By the next morning, the drug had worked its way through my system and I felt like my old self again. I went down to breakfast, where I was reunited with Elva, who had stayed with Susie the night before by order of Nicholas.
I was grateful for his foresight. Mortified as I was by my actions and sounds, I was at least spared the embarrassment of explaining any of this to Mark or the nanny myself. Or worse still, to Elva.
A thought so stomach-churning, I dared not even think of it.
So when I did finally greet her, it was with a tight hug and big smile, the same as always.
Susie and I didn’t always sit together, but we chose to that morning. There were still many empty chairs with the previous elimination, and I was feeling vulnerable from what had happened the night before. I needed my f
