Zeriah's Love Formula

ZERIAH'S POV: It was a gloomy and cold night. I am alone in my apartment, pondering on the meaning of life like what I always do. As I look into the vagueness of the evening through my small and narrow window, I kept wondering, as human beings, what is our real purpose? Why do we feel such emotions of hatred, sadness, happiness and love.  Love. Is it really existing? Or is it just a mere product of the various chemicals present in our brain, programmed to help us survive? That feeling intrigues me the most. Not because I have experienced it but because I have no plans on experiencing it.  All I want to do is to experiment with it.  I sipped my coffee as I get drowned with my tangled thoughts. I cannot help but reflect that there is something basic in the complexity of love. It's not what humans actually think it is.  There has to be a concrete explanation. And that is what I think I am going to find and show to the world.   I placed down my mug and hurried to the computer that is resting lifeless and useless in my tiny work desk. It has been a long time since I wrote something using its keyboard.  But now that I made contact with it once again, I will make sure that the letters that will come out of the screen are bound to something that would bear greatness.  Tonight, I decided that I will experiment with love as I recalled the face of the woman who sat beside me during my birthday party...She was the one to tap this idea inside my head.  As I was about to type something in the monitor, my phone suddenly rang, causing me to divert my attention on who is calling at this hour. My screen only displayed an unregistered number so it is impossible for me to figure out who it was.  "Hello?" I answered the phone coldly.  "Is this Zeriah Sebastian?" The voice answered.  "Who is this?" I countered, crossing my eyebrows as I tried to identify the caller.  "This is Adam Ghall, sir. Your father just want me to ask if you could come to your house tomorrow to talk about your part in the family business. He would also want to arrange your schedule so you could train in the stock market as soon as possible." He explained.  Now I remember him. He is the one and only nosy secretary.   "He told you to contact me in the middle of the night?" I reaffirmed.  "Indeed, sir. What do you want me to tell him?" He responded.  "Tell him that I am not interested." I said before standing up and walking quietly around my room.  I placed my free hand down my waist before looking up at the ceiling and enjoying the night breeze as I opened the window slightly.  "But sir, is that all?" The secretary demanded.  "I would rather talk to him personally. Tell him I will be home in the weekends...He should make time for me." I concluded without waiting for his response further.  I ended the call as soon as I was flooded with the idea on how will I write the needed letter of request.  The idea of business does not really interest me at all because this is what I want to do. I want to explore the depth of life and simplify it for the world to understand.  -------------------------------------------------------------------------------- June 03, 1992 Ms. Helen Cornell, PsyD Executive Director SPTA Foundation 1300 East Eight Mile, Suite 110 RE: Permission to Conduct a Research Study  Greetings Ms. Cornell,  I am writing to request for your permission in allowing me to perform a psychological experiment which aims to quantitatively and qualitatively measure the complex feeling of romantic love for human beings via the use of longitudinal method which will last for a year.   If approval is granted, participants will complete the survey in a classroom or other quiet setting on Sta. Isabela Drive, West Verwokley on July 29, 1992 at 8 am.. The survey process should take no longer than 3 hours.  After the survey has been conducted, participants who passed shall be interviewed before the choosing of the final applicant. The survey results that will be pooled for the thesis project and individual results of this study will remain absolutely confidential and anonymous. Should this study be published, only pooled results will be documented. No costs will be incurred by either your school/center or the individual participants. A total of $2000 will be given to the chosen participant upon completion of the study.  Your approval to conduct this study will be greatly appreciated. I will follow up with a telephone call next week and would be happy to answer any questions or concerns that you may have at that time. You may contact me at my email address: sebastianzer@yahoo.com.ph If you agree, kindly sign below and return the signed form in the enclosed self-addressed envelope. Alternatively, kindly submit a signed letter of permission on your institution’s letterhead acknowledging your consent and permission for me to conduct this survey/study at your institution. Sincerely, Zeriah Sebastian, RPm Enclosures cc: Dr. Z, Research Advisor, NDNU Approved by: _____________________ ____________________ _________ -- I took a deep breath before standing up from my desk. I stared at my request letter long enough before finally clicking send. And after I did so, thunders filled up the sky which was followed by the heavy pouring of rain.  At last, my curiosity will come to life now. I can't wait to prove to the world that love is nothing special after all.  It is nothing but a scientific feeling made up by our minds. My study will be remarkable and I am already claiming it.  Can't you see? The universe is already agreeing with me.