The Returning Ex (Completed)

Chapter 7 – We’re Nothing

Chapter 7 – We’re Nothing

Aria Jacobs

POV

I took one deep breath watching Tristan walk out of the house. I knew he blamed me for only meeting Austin now. I know I overreacting then but I was extremely emotional when we broke up. I was two months pregnant when I found I was pregnant. I took the first flight back home and went to look for him. I remember that day like it was yesterday. Every single emotion that came with that day came rushing back to me, I remember how broken I was. I lost I was, knowing my baby would possibly grow up without their father.

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(FLASHBACK)

I was standing in front of Nikolai and Madison’s house. I hoped Tristan was home. I had no idea why but I was so scared Maddie didn’t like me anymore. I knew Maddie would answer the door Tristan would never answer the door.

I finally found the courage to knock on the door and I did. The door opened and revealed Maddie

“Hey Maddie is Tristan here? I really need to speak to him.” I asked her. I could hear my voice trembling. I knew I looked like a mess. I had been crying the entire plane ride and the cab ride here.

I had no idea how I was going to tell him. It’s what I was scared of most, him rejecting me.

I looked up at Maddie she was shaking her head “No Tristan’s not here” she said rather harshly making me flinch at her tone.

I’ve never heard her speak to anyone in that manner before, that when I knew she hated me.

“D-Do you know when he’ll be back? It’s kind of important please Maddie. His phone is disconnected” I say honestly

I’ve been trying to call Tristan since I’ve found out I was pregnant.

“Aria his not coming back” Maddie says

My heart dropped. I felt my whole body go weak. I wasn’t strong enough to live without him.

I look at her in shock “W-What do you mean his not coming back?” ask still in shock

“Aria my little brother came back home completely heart broken and couldn’t live in LA because everything reminded him of you. He left for the Army and is never coming back to LA.” She said

I saw the look in her eyes, she blamed me, she hated me and felt nothing but disgust for me.

Then her words hit me. Tristan went off to the Army. I gasped and held my hands against my mouth, praying the bile stuck in my throat would stay put. I felt as if someone had taken my heart, body and soul, leaving me empty. I felt completely and utterly lost. I knew I had lost the love of my life forever.

“No. No. H-he c-could die there” I stuttered and cried out. ‘My baby would never know his father’ I added in my heart

I felt that bile slowly rising up to my throat again, I needed to get out of here.

“I’m sorry Maddie I-I ne-need to-to go” I say backing up and I ran, I ran until my body couldn’t anymore. Till I felt my legs give in. I sat on my knees and I broke down. I cried out loudly. I cried till I couldn’t breathe anymore. It didn’t help I still felt empty. I can’t do this on my own, Tristan I need you…

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“Aria”

“Aria”

“Aria”

“Aria”

I blinked away the tears. I looked up and saw Tristan looking at me.

“We need to talk Aria” he says looking away

I nod, not trusting my down voice.

He led me up the stairs to his old bedroom. We got to the room. I looked the room nothing’s changed. All of our pictures and souvenirs from all of our dates. The bedding was still the same as the day we left for Greece.

“Maddie left it as things were when we left.” He said it as if he did not care about these things

I nod trying to stay unaffected, but I was hurting inside. I take a seat on the bed. A flash of memories, good memories flashed through my mind, of all the moments we’ve spent together, hell inside this room, I had seen Tristan’s d**k for the first time. I did my first h*****b in this room.

The love we shared in this room. I knew no man would ever love me the way Tristan has, no man would ever compare to this man. No man made me feel the way Tristan had.

I’ve never cared for material things all I wanted was to feel loved and needed and Tristan had always made me feel that way.

I looked over at Tristan, he was anxious pacing back and forth. He looked completely stressed out.

“Look Aria things have definitely changed. I’ve changed hell you’ve changed. What I’m trying to say is that I’ll always be there for my son, but my life is in DC. He can always visit me when I’m free or I’ll visit him when I can. But my life is back in DC and I really need to get back there.” He says

“Wh-What about us?” I asked softly looking down. I couldn’t face him

I heard him pause his footsteps.

“What us? There is no us. There hasn’t been an us in ten years Aria. I promise to be there for my son. But I cannot be with a woman who doesn’t trust me and doesn’t believe me when I said I didn’t kiss that girl she took me off guard. I would never have done anything like that to you” he says making me look up at him. He looked me straight in the eye and there was an emotion playing in them, it looked so much like guilt but I wasn’t sure.

I slowly felt my heart breaking. I couldn’t believe this. He didn’t love me anymore. My heart was smashed into a million pieces I couldn’t believe that he didn’t love me anymore, that he didn’t want me anymore. He still had the tattoo on his arm though. I looked at his arm making sure it was still there and it was.

“Aria it’s just a tattoo I was millions of them. I suggest you drop it.” He says harshly

“But I thought….” I say but he cut me off

“Aria you think too much, I’ll set up a will for my son and pay back child support. I hope you will put my name on my son’s birth certificate Aria” he says

I look at Tristan blankly. I thought he still loved me. I thought we still had a chance to get back together. I guess I was wrong about that.

I could never move on from Tristan he was my forever. There was no one after him. A year after I given birth to Austin and I had stopped breast feeding, I had gotten a tattoo of Tristan’s name under left breast it wasn’t anything special it was just his name in cursive. It hurt like hell. But it felt nothing compared to what I felt right now.

“I suggest you security on you and our son, I don’t need you wasting the FBI’s resources every time Austin runs away. It’s embarrassing and a waste of man power which could be used to catch actual criminals.” He says coldly

I didn’t respond. I felt humiliated. He made it seem as if I had planned all of this. I lowered my head in shame.

His phone rang.

“Wilder”

Reyes?”

“What? Already?”

“Oh okay sure I’ll be right there”

“Sure see you soon” he says into the phone hanging up

“Aria I need to go. I probably would be gone for a while. When I return to LA I’ll phone you, so I could see my son.” He says

I just nod and he walks out of the room without saying another word. I was left utterly and completely lost, confused and hurt.

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TWO WEEKS LATER

Its been two weeks since I’ve heard from Tristan. My son had been asking about his father and I had to explain to our son our dangerous Tristan’s job was and that he couldn’t contact him, but he would soon.

Austin keeps getting antsy about Tristan and when he’ll return, he missed his father. I have no idea how to contact Tristan and if I even could. Tristan’s job was dangerous and came with a bunch of risks. I kept prating for him everything single night before I would sleep. I just wished the man I loved had a normal 9-5 job like the rest of us.

A job where I didn’t risk the chance of losing him. I still have no idea what happened two weeks ago but I hope Tristan was wasn’t serious about there being no us. I really loved him and would put my own life on the line to be with him.

I took a deep breath and got up from my office chair. I was supposed to be working on our new app, but I couldn’t concentrate I walked to the floor to ceiling window. I looked out watching the view. It wasn’t much but it was enough to get me out of my thoughts. I owned a small tech firm. I studied online while I was pregnant with Austin and after I gave birth, I went to college and got my degree, on Austin’s third birthday I opened this firm with it being just myself as an employee. It was what paid the bills and I got to do what I loved most.

It only had five floors, the first being the reception area and boardrooms, second floor was security personal, third floor had the cafeteria and programming and my two hackers staff, fourth had, marketing, accounting, HR personal and then the fifth floor was mine together with my assistant Mathew Stark.

My personal phone rang bringing me out of my thoughts, I knew it was my personal phone due to the ringtone. It was Tristan’s favourite song when we were dating.

I walked up to my desk and walked back to the window answering the phone.

“Hello”

“Ria it’s me Tristan. Can we meet?” he asks I realised he had called me Ria, he hadn’t called me that in so long.

“I’m at work so you can come over” I say

“Oh sure. I’ll see you in a bit” he says hanging up

I silently prayed he wasn’t coming to destroy more of me. I really do love this man with all of me no matter what anyone might say. Tristan once upon a time was my whole world. I wanted him to be that again we could live happily with our son as a married couple and have many more children together. All Tristan would have to say was that he wanted that too. What would it take for me to exist in his life? I wish to kiss him, to hug him. I would die for him to love me. ‘Please don’t tell me you don’t love me’ ‘please stay’ it felt as if we were strangers and those memories was as if I watching a movie.

Yes I knew I was most likely delusional, but I was pregnant when I broke up with him, my mind was all over the place. I was an emotional wreck; I was in no position to make life-changing decisions. I pray to God Tristan still love me. I knew we needed to do a lot of talking and that’s something Tristan and I suck at. We never expressed our feelings for one another while we were dating one being we both knew how we felt about one another.

I needed to explain why I was out of mind. I could never find anyone, any man I could ever love as much as I loved Tristan.

A half an hour later my office landline ringed. I walked over to the desk and sat down answering it.

“Yes?” I asked

“Ma’am, Matt wasn’t at his desk so I called you, there’s someone down here asking for you” She says

“Who?” I asked

“A Tristan Wilder” She says with a giggle

I rolled my eyes of course any woman looking at Tristan became a schoolgirl he just had that effect on woman.

“Send him up” I ordered her

“Yes ma’am” she says

I put the phone down harshly.

I heard a knock on my door.

“Come in” I said

The door opens and Mathew walked in. he walked over to my desk

“Aria I need you to read through these and to sign them.” He says

I nod. Taking the files from him. I start reading through them. I immediately noticed an error on one contract.

“Matt look here something is wrong with this” I say

He walks over to me and stands behind me leaning over me to see the document.

“This here” I point at the error on the contract “It says we only get 20% of the profits whereas Intech gets 80%. You need to change it before I sign it and send it to them I’m not losing millions due to an error. Matt” I explain

It was supposed to be the other way around. Suddenly I felt Matt’s breath on my neck and I heard him sniffing me. It was freaking me out. I was about to say something when I heard someone clear their throat.

I looked up and saw Tristan. And looking at the look in his eyes I knew he misunderstood the situation and I knew we weren’t getting back together anytime soon.

“Sorry” Tristan said his voice sounded gruff and I saw him sending daggers at Matt.