HAVEN I spent a long sleepless night spent thinking of the man who was supposed to be my best friend. Erin has been my rock since the day he claimed me, he has been the one who I completely let my guard down with, stuck by my side, even after showing him the worst of me. Even though he has hurt me more than anyone else could, I still yearn for his presence. Why am I so f*cking weak? I need to stay away from him, and ending our friendship actually makes my decision to leave the order so much easier. I will be 18 in two weeks, so as soon as this mission is over, I will slip away from the boys and run. Leon is in the shower, so I check through my bag. I had packed all the paperwork I would need to start a new life. My plan has been in the works for a while. Fake identities, secret ban