Rose
My whole life, I’ve never really connected with people. I don’t know, something about bouncing from home to home, knowing in my heart I was never going to stay long, I just learned to keep people out. Way out. So I thought I could do the same thing with Matthias. I was living in his house, eating his food, wearing the clothes he had bought for me, I was even having s*x with him, but I wasn’t going to get emotionally attached to him. I wasn’t going to pretend that he loved me, or let myself love him. I really believed I could keep my heart safely locked away where nobody could hurt it.
Something inside of me was starting to crack. I don’t know what was breaking me. The s*x was really good. I mean, I didn’t have a lot of experience in that department, but I know I was definit
