Blushes

I felt the shivers go down my spine after he hug me. What was this feeling? I thought to myself, I haven't felt this way in a long time. Everytime I stood next him, I felt myself begun to blush. I hope he didn't notice, so I just dropped my Head. I still wonder what is love and how it felt like. Wondering what his lips taste like. As I laid across my bed listening to Janet Jackson would you mind. I let her music, her singing invade my thoughts. I saw myself with him singing. I wanna lick you, taste you, would you mind touching me. Then all my thoughts was interpret when I heard someone knocking at my bedroom door. D*MNIT F*CKING HELL! I said to myself. Who the f*ck?! I said really softly. My shorts was half way down, I didn't even have on any underwear. I wanted to c*m so bad. But I couldn't now. I rush to pull up my shorts and use hand sanitizer after I touched myself. I opened my room door, pretending I just woke up. Oh wow! It's was my mother standing at the door. Darn it a girl can't have privacy. I thought to myself again. hi Mom I said pretending to be sleepy. Someone outside wants to meet you. Who mom? I don't feel like meeting anyone today. Well I guess you want me to tell Janet......... Just before my mom could say Jackson. I hop out the bed like lighting. I ran through the hallway almost falling. When I got to the door to see Janet Jackson, I woke up out my sleep. GODDAMN IT! "I screamed out loud" it was only f*****g dream. f**k my life, i said as I throw my nail polish at mirror breaking it. I was mad as hell that it was only a dream. Looking at myself in the mirror I wanted to cry. I felt the tears rolls down my cheeks. I wiped it away, as I took my clothes off to take a shower.