Sahri High

Thirty (Unedited)

"Do you really have nothing else to do son if not that? For the whole semester vacation, all you do is reading here in your room, how many times do I have to tell you that you have to atleast a social life once or twice a week? Ayesha, why did you lock yourself up here at home? " Mommy opened it right away when she entered my room, it was always clean, but there were books blocked when she entered, they weren't scattered, but maybe that's why she was feeling messy because of the amount.

I just sighed and lowered the book I was reading a week ago and raised my mirror that almost dropped to my nose, which I also didn't notice because my whole attention was just on reading. "Mom, I told you already, haven't I? I'm not in the mood, so please, let me finish this, I don't like noise, yosi smoke, smell of alcohol."

"I never said go to the bar Ayesha Lalaine! Don't treat me like that. Be organized with your answer to me." I can sense a warning tone in her voice.

So I sighed in annoyance. "Mom, please go, I'm still reading something, I have to finish it, I'm at the c****x of the story, please."

He approached me and sat on my blue bed. "Son, is it because of what happened then? Ayesha, you have to move on, you won't always experience that, I know you're scared, but your li-"

"I said stop! Please Mom, leave me alone!" I can't take this conversation anymore. I'm on the verge of crying, and i won't anyone even mom see any tears that's coming from my eyes.

I heard her deep sigh and got up and went straight to the door, but before she left my room, she looked at me first. "I'm sorry to brought about that topic, by the way, prepare your things, your classes will resume tomorrow, and please, tell me and please talk to me when you want someone to talk, I'm always here, not me display. " She sounded so sad, I'm not bypassing her, it's just that I don't know how to open up to her everything I think and feel.

I just nodded in response so he came out, I simply wiped my tears that kept falling in my eyes, I shouldn't be crying, Dad said I can't, I need to be strong, I can't say of other people, I'll just cry, I have to stay calm and tough, I don't want other people to see that I'm weak. Nerd and I look weak at school, some invisible nerd within the school, shall I add more? No heck way.

"You shouldn't be a crying princess, it doesn't matter to your green pair of eyes."

I let out a loud sigh again before I removed my thick glasses and pinched my loose hair, my Dad loves my long black hair, everytime that he's around, he always brushes my hair while telling how his day gone , the saleswoman at the canteen was a crush, their meeting was a first timer, the ones who reported, the ones with her ate, there was one who didn't want green peas, their head was hot but when you gave them coffee , suddenly it will be calm, things like that. I miss those memories with him.

Fvck nightmares.

Mom's right, I should move on, but why can't I?

I lost my appetite to read, so I arranged the book on the side table and left the lamp shade on, I was just stunned and thinking how Daddy and I lost like that.

He's a man of his words, he value life, he value humans, he value every people's rights. He loves to help, he's sweet and caring, how could someone possibly think of hurting him? Is that envy? Is that enough to kill someone? Especially if they have a family? I wonder what he was doing? Is he happy that he did what he wanted? I hope guilt is eating him right now.

I should get my ass back together, our second semester will start tomorrow, and I can't go in feeling like this.

I was still thinking about something that I can't even remember, until I fell asleep.

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I'm walking through the hallway, there are a few students walking, as usual, no one notices me. I'm used to it. They only know me when there are examinations, projects, reportings, etc. related to academic purposes. But I always get death glare, hurtful words and even bullying from them. I'm not the usual nerd they were expecting.

I don't stuffs that was in favor for them, i do the opposite. I don't want attention, I don't want the spot light to hit me. And the result? I have no friends. I have been at this University for six years. Highschool and College are together here, it's also big so it also gets lost sometimes.

I adjusted my glasses with thick lenses and took off my skirt. I never really liked this school uniform. I feel like a hostess while walking when I wear this disgusting dress. There is a protocol so I can't extend it, I don't know what this school thought. Damn it, it's all just annoying

blouse, skirt, socks and shoes. The blouse is striped red, white and blue and has short sleeves with side slits, a revers collar and buttons down the front. This about the knee length skirt is royal blue in color with a waistband and a center-back zip, a red V-necked cardigan, socks must be white in color and ankle length, school shoes must be black of the lace-up or T -strap variety.

When I entered my assigned room for my first subject, I immediately chose a seat in the back, as I said before, I don't want attention. I slapped the pair of earphones on my ear and started browsing for a song I was going to play while waiting. It's only six thirty am and we still have eight classes, so I still have a few hours to sleep for a while. I don't want to get sick so I'm always early. Early bird if they call it that.

I couldn't sleep either, I just stared while listening to music on my ipad, around seven o'clock, my classmates were slowly coming, they didn't pay attention to me, as much as I wanted.

Exactly at eight am our professor arrived, and almost everyone is officially enrolled in this subject, last semester it was chaotic because we attended a lot but only almost half of the population was enrolled, so the administration made sure that everyone complied with rules and regulations on enrollment, so as to maybe avoid any complications regarding it.

"Goodmorning class. I know you all know me, so I will do my attendance just to check if all of you are already here."

Prof Enrille began to call. She was also our former advicer way back three years ago.

"San Diego, Ayesha Lalaine?" My brain went back to what Madam was doing when I heard her call my full name.

I raised my hand slightly, for him to see. "Present." which he heard immediately, he just smiled and nodded and continued what he was doing.

"Saavedra, Alexander Fire?" He called the next student, so my female classmates almost got into trouble, and the boys looked like they had a bad trip, I bet those snakes were already jealous.

"Saavedra, Alexander Fire?" I'm just tired. Where else are you really going to go, aunt? Wow.

"That kid isn't here anymore. He's probably just around and flirting. He's really upset when he comes in." He added, before skipping and marking the opposite of the name with a red mark.

He continued to call names until our time was over, just a little orientation on what we would do for the whole semester, the professor came out, I also stood up and at the second door I decided to go through, I immediately touched the bag pack 'I and quickly walked out of the classroom.

"Ayeshaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!"

I was almost close to the tone of the voice of the caller so I walked faster in the hallway. The others are already being watched. I was almost at the end of feeling the soft pair of hands holding my arm.

"Hey! Why don't you stop? I called you?" He said, that I didn't answer and just continued walking. "Hey Yeshaaa! Yuhuu!"

I stopped for a moment and looked at him wickedly. "Hands off." I said coldly.

He just sniffed and his grip on me became even tighter, he really didn't pay attention to what I said to him. "No! You're so beshy! We haven't seen each other in weeks and then you're like that!" I just stared at him and continued walking.

"Tone down your voice." He blinked and fanned himself.

"My bestfriend is really bad! A Claire Lorraine Saavedra, the campus queen, the cheerleader, daughter of the two ellite tycoons and the sister of the most famous chic magnet is being ignored and commanded by the--" she looked at me and smiled. "Most coolest, preetiest and the most loving girl in the universe!"

I ignored him, he followed the mahata that I had no intention of responding. I don't worry if he gets upset anymore, we've been together since we were kids. We were classmates from gradeschools, we never separated. I also don't know when we became friends, we were totally opposite to each other.

"Your older brother wasn't here before." I said while still walking while going to the cafetiria. As I said, this school is big.

He's just so scratchy. "She broke up with Mommy later, I'll report her, I'm sure this time her one week allowance will be cut."

"You don't have to say, I bet Aunt Irish already did." We looked at each other, I just smiled and he laughed.

"Kyaaaaaaaaaaah !! Omy! Omy!"

We both looked at the source of the shout. From one came the accent and shrill screams of those with women's souls. Spontaneously the road split, as if you thought we were going back to the time of Moses who split the sea. We waited for who would pass by, and we were almost dizzy at what we did that round of eyes.

It looks like the water has split, because something shokoy came out, that's why it looks like the women have joined again.

"The self-proclaimed campus hottest guy in the world but actually is the Campus Jerk is already here." I said angrily, Raine laughed next to me. He is used to me. We've been together since we were kids, so he already knows his older brother's behavior.

"What are you beshy! Why are you so mad at your brother?" He said laughing and patted my shoulder.

"I don't hate him Raine, i just don't like him, his whole being is shouting that he's a pureblooded jerk."

"Weh? My older brother is kind, isn't he?"

I slowly turned to him and looked him in the eyes. "Raine, I don't like her. I don't like her personality, I don't like her over flowing arrogance, I don't like her choices of words, I don't like her useless sense of humor, and I don't like her ignoring what they say Tita, because she thinks when he owns everything or the whole world, he doesn't even enter our subjects, and what does he do? He's just messing around, and wasting all the money your parents made. Now tell me, what should I like from him? "

He was silent while just smiling as if he didn't know. This is probably the first time I have spoken for such a long time. He always says that.

"It's Lala. What you said hurts." I was stopped when I heard a familiar voice, so I quickly turned around. "Hi Lalabs." He greeted me while smiling. I heard the breathing of the people around us who heard non.

"What now, Fire?" I frowned at him. There's something in his eyes that i couldn't recognized.

"No Lalabs. Goodmorning!"

I'm just tired of what he said, I'm used to them being siblings. I've been there, all their schemes and trips, I've seen everything and I've experienced the others.

"There's nothing good in the morning if I'm the only one I can see. Besides, is it okay, don't distract me? It's ruining the day."

I turned around and walked away, but I was surprised when he pulled my bag.

"You're harsh." She whispered. I'm really irritated, we're getting too much attention because of what he's doing.

"You know that, now get your hand off me." I answered and adjusted my thick glass that was about to fall off.

"Wait beshy! Let's go together right ?!"

I was just grabbed by the nape of my neck, it was pure misfortune and stress that I got right away, it was just the first day.