CADE didn't let go of my hand since we left Palawan until now that we're in a private plane. He keeps on kissing my hand and temple, no I love you's but he still manage to warm my heart. Those gestures really make me fall harder and harder, and I'm not going to hold it back anymore. I let my heart love him and keep doubts and fear away. It's not healthy. I just realize that I'm not fully happy with those when I'm with him so I stop doubting and thinking about the outcome of this.
I look at this man beside me who's sleeping on my shoulder. He's peacefully sleeping. His grip on my hands gets tighter.
"Hey," Unti unti ng nag mula si Cade at agad na umaliwalas ang mukha ng makita ako.
"You sleepy? Want to sleep?" He asked while rubbing his eyes.
"Nah, I'm okay," He nodded before hugging me.
"Savi, would you tell to your family that I'm your boyfriend?"
In that matter is not a problem. I'm sure it's fine with them. Alam naman na ni Daddy and Kuya kaya hindi na iyon magiging problema sa iba.
"You, would you accept something from me?" I ask without hesitations.
"What is it?"
"It's not a thing. But I'll tell you when we get there," He just nodded and confuse but he manage to smile.
Minutes passed with silence.
"Baby."
"Hmm?"
"Sing for me." napangiti ako.
Nakasandal ako sa dibdib niya habang hinahaplos niya ang kamay kong hawak pa rin niya. "What song?"
"What's your favorite song?"
Napaisip ako dahil wala naman akong paboritong kanta. "I don't have a favorite song but this one I like these days."
"Sing it." sabi niya at humalik pa sa ulo ko.
'Baby, now that I've found you'
Panimula ko pero bigla nalang yumakap sa akin si Cade. "I heard that before but I don't know the title." Natawa ako at itinuloy ang pagkanta.
'I won't let you go
I built my world around you
I need you so, baby, even though
You don't need me now'
He intertwined our hands and he kissed the back of my hand.
'Baby, baby, when first we met
I knew in this heart of mine
That you were someone I couldn't forget
I sing right and abide my time'
Hanggang matapos ang kanta ay nakayakap lang siya sa akin at panay ang halik sa leeg ko.
"Savi."
"Cade?"
"Would you go with me on a date?"
Date?
Hindi pa ako nakakaranas nang i-date. I always wish Cade is with me in resto talking about things and laughing together. Mukhang mangyayari na lahat ng pagpapantasya ko noon.
Hinarap ko siya a mabilis na tumango. "Yes. When?" Malawak ang pagkakangiti ko at siya ay tinatawanan lang ako.
"Secret." Napangisi ako sa sinabi niya.
Itinaas ko ang kamay naming magkahawak pa rin. "Namamawis na kamay natin ayaw mo parin bitiwan?" Parehas kaming natawa.
Hinalikan niya ang likod ng palad ko habang nakatingin sa akin. "You look sexy." Napangisi siya at hinila ang batok ko palapit sa mukha niya.
"Because I'm your boyfriend." Napataas ang kilay.
"Anong connect n'yon?" Mahina siyang humalakhak at sinakop ang bibig ko.
Bawat pag galaw ng labi niya ay ramdam na ramdam ko. As his tongue enters my mouth he explores it like he's thirsty for my kiss. Our tongue battled in sync. He bit my tongue like a hungry animal and nipped my lower lip.
He held my jaw and carry me to his lap. This being intimate with him is really something. Something that I really love to do. I love his touches, caress, kisses, and all he can do.
Hawak hawak ko ang pisnge niya habang siya ay nasa batok ko ang isang kamay habang ang isa ay naglalakbay papasok sa loob ng shirt ko. Napahinto ako dahilan para huminto rin siya.
Nang mag angat ako ng tingin mula sa malayo ay nakatingin sa amin ang isang body guard ko na agad na napayuko. "What is it?" Tanong ni Cade.
"We have an audience." Natatawa kong sabi habang sinusuklay ang buhok niya.
"Does it bother you?" tumango ako.
"A bit uncomfortable but we can do it in a comfort room?" Nagkaroon ng nakakalokong ngisi sa labi niya.
"That's good idea." Hindi matanggal ang pagkakangiti kong tumayo nagpunta kami ng comfort room kasunod ko si Cade at nilingon kami ng bodyguard ko mukhang alam na niya ang mangyayari.
Napalingon ako kay Cade na tinampal ang pag upo ko nang buksan ko ang isang cubicle. "You... did you just spank me?"
Inosenteng umiling si Cade at tinulak ako papasok ng cubicle at mapusok na hinalikan habang tinatanggal ang pagkakabutones ng pantalon ko.
"I didn't imagine myself doing these things with you," mahina kong sabi habang nakatingin sa mga mata niyang punong puno ng emosyon na hindi ko magawang pangalanan.
"This is what I always wish, Savi," he kiss me before I utter a word.
With his hot touches, my body heats up and becomes needy again. I can't stop being aggressive. In a small space in a cubicle, we manage to made love.
A LOUD gasp from him is made me smile. He's groaning while releasing in my mound. "Fuck." He cussed as I grip his length and move it up and down.
"Hmm..." I moan as he enters his one finger inside me. "Hon, f**k me again," I whispered like a w***e.
He just smiled and in an instant his lenght harder more. Mas binilisan ko pa ang pag taas baba ko sa p*********i niya habang siya ay mabagal na inilalabas masok ang daliri sa loob ko. Nang maramdaman ko na malapit na ako ay sinalubong ko ang pag pasok ng daliri ni Cade na nanatiling nakatingin sa akin.
"Shit... Ahmm..." Ungol ko nang maabot ang sukdulan at mas lalo pang uminit ang katawan ko ng bilisan niya ang paglabas masok ng daliri niya sa loob ko at sunggaban ako ng mapusok na halik.
I felt the tip of his length rubbing to my wet mound. "f**k me again..." He just smiled and kiss my nose.
Then he penetrates his long big c**k inside me and starts pumping in and out, faster and hard.
I almost scream in too much pleasure he's giving. Every time he's hitting my sweat spot I almost shout his name. But I stopped myself, somebody might hear us.
After he released inside me, we just realize what we had done. "You c*m inside me for the third time." bahagya akong natawa dahil nanginginig pa ang binti ko.
Napaupo ako sa nakasaradong bowl. "Ohh... Is that even fine with you?" tanong ni Cade na nag aalala na habang nililinis ang p*********i niyang basa ng katas namin.
Nang ayos na ang suot namin pareho ay puno ng pag aalala ang mata niya kaya hinila ko siya palapit sa akin. "Hey, don't act like a woman. Ako ang magbubuntis kung sakali at hindi ikaw." Natatawa kong sabi habang hinahaplos ang leeg niyang may love bites ko.
Napakunot ang noo ni Cade. "I thought you're not yet ready to carry a baby?"
Huminga ako ng malalim at iniyakap ang braso sa leeg niya at nandito parin kami sa loob ng masakit na comfort room ng plane. "Yeah, because I'm still young, I think you're not yet too ready for this kind of commitment."
Lumambot ang mukha niya at tumango. "I understand that your still young and not yet ready but let me tell you this." Hinawakan niya ang mukha at isang dangkal nalang ang layo ng mukha ko sa mukha niya. "I'm ready to settle. I'm 28 now I'm not getting any younger. If it's you and if I can only decide for you I'll marry you."
Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya at sa pagkakataong ito ay hindi ko na naitago kaya bahagya siyang natawa. "My baby is shock," he kiss my nose and smile sweetly.
I want confirmation! Why?!! Does... Does he...
"Cade." Tinaasan niya ako ng kilay.
"Confused? I actually want to confess in our date but I don't want to stress you out thinking about us." Bumilis ang kabog ng puso ko habang titig na titig pa rin sa mga mata niya.
"Hon..." bulong ko.
"Remember when I gave you cupcakes but you didn't accept?" I nodded. "I was planning to get close to you because I like you. Then, after that day Charles told me he likes you. I was mad so I move to New York. Every time Mom calls me to celebrates special days with them I come over because I know you were there. At every party, you talk to people and looking at me then smile. You're so adorable when you're trying to talk to me but I always tell an excuse. Every time I see you I always want to talk to you, kiss you, made love to you," he chuckled. "But I can't because you're so young and innocent. Then you started making out with guys... Savi, it hurts me. Nakakatawa man isipin pero halos maiyak ako noong pumasok kayo sa kuwarto ng kasama mo."
"We didn't..." I was about to defend myself but he just smiled.
"I was your first, Savi," he said that like it explains everything. "Then, you were with Charles and Dani you're drunk and you shouted that you're a virgin. That relieves me. That night I warned all the guys who want to come over you because you're a virgin, tight and..." he chuckled. "Enough with a story... I just want to say I love you, Savannah." I have no reaction that makes him get serious. "Baby." He holds my hands and kisses them. "Can you tell me you love me too?"
It's not that I don't want to tell him. I'm still shocked. Hindi mag sink in sa utak ko ang sinabi niya. Nanlalamig na ang kamay ko at sobrang bilis ng t***k ng puso ko.
Napakagat nalang ako sa labi ko bigla nalang nagmalabis ang luha ko. Nang makabawi ay bumuka na ang bibig ko. "You love me? Cade, I love you so much than you know." natatawang pinunasan ang luha ko at nanginginig ang kamay niyang niyakap ako.
"I promise you an engrande proposal. I never thought of me confessing here in a comfort room." natatawa niyang sabi habang mahigpit akong yakap.
Proposal...
"I LOVE YOU, baby," he whispered while we're eating our dinner on the plane.
The way he look at me. I know now why he look like that to me. Because he loves me. "I love you too," I said with his stare, stares that I always wished for. Look that he always lay on me since then. Now I know.
That confession was epic. That was really epic but it so heartwarming for me. There's no right time nor place to confess for me. He can just say that he loves me anytime he doesn't need to confess to me on a date. I don't need those, all I need is love from him.
I think he will change for me because I know how good people he came from. Is he going to stop making s*x videos? Kahit iyon lang ang tigilan niya ayos na sa akin. I just don't like this relationship to get end early. Ang dami kong gustong gawin kasama niya. Kasama namin ng anak ko.