Love Deep

5

I don't think we should be together, are the words that came out of Paul's mouth as he look me in the face. I had just gave him my special gift and he basically dumped me.

Not being able to say anything ,I felt dumb as f**k as he walked out my room.

Omg Taj what have you done? I asked myself as I looked into the mirror in my bathroom. Giving him something that special was a mistake and I feel like s**t now.

Between my legs was killing me and my eyes are weak.

Running myself a tub full of water I cried as I closed my eyes in the hot water.

Drafty off to sleep I relax my body in the water. If I drown maybe it will be better then being on this earth feeling like s**t.

But why harm myself or think bad about myself when he is the jackass whom f****d up???

He really just did what all the other men tried to do.

Feeling hands touch my inter thigh my eyes flew open. As his big strong tatted hands rub my thighs up to my pretty kitty ,I just watched him. His eyes was glued to mine. Removing his clothing, I watched his p***s bounce right out of his pants.

Lifting my body as he got in the large tub with me. Placing me on top of him only felt right.

I'm sorry baby, I don't know why I said that. I want you forever Paul whisper in my ear as he rubs my back. Looking him in the eyes my tears drop from my eyes.

Why would you say that I cried as he wiped my tears. Because I have to leave for 6 months and I don't want to come back and see the next nigga touching my girl. He explained. No body isn't gonna touch me I promise I insure him....

Looking me in the eyes I could tell he was afraid. But s**t I was to. You just dump me for nothing now you back in between my legs. You are gonna hurt me before I could ever harm you.

.I'm sorry he repeated again as he lift me on top of his rock hard d**k. The feeling hurt so bad and I was so sore. But we had s*x in the tub, making my body shake again and my legs feel so weak, I let him have his way.

12/4 3:30 p.m

*kissing and making out*

Paul was leaving today for 6 months. He seem very weird and worried. Kissing my neck her rub my booty. Please behave he told me as I cried. s**t my first love was leaving me for 6 months you know my heart hurt. I am,I told him as he kissed my neck. I let him basically f**k me all day and night yesterday so my body of course was sore and bruised up between my legs. I understand that my p***y was special and she may run some men crazy but the crazy Paul will become is crazy and very unnecessary. Maybe I should of never gave him me. Kissing him as he rub my ass for the last time I kiss his lips.

Watching him leave I cried because I know I love him already.

Hey girl, Marshall cheered as we met up for lunch. Hey lady I said as she looked me up and down. b***h you are to pretty she cooed as She looked me up and down. Aww thanks bae I cooed as she sat back down. She loved the fact that I was with her brother and she would also tease me because she first hand knew I wasn't f*****g and never dated.

Paul had left 3 months ago and the asshole was tripping. He told me I was whoring and he didn't f**k with black females because we are whores and he wish he never f****d with my dumb ass. He hurt my feels every night when he called. I don't know why I still accepted his calls but I did.

So girl what's up? Nothing much working the day shirt at The Women's girl and trying to move. I explain as she looked at me. So you and my brother? She asked looking at me. I don't know honestly he cuss me out every night. I come home from work he calls me and just go off. He say I'm out f*****g but I am not. He told me he wish He never f****d with me and all type of s**t. I cried as she stood to rub my back. Oh my God girl. I'm so sorry he is doing that to you. Don't let his dumb ass hurt you girl. He just jealous and never had a real b***h Marshall said hugging me.

As we talked my phone began to ring. And of course it was Paul.

Hello Paul.

Where are you? He bluntly asked me. At Al house with Marshall I answer. Stop lying girl you out with a nigga, a nigga ain't dumb. No I'm not Paul I'm here with Marshall. b***h stop f*****g lying. You a hoe and I ain't f*****g with you. He yelled as I cried as he rudely cuss me out.

Give me the phone Marshall said as I cried. Paul why are you doing this girl like she ain't nobody. You are wrong she don't do s**t but work and you're miles away doing her like this. This is why I didn't want you talking to my friend you are so nasty she yelled into the phone.

Bitch leave him alone stop answering his phone calls he ain't for you. Stop crying she said as she hung up in his face.