Whatever had just happened to me, I was deadly scared by that. It was unexpected and beyond my imagination. Everything around me is just killing me now. My head, why it’s paining a lot? I was sitting in the dressing room with my bridal gown waiting for my time to go out. What waiting? What do I know about this marriage? Leave about marriage, what do I know about myself? The answer was nothing. I don’t know anything about me. My head is completely blank like a blank paper. Before this marriage I wanted to see how my life was. How I was living. What kind of person I was.
I sat back on the chair. I kept hand on my heart. It was beating heavily. There was strange untold pain was lying inside my mind. I did not know what was happening with me and what would going to be happen with me later. As the time is passing by I was getting even more stressed. Usually girl’s looks happy on the day of their marriage, but looking at me it seems my face doesn’t show any excitement and gladness about this wedding. God knows what was going on. I am getting more anxious, more nervous by every tick of clock. It seemed as if everything was happening in a hurry. Everything is going against my will or I have no consensus at all.
I turned back to see my mother was talking on the phone behind me. She had no idea how I was feeling, it looked like she didn’t want to know about it. I saw my mother from the mirror. It’s so strange that I was fair like a snow ball whereas my mother and my father both had little tanned face. I was comparing my face cut with my mother. No one could ever guess that Mrs. Betty is my mother. My mother appeared to be free from any kind of anxiety as if the burden had become much lighter in her head.
“Mam, everything is ready, please bring Miss Caitlyn to the stage.” Someone came and said with bowed head. Mom kept her phone aside and came to me with her smiling face.
“Let’s go.” She was smiling. But my heart Started throbbing loudly. I was scared in my mind. There were strange thoughts were coming in my heart. Everything seemed bizarre to me. My legs started trembling and knees became steady as if it doesn’t want to go ahead.
“Catty, hurry up. Don’t waste your time.” Mom became little rude towards me. Her eyes became little scary which terrified me. She was not looking normal but someone whose intentions were not good enough.
I just nodded her head and started coming out. I came out of that dressing room with slow steps as my mind was pushing my legs to walk. That church was not decorated with anything special. That atmosphere also did not look like a wedding. It more looked like some kind of agreement. There were almost tens of people were standing for welcoming me. Seeing them, it did not seem like they know me well. They were just standing and completing some kind of formality. Not even single line of happiness was seen on their face.
I started walking through the space between the rows of chairs. My gaze went over a tall man who was looking at me with his deeper eyes. He was fair and handsome with masculine personality. He has a pointed nose and sharp jaw line which make him compete with any Hollywood actor. His narrow cold shivering eyes by which he was looking at me with some grudges as if I had stolen some very important thing from him. I was startle to see his scary eyes towards me. He was silent but his eyes were throwing some kind of heated radiations to destroy me. My legs started trembling when I was coming closer to that man. It was Christian Brown, the man whom I was going to marry. He was as handsome as cruel.
Christian was staring at me from the top to bottom. I was wearing net fairy wedding gown. I had orchid tiara in my hair which was spreading its fragrance in all over direction. I had no makeup on her face but mom told me there was no necessary for me to put make up. Christian’s expressions were telling that he Colest have seen me for the first time. His gaze went on my deep and frightening breaths by the movements of my collar bones.
I came forward and stood beside him. He was still staring at me with his narrow eyes. I was so petrified that I not even dare to take a glance of him. Everyone sat on their place. Mom and Dad were standing at the corner. Dad was looking so angry on Mom.
“Mr. Christian Brown, Do you willing to marry Miss. Caitlyn Cole? Do you accept her as your bride?” Father asked Christian. Christian looked at me with full of hatred. His teeth were gritting and his lips were smirking. He turned towards Father and nodded his head.
“Yes, I do.” He said to father. I looked at him with unclear gaze. I understood that this person does not like me at all but why he is marrying me if he hating me this much. Many questions are still unanswered for me.
“Miss Caitlyn Cole, Do you willing to marry Mr. Christian Brown? Do you want to accept him as your groom?” father asked to me.
When I heard it, my hands and legs started shaking. My brain almost froze for the moment. My heart started pounding with fear.
“Why would I become ready to marry this person? It doesn’t seem like I love this man or this man loves me. Was I willing to marry him? How can I take such decision in hurry? Why would this man who is not enough kind to look at me and wanted to marry me?” many question started rolling in my mind. I was so scared and completely lost between the things I heard before one day. Why all this happening with me. Who am I? What’s my identity?
“Miss Caitlyn? Are you listening to me? Do you want to marry Mr. Christian Brown?” Father asked me again with loud voice. I came to my sense. I looked at my mother, Betty Cole who has troubled face. Even Christian brown was looking at me with extreme rage as if he was going to kill me. He was rude by his expression. I was terrified.
“Yes I do.” I said. Christian Brown Smirked as his plan started getting on track.
The ring was kept on the table in front of us. Christian brown smirked heavily and took out that ring from the box. He took my hand which was trembling like I was with some kind of ghost. He put that ring on my ring finger. Everybody clapped. Now it was my turn. I picked the ring with my trembling hand. My hand was shaking so badly. I put that ring on his finger. Everybody clapped again. We both turned towards the father.
“Congratulations to Mr. Christian and Mrs. Caitlyn Brown. You both are married couple now.” Father congratulates us. None of us looked happy after this marriage.
Now it was time for kissing the bride. I was clenched my fist out of fear. My knees became steady when Christian started getting close to me. My breath started getting heavy and deeper. I even pressed my lips inside due to shyness. Christian came almost close to my lips. I can feel the freshness of his breathing on my face. I closed her eyes due to shyness. Instead of kissing my lips he turned his lips towards my ears and whispered slowly in it.
“Now your life is going to be hell. YOU are finished Mrs. Caitlyn Brown.” Saying this he stepped back. I opened my eyes and became stunned. He was smiling like a devil. I heard whatever he said just now. Many things were still non understandable for me.