I was slowly beginning to lose my mind. It was something that I hadn’t considered to be a possibility, but as it turns out, I had been wrong. Very wrong. My lack of contact and communication with Dilara, was a matter that was meant to be taken a lot more seriously than it was. I was starting to lose my hair, that was how bad the situation was becoming. Even though I wanted to go and see her, I didn’t feel like the time was right for it. I knew that it was going to have to happen at some point and that I couldn’t just go ahead and leave her alone for the rest of her life, but the time for it to happen wasn’t now. And to top it all off, I had no intention of leaving her alone in the first place. Even if that’s as going to be what she wanted, she was going to be in for a big surprise. The