got so mad at the moment as Sugas words reach my ear so I take my gun

'I already said he's mine! Find someone else before this here will get very uncomfortable and bloody for you.' I fix my gun at him and I see his eyes exploding with madness.. He seems frustrated, good...

'Everything what will happen is your fault.. Nobody does something like this to me!' He hisses and turns around to leave.

Fuck, what happened here? s**t, I knew my relationship with Jungkook will be dangerous for him and I feel this isn't ending by here.. Wait! Jungkook, where's he?

I was so into my anger that I completely forgot him but as I turn around he isn't there. I'm sure he ran into his apartment, I have to see him!

My heart pounds like crazy and different emotions are inside me, dancing like crazy.

I stop by his closed door but I'm not an i***t, of course I can open it. I'm a gangster after all. With different moves of my hands and a bit help of an item I open the door without much noises and enter his home. I close it behind me and hear painful sobs from the bedroom. My eyes follow the wet drops on the ground and I follow them and the noises of the cute male. My heart clenches painfully by it. I stop by the frame of the bedroom door.

'Jungkook!' The view of him makes me wanting to shoot myself so badly. He sits in the corner, curled up in himself while shaking badly.

He looks up as I mention his name and they are bloodshot and puffy. His whole body and clothes are dripping wet, stick to his body like a second skin, even his hair cover his eyes but I still see the fear in them.. And also questions mixed with panic.

My heart aches so badly by his fragile innocent glance. He should be happy and smiling. This is all my fault and this just cause I begin to have feelings for him. He sniffs and sobs again and I see a thick tear running down his cheek. I go closer to him and I see panic instantly filling his eyes.

'N..no!' he says with broken, quiet voice that I almost didn't catch.

'D...don't h..hurt *sob* hurt m..me'

I don't listen and kneel infront of him. He tries to get away from me but I trap him softly. He whimpers and shuts his eyes down and I feel what?... Disappointment?!

'I *wiping his tears away* could never hurt you' I tell him softly and stroke over his cheek. His breath hitches and I know I have an effect on him.. Just like I told him the words after I took his virginty. I know he has feelings for me.

He carefully opens his eyes and looks at me. He looks so fragile, so hurt and broken.

'I won't hurt you!' I tell him again and pull him on my chest.

'W...what..... I don't un..understand..' He cries and I stroke over his shaking back. I feel so affected by him. He is so pure... I know nothing about him but I feel he's pure and innocent and I want to know more about him. I hate to know he's afraid of me.

'Don't cry baby' I breathe into his ear and he whimpers by the nickname. I place a soft kiss on his hair and he finally stops shaking. He has to change his clothes, he will catch a cold with them. I take this to grab him by his thighs and go onto my feet.

'J..JIM--- NO!' He whimpers half shouts and protests, but I hold him tight and walk to the bathroom after I found it. Jungkook always whimpers my name but I want to be here for him now, want to take care of him.

I place him on the corner of the bathtube and look into his eyes.

'Don't be afraid... You have to take a shower and get out of this clothes. You'll get sick.' I tell and he looks afraid but with curiosity at me.

'I won't hurt you...' I tell him again and hope he will trust me. I start the warm water of the tube and carefully begin to open his pants and his body is covered in rain, tears and goosebumps?! He is cold like death and so pale. His rosy lips are colored in blue and I have to get him warm by now.

'I take care of you' I say and he follows my actions with his eyes the whole time. I pull off his pants with his shoes and socks and the next is his shirt. I grab the hem of it and don't make fast moves cause I don't want to frighten him even more if that's possible but I freeze by the view of his arm. The f**k he did!

Jungkook follows my glance and begins to shake again. His thin arm is covered in dark blue, purple and green finger prints of Suga. I know they are painful for him.

'He'll pay for it.. This lazy motherfucker of s**t!' I growl and his eyes widen. I stroke softly over the marks and hear him whimper softly.

'You shouldn't feel like this.' I tell him and take his shirt off as well and throw it to the ground, leave him naked. His left hip is also bruised and he feels ashamed.

'Can you go in for me?' I ask and he looks up, doesn't say anything but he gives me a small nod. I help him to get up so he can sit into the tube with the warm water. In this time I dry myself as well cause the rain was heavy like s**t. I take off my clothes, leave me in just boxers and lie my gun on the counter slowly because Jungkooks eyes widen with panic as he catches it.

After 3 long minutes of silence I grab a big towel and help him to get out, wrap the towel tightly around his body so he won't freeze. I grab another towel and rub his hair dry. His brown bangs cover his forehead, makes him look innocent and beautiful but I don't like this emotion in his glisten eyes. I grab him bridal style, a soft mewl leaves his lips and I bring him to the bedroom to lay him comfortably onto his soft bed. He still shakes a bit and seems cold and pale. f**k, I have to do something. I look at his wardrobe and go to it. After searching I finally found boxers, sweatpants and a sweater and go back to him. He takes the boxers and carefully takes it on, then his sweatpants. He sits back and loosens the towel and then takes on his sweater. He looks so small in the oversized cloth, so cute.

'W....who was that?' His voice fills in the room but it's so quiet. I breathe in deeply and sit beside him. He deserves to know this, it's my fault.

'Suga' I answer and he looks at me, playing the the hem of his sweater nervously.

'W...who I..is he?' He asks then and I answer

'He's in a gang called the Bangtan boys. He's the second strongest of them'

His breath hitches by it

'A..and the gun?'

'They deal with them and drugs' I tell and his eyes glistening more.

'I..illegal things?' He asks and I nod

'Do they hurt people?'

I breathe in deeply again, feel everything clenching and tensing inside me

'Yeah..' That is the truth.

'B..but you also have a g..gun, you are one of them too!' he whimpers and his voice breaks. He suddenly breaks away from my side, crawls away and almost falls from the bed but I catch him just in the right moment to pull him on my chest.

'Yeah I'm a member of them too but I won't hurt you!' I tell him again like the 10th time today but he tries to get away from me, weak punches fixes on my chest.

'N..no! You're a b..bad guy. You do b..bad things *sobbing*' he cries and my heart shatters by that. I feel how confused he is.

'L..let me g..go' I don't listen and tighten my hold on him while saying

'I won't let you go..'

I feel him tensing

'B..but w..why?' He asks and I grab his chin carefully without to hurt him and feel his tears.

'Cause you make me feel something I've never felt before, make me lose my control and do crazy things and let me think of other people and not just myself, let me think of you!' I look into his eyes and feel his heart pounding faster against my chest. He stops his struggling and I catch one tear on his eye before it falls down.

I kiss him softly. He gasps and whimpers but doesn't try to get away. His lips are so cold but still soft and sweet. And as he moves his lips against mine I know he also feels the same like me. This moment claims it.

I lean apart, stare at the panting male in my arms. A blush covers his once pale cheeks and he feels more warm.

'I... I thought I was just s*x for you' he whimpers and I feel so bad for lying.

'I know and I'm so sorry baby but I did it for your safety. It began as V saw you. He saw that I felt something for you, he knew that you weren't just a friend or something and then Suga today.. He.. I thought when I wouldn't be with you, when you think I would just use you nor talk to you, you would let me go but I was wrong. You affect me, my whole self and at the end I was the one who couldn't control himself anymore. I really fell for you and this is new to me. And now that you know I'm in this gang too.' I stroke over his cheeks as something inside his eyes flashes but not something bad. They begin to twinkle like a night full of stars

'I....I also feel something for you... Since the moment I saw you..' He mumbles, half stutters while looking at my chest.

'B..but I'm a..afraid. T..this all seems like a nightmare but it's reality..! And I don't know what to do.' He swallows hard and I make him look into my eyes again

'I will protect you baby. I'll do everything for your safety and kill everybody who does something to you but you have to keep quiet about the gang okay?' My voice is deep, light anger builds cause I know Suga will come back. He's a very unforgiving man and the action today made him very mad. Suga is known for his anger-issues.

'Do this for me.' I say again as Jungkook sobs lightly but he nods.

'I.. I don't know what all of this means with you but d..don't leave me.... I'm so afraid!' Jungkook wraps his arms around me and I hold him tight, don't plan on letting him go.

'I won't leave you. I'll take care of you.'