One Sided Love

Chap 1

Kate

Loss! What a small word but what a large impact it can have on your life. Unfortunately, Loss and I go side by side- A perfect companion in my life that doesn't want to go away. I lost my mother when I was 4 although she was not your perfect mother who bakes you cookies or visit your school function, no she was a drug addict and a person who sleep with random people in order to run the kitchen but despite being a controversial figure in my life she was everything because I know she tried to leave the lifestyle for me, she loved me when she was not induced in drugs and keep me safe and kiss me goodnight and promised me that one day my father will give me his name and will accept me and I will have everything that she can't provide me.

Well, mama, your wishes are granted cause look after 20 years my father did give me his name and sort of accepted me but on a worldly basis thanks to grandpa's warning.

I looked at myself in the mirror and felt myself crumbling with the thought of grandpa. He also left me alone.

When I started living with him, he made sure that I was loved but bloody cancer killed my grandpa.

Some might say how lucky I'm that I got connected with The Evans family one of the richest and noble families in town but l doesn't truly belong here because of my mother who was the mistress of Ryan Evans apparently my father. He doesn't love me at all and never accepts me as a daughter because not being only a disgrace to the family and a bastard but I resemble a lot to my mother with having her pale skin to black hair. My resemblance with my mother is a constant reminder for my father of what kind of embarrassment and trouble it brought to his marriage.

You were thinking then how come I became Evans well my grandfather Leo Evans was an honorable man and when it came to his knowledge that father has an illegitimate child for 4 years and my mother died in an accident. He immediately told my father to accept his responsibility and bring me to Evan mansions

We look like a perfect loving family but they don't know what happens in closed doors. My dad and his wife Mona accepted me with a happy face when they announced the world but behind the door, I can still see my father's hate and absolute disgust whenever he sees me and Mona well if her eyes can kill anyone then I would be dead by now.

She totally hates me and she never looks at my face and always treats me like a slave rather than a household member. My stepmother makes sure to fill my father mind with vile and false stories regarding me that started with something like this

I was throwing tantrums-which I don't or I hurt Emily – again not true or that I disrespected her and called her b***h -as I can even do that cause I wasn't allowed to get out of my room.

She even put the blame that I was misbehaving Infront of her important guests and start shouting Infront of them but in reality, I was having a panic attack -which I used to have frequently after my mom and grandpa death but who understand a teenager who was so socially awkward and the guest stress and open disgust glare on her that she was just like her mother 'A w***e' and saying stuff that a 15-year-old should never listen was all adding more salt to my wounds.

My stepmother succeeded in turning my father against me but no need to do that as he was already ignoring me from the very start and if we happen to be in the same room then insults and degradation were part of my first 20 years.

My father made this clear from time to time. I'm just a burden and shame that he has to bear in order to avoid any scandal. I still remember his words he said to me:

'Listen you girl. You're just a mistake like your mother. I have no love and respect for you. Look at this picture this beautiful blond girl is my only daughter and this is my wife Mona Evans, not your third-class mother .... you got it

Those words are still freshly registered in my mind and each time it fills me with deep painful sorrow that I will always be an unwanted child.

I was so lost in my thoughts that I haven't heard Emily's excited voice 'Katie come back from your dreamland. And look at you! Why haven't you got dressed you know mom she will later give you trouble come on hurry up the photographer is here for the family picture'

Did I say that I love my sister, she is the best thing in my life. Being three years older than me she accepted me as her little sister and always stood by me when mom and dad gave me a hard time.

She by looks and personality is completely different from me as she has beautiful blonde hair and stunning tan skin. We both share our father's green eyes but that's the only similar trait we have. In personality, Emily is confident, outspoken, keeps her views, and at the same time a very lovely and kind person. Me on the other end you might have guessed introvert freak, shy, always keep an opinion to myself, never spoke freely so that I don't hurt or disappoint my father and my stepmother whom I called mom too because of appearance sake but I deep down I want her to treat me as her daughter too but that's wishful thinking from my part.

Emily and I really get along because she thinks it's not my mistake that our father cheated on her mom but she tells me she is very happy to have a sister. She is the only reason that makes me happy and makes my survival in this family easy.

Coming back to the family picture thing let me inform you it's my dad's 60th Birthday and as always, we are celebrating with the whole town but it's sort of tradition in the Evan family to take a family photo that day before that is revealed to the whole town in dad's birthday celebration event.

And that's why Emily is dragging me out but how should I tell her that mom told me not to bother. As much as this kills me that I'm not part of their family tradition and has outcast more than one occasion but knowing the whole world tomorrow will also notice my absence in that portrait.

I hold over-excited Emily shoulder and said 'you know why I'm not dressed and mom said it was better I stay out of family affairs'

Emily made a sour face 'but mom doesn't know me, I have talked with mom and dad told them you are coming no matter what, so no more excuse come on wear this'

I reluctantly took the dress knowing I will pay for it as mom might not create any scenes but she will later find a way to make me miserable about it with her taunting and degrading behavior.

'what she is doing here.' Mona Evan said slowly but with so much disgust that made me flinched but Emily back I

cause mom like us she is getting her picture to be taken in our FAMILY portrait' Emily tressed the word family

Mona glared at me like it's my fault and looked down at me like I'm a piece of dirt. I moved back so that I can stay away from mom killing glare but my luck got another plan as I collide with a dad who apparently was putting his cufflink

He huffs in irritation and yelled 'damn you girl can't you do anything right I lost my cufflink. And what the hell are you doing here

I somehow digested my mom's disgusted look but the hate and disgust coming from my father were ending for me. I don't know why every time I get hurt and feel painful pings in my heart when my dad behaves like this with me like I'm just an inconvenience for him like I meant nothing to him.

Emily being my saving grace joined us 'Dad your cufflink is not lost its dropped look (she waved Infront of him) I will put it you are lost without me ' Emily joked

Dad's eyes shine with affections and emotions that I desperately want to see in his eyes for one time, just one time.

'of course, sweetheart you are my most precious thing and I love you more than anyone in this world. And you look so beautiful just like a princess'

Dad started praising Emily and I looked down in guilt at what he said was true Emily so perfect and kind soul but I'm feeling guilty because I was jealous of their bond.

'Come on now my back is killing me right now come just take a damn picture' mom loses her cool, still angry with my presence

The photographer said mom and dad sat on the golden L shape sofa and suggested Emily and Me stand at their back.

We stood in our posting then mom said 'How about you take only three of us pictures first. Kate can join us later'

Emily said in anger 'mom we have talked about this,

But mom cut her 'sweetie Kate will have a picture with us but you do know Kate doesn't work in our company she is still doing her masters and god knows when she will complete it. And you on the other hand are representing the Evan family heir. You joined our family business at the age of 24 and after four years you are CEO of our New York office. We want the world to know that how Evan family heir work hard and make a place for themselves with their hard work unlike some people who just leached at their father money without any hard work'

I knew the jabbed was made for me. I wanted to shout in frustration that I wanted to work in their company but you guys said to me there's no space for me in the office and don't want to set the wrong example to the world that we hire on reference.

'But mom it just a picture' Emily argued

But dad put end to this and said 'leave it everyone just take the damn picture and Emily your mom is right you are the rightful heir of this family I need no drama over a picture to please'

And that's how I was cut from the family picture and I'm sure a time will come I will cut from their life too.

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