Cole’s P. O. V.
Today, I learned something very well, that I can never run away from my fate.
Yes.
My life has always been a bit hard for me since the very beginning and to avoid the difficulties, I always chose the easy way to get myself out of all the troubles of my life. And that was how I started to run away from each and every single thing which would give me a real headache. But only if I knew that running away from my problems would do nothing but make them even worse in the coming time and would become even more difficult to handle for me.
And that is exactly what I did to her as well.
I left my mate, even when I found her once a few years ago.
But now I am back to square one and she is standing right in front of my eyes. The black jacket that she was wearing could not hide the beautiful curves on her body even when her figure was quite lean yet perfect in my eyes. Her hair was long and was tied up into a ponytail, leaving her long slender neck completely open for everyone to stare at.
As soon as the thought of the other boys hitting on my girl crossed my mind, a strange feeling of unfathomable anger overtook my entire body without much of my knowledge and even before I could understand what is happening to me, a low growl came out of my mouth, quite surprisingly.
The possessiveness which I kept feeling deep inside my heart did not allow me to stay still any longer as I lifted my hand in no time and grabbed her neck gently, only to feel the sparks once again.
With my sudden touch, her big and beautiful eyes got narrowed even further and were now looking at me with so much anger. I guess, I know why? And she has all the right to be angry at me now. I do not mind it at all.
Rather, I should say that her being angry at me, making me even more crazy that I almost made up my mind to claim her as mine. I was dying to touch her, love her and do her however I always dreamed. Those enchanting eyes, those plump lips were like made for me only. I wanted to touch those lips and kiss her until I became breathless, but I knew that I should stop wishing for more.
But, you see, the more I tried to resist her, the more I craved to make love to her right here right now.
And do you know what is the funniest thing that I did?
Well,
Unable to control my lust for her, I grabbed those tender bulges on her chest with one hand while the other was already busy kneading her seductive fuller ass all along.
“Stop.”
I heard her beautiful voice with an excruciating pain in my heart and pinned her on the wall even when she tried to get away.
And even before she could ask me to stop once again, I leaned down and crashed my lips on hers and began to suck and nibble on that soft flesh on her body. As soon as I got an opening, I slid my tongue inside her mouth and started to devour all the sweetness that she got, only to make her breathless in no time. I intended to deepen the kiss even further but could not do so. Cause the constant hit on my chest with her enclosed fist reminded me that I should stop for now and let her breathe at least.
So, I let go of her.
Only then did I realize what I had just done. I had never planned to do such things with her ever. Or else I would have taken her long ago when we first met.
Then why? Why did I act in such a way all of a sudden?
Is it because of the bond?
‘Yes, you fool.’
Caeser, my wolf, at last cared to respond. We had been ignoring each other for a long time now for a reason, but this time he answered me.
But still, it is of no use, I guess.
Pushing him at the back of my mind, I quickly straightened myself and took my hands off her in no time.
Though I was dying to take her right at this instant and claim her as mine, but I knew that it would be the biggest mistake of my life. So, I chose to say the very words which I always tried to avoid. But knowing that if I ran away now without doing it the right way, we might end up in the same situation over and over again. And I do not want that.
So, I did not wait any further and asked her to do me one last favour,
“Reject me.”
I saw how her eyes became even wider as soon as I said those words. Probably she was also feeling the pain in her chest that I am feeling now. The pain of rejection. But I know that it will go away with the passing time, and she will be free. She will be free from someone like me who had a wicked past and a future where, except for darkness, there is nothing else.
Even when my mind was saying that I was doing the right thing, still, I do not know why I kept holding my breath as if I was wrong.
No, she did not bother to say a word yet and kept staring at me for some time.
This damn silence is really getting on my nerves now.
I wanted to end this real quick so that our paths never cross with each other ever in our lives, but little did I know that the universe was planning something else for me.
“You are doing this because you know that I have no wolf now, right? Get lost.” She asked and shoved me on my chest as hard as she could, only to make me step back from her.
“Wait, what? What did you say?” She was about to storm out of the classroom just when I could not hold myself back and grabbed her by her wrist, so that I could make her turn around to face me once again.
“I said, I have no wolf.
I got it that you are trying to sympathise with me now, but I would suggest you to drop the idea. I know that you don’t want me as your mate from the very beginning or else why would you leave, right?
Listen, I have nothing to do with all this either. I did not choose you to be my mate. In fact, if I had a choice, you would be the last person whom I would take as my mate.
I guess you get it now.
And as you said, you want us to stop being mates, you want to cut our bonds…. Well, I will do that. I will definitely allow you to reject me. But not now.
You see, I am not in the mood anymore.
Now get lost, you jerk.”
She left.
I do not know for how long I kept standing there, until the bell went off announcing the end of the first class. Even though I tried to find reasons for whatever she said to me in the end, I just could not make any sense out of it.
I mean, how can she say that she has no wolf. I am sure she has one. Why did she lie?
‘You know nothing, you fool.’
Caeser once again voiced his unwanted opinion at the back of my head, and I had to shut him up once again.
‘f**k off.’
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“Hey, Jackson. Wait up.”
I heard her voice once again. Throughout the day, I kept hearing her voice over and over again from everywhere on the school ground and it made me frustrated like hell. I heard her talking with her friends, I heard her giggle from time to time, I heard her being friendly with some guys as well, which made me super mad for some reason, but I could not do anything about all that.
It seems like I have dug my own grave.
With a deep sigh, I brushed my hair back with my fingers, out of habit, just when I heard my phone ringing. My attention finally shifted from her as I looked at the name on the screen.
It is Noah, my twin brother.
“Yeah. What is it?” I asked as soon as I picked up the call.
“Are you busy?” His voice on the other end of the call seemed calm, unlike me right at this moment.
“Yes. I am busy. So, I am hanging up now if you do not have anything else to say.”
“Wait. I just wanted to know if you are doing okay there. You have returned after so long, yet you never bothered to come back to our pack. So, I was thinking about going to you in a few days. I hope you will be there this time. I really need to talk to you about our pack.”
“Your pack, Noah. You are the alpha of the Blue Moon pack now.” I retorted back.
“You know that it is your pack as well. You are an alpha too, but you always tried to stay out of our pack’s business, I do not know why. And our pack needed their Alpha after dad. So, I had no other choice but to accept the position as you were never there when I stepped up to be their leader.” Noah was not at all wrong. I was not mad at him for becoming the alpha of the Blue Moon pack which belonged to us both. Cause it was always my decision to ensure the pack’s responsibility to Noah as he was more worthy of it than me, while I had other important things to do.
It is just that, I am kind of frustrated today.
“I know. I am not blaming you. I was just saying the facts. You know me. I have never been born to become the alpha of some pack, Noah. Anyway, I have no time to argue with you anymore. You can do whatever you want. I will be here if you want to come see me.” I replied and attempted to calm myself down for a while, even when I knew that it was not going to happen now. And just when I thought about that, I was asked yet another question which was enough to piss me off once again.
“Did you meet her? I am talking about Eva, your mate.” Noah asked, which reminded me of our little interaction today all over again and I just could not help myself but curse underneath my breath.
Fuck.
“Hey! Are you still there?” Seeing that I went silent all of a sudden, Noah knocked me once again.
“Yes.” I replied shortly.
“Then? Have you met her yet?” Noah asked once again.
“You know what…. Why don’t you go and find your own mate instead of wasting your time on asking about mine?
I am hanging up now. See you later.”
With that, I ended the call and threw my phone on the desk with utter frustration.
Now, who the hell is that Jackson dude?
And why the hell is he wagging his tail around my mate?
‘Your mate? Did you not try to reject her a few hours ago? Why are you still considering her as your mate? She has all the right to choose another one if you have already decided to reject her.’ Caeser popped up once again and talked nonsense. But whatever he said was indeed true and was enough to make my blood boil in uncontrollable anger.
‘Never. I will never allow that. She is only mine, at least for the time being.’ Clenching my jaws together, I declared in my mind.