Perilous Sea || Homer Series

Chapter 18

CHAPTER 18

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My lips parted as I look at him, did he just say the magic word? Did he said it? or I just misheard it? I blink for how many times and he's just looking at me with his deep-set eye, I swallowed hard.

"Did you just say it?" I asked unbelievably, he shrugged and hugged me. He didn't confirm it but what do I feel like my heart will explode anytime, did he just really said it? I bit my bottom lips and buried my face in his neck.

My heart is beating so fast, I felt so happy, so extreme, it felt so magical and it's making me insane, how words can affect me so much? It's like I'm on the edge of something and I wouldn't mind falling for it.

"Can you feel my heartbeat?" he asked. I smiled and nodded, his heart is pounding so fast, it's like, he's running for his life.

I move a little and look at him, "Did you just said it?" I asked, I bit my lips when he slowly nods, I tried to hide my grin but it show so naturally, I giggled and hugged him. I'm so happy.

"Damn, you're hugging me too tight, love," he whispered at me but I didn't let go, I didn't loosen a bit, I just want to hug him so tight, I want him to feel how happy I am. So damn happy that it's hurting me.

I'm afraid that there's an exchange in this happiness because it's too much, but I'm ready to take it all just to feel it again and again. I felt him kissed my forehead, we stayed in that position until someone sat in front of us.

"Public Display of Affection," Saweas said and rolled his eyes on us, I sat properly and laughed at him. He's frowning at us and he looks like a kid.

"Why are you here?" Wyatt asked plainly. He's back with his blank expression, I pouted and glanced at Saweas. He's looking at Wyatt with serious eyes, it's like they're communicating in their eyes and I can't relate.

"Vaeren wants you," Saweas said like it's not a big deal to talk about, my smile dropped as I heard what he said, Saweas glanced at me with his serious eyes, I just stare at him, he's unbelievable.

"Vasqil," Wyatt said emphatically. He's using his cold voice to threaten Saweas. Saweas shrugged and lean on the backrest as he smirked at us, he looks devilish when he's doing that when he's smirking but I can clearly see how intense is his eyes. There's something wrong, I'm so sure.

"Don't make it obvious that we're talking about her, she's looking here," Saweas said coldly. I furrowed my brow on him, what's the matter, Saweas? He has a lot in his eyes, it looks so grievous.

Wyatt clenched his jaw, "I know you already knew everything, stop acting like this, Vasqil, stop putting yourself in the boat that's already sinking, you'll just get yourself killed and that's stupidity." Wyatt said coldly. Saweas chortled sarcastically.

"I'll rather kill someone than to do something that will kill me," he said evilly and walked out.

I was left dumbfounded at what Saweas said, it's not so him, what does he mean by that? He looks scary when he's acting like that.

"Don't mind it, he didn't mean it," Wyatt said and squeeze my waist. I hope so, maybe he's just driven by his anger and pain.

"You called him Vasqil and not Vasqen," I said as I remember what he said.

Wyatt kissed my hand, "I called him that when he's being different," Wyatt explained, my lips parted and nod at him, Saweas really looks different, he possessing a dark aura, it's like a demon possess him.

"He looks scary," I whispered, when he heard me, he immediately envelop me in his arm, "I'm here, you don't have to be afraid," he mumbled at me and with that, I felt

safe and secure.

I smiled and nod my head, I pouted when I saw how mythic the people are, they look so happy with their friends. I glanced at Wyatt, he's just watching them too, he

looks like in deep thoughts.

I poked his cheeks and pouted at him, his eyes directly went to my lips, I pushed him a little when he went closer, "Wyatt!" I exclaimed.

He tsked. "You're pouting, what do you want to do?" he said boringly, I rolled my eyes at him.

"Can we swim?" I asked but I frowned when he quickly shook his head.

"Why?" I asked, I'm frowning at him but he's just looking at me.

"Let's just stay here," he mumbled, I pouted more and look at him with my puppy eyes, he looked away to avoid me but I held his chin and made him look at him, when our eyes met I smiled widely at him.

He sighed deeply, he held my nape and kissed me, I was caught off guard! My eyes widened, I strike his chest when I felt his tongue trying to open my lips.

When he pulled away I look at him in horror and glanced at the people around us, I saw Salera with her teasing smile, I immediately look down as I felt so embarrassed!

I heard him chuckled, I glared at him, "You're such a kiss stealer," I exclaimed at him, he just shrugged and pulled my waist closer to him. I still can't get over it!

"You're not wearing a bra, right?" Wyatt asked normally, I immediately turn at him, how did he know? My dress has its own foam so I didn't bother wearing a bra.

I look at him suspiciously, "How did you know?" I asked, he smirked at me playfully. I glared at him but he just shook his head and put his chin on my shoulder, he doesn't have a plan to answer.

"Really, Wyatt! Did you—"

I flinch when felt his hand on my back, I can't look at him, he's just an inch away from me. I sat properly as he caressed my back, the heat of his hand sent chills on me.

"I just felt it, don't think pervently," he muttered and chuckled, I frowned.

"Stop touching my back," I said.

He sat properly and look at me, "How can you swim without it, hmm, do you think I'll let you—"

I look at him unbelievably, "We'll buy a swimsuit! I would not swim without a bra, Wyatt!" I said horribly.

He linked his lips, "Okay, we'll buy a one-piece swimsuit," he said and stoop up, I didn't complain and just nod at him, he held my waist as we head outside, we went to the stores, I saw a black backless one piece and it's looking good. I pointed that to Wyatt.

"I like that," I told him. He turns at the one I pointed, he scans it first before he nods.

"Okay," he said, I smiled and bought the one piece.

It's not revealing and daring, my front look is all covered, it's just my back that fully shown. Wyatt just bought a khaki short again and remove his open shirt so he's topless now.

He books a room in the hotel to put our things, we decided to just stay here for a night. After that we went back to the Rosewood door, we went inside and walked towards the table, I strip my cover-up and look at Wyatt.

He's looking at me intently, "What?" I asked.

He's frowning, "I can see the cheeks in your butt," he said, he sounds frustrated. I chuckled and hugged his waist.

"Of course, it's normal I'm wearing a swimsuit, Wyatt," I said, he put his hands on my back and kissed my forehead, "You look so sexy," he whispered, I bit his shoulder because of that.

"Anica!" he exclaimed, I chuckled.

"Let's swim," I said while grinning, he glared at me, my bite in his shoulder looks reddish.

I held his hand and pulled him to the pool. I jumped in the pool and the water flashed, I wiped the water in my face and look at him, he's just looking at me darkly.

I bit my lips playfully, "You won't join me, hmm, Wyatt?" I asked seductively.

He clenched his jaw, I swim away from him when I saw him jumped, oh gosh! I stop when I felt like he's not chasing me anymore. I roamed around but I can't see Wyatt, where is he?

I pouted, I swim to the deeper part of the pool, I know how to swim, our parents trained us. I stop when I felt a hand on my feet, I quickly kick it because of my shock but when I heard Wyatt's groan I immediately felt sorry.

He's holding his jaw, "Oh my gosh, I'm so sorry," I said and touch his jaw, he gritted his teeth, I linked my lips as I felt the guilt in my system.

He looks mad.

"I'm really sorry, you scared me," I whispered. I felt a little panic when he didn't say anything and just look at me.

"Are you mad?" I asked softly. I held his shoulder when I felt my feet numb, the water is almost in my nose, I'm just floating a while ago. He held my waist in support.

He's tall, the water is above his shoulder, he's looking at me darkly, I bit my lips as he held me closer to him. He made me lean on the sidewall of the pool while he's just standing in front of me.

"My jaw hurts," he said at me, he's looking darkly into my eyes. I hate it.

"I'm sorry, you just shocked me," I muttered to him. He shrugged and put my legs in his waist. He combed his hair between his fingers as the water dropped on it. He looks so freaking hot while doing that.

"Hmm, the water is just warm, it can reduce stress in the body," I said and look away, my hands are encircled on his neck while my legs are hugging his waist. His hands are holding my waist, we're too close.

"You're shaking, baby," he whispered to my ears, the heat of his breathe touch my earlobe. I bit my lips and smiled at him.

"It's cold," I reason out.

I heard him chuckled and look at me with so amusement in his eyes.

"The water is just warm, really, you're cold, hmm?" he said, I swallowed hard when I felt his hand touch my thigh down to my butt.

He moved closer and it made me shudder, I bit my lips as I felt his heavy breathing in my earlobe.

"Can I?" he whispered using his deep husky voice.

My lips parted as I felt my body's reaction to what he did, but he just whispered!

I tightened my grip on his hair and buried my face on his neck. "W-What?" I murmured as I felt legs weakened.

He chuckled in my ears, "You felt so weak in my arms, baby, hmm," I felt his lips in my earlobe, I bit my lips. Damn it.

"S-Stop doing that, s-stop," I uttered at him but he just pulled me closer to him.

"Do you really want me to stop, hmm, if you do then stop hugging me so tight, baby, I'm having a massive boner," he whispered in my ears and it sounds so f*****g sexy!

It's so unfair!

I look at him in his eyes, his stare is making me so damn turn-on but I wouldn't say it, I link my lips unconsciously and I saw how his eyes look at it intently.

I immediately pursed my lips, he looks at me in the eyes and sighed, he held my waist tightly and scooped me then kissed my forehead.

I closed my eyes as he did that.

"You're such a tease, love," he murmured.

I smiled and we remain in that kind of position as the sunset went down.

"Hey, lovebirds! Don't be ridiculous and let go of each other!" Amsel shouted at us, I and Wyatt look at him, I chuckled at what he said.

"Right, damn, I felt like I'm surrounded by couples! What the f**k!" Alysandro said with exaggeration.

"Shut up, dude! You're a f*****g womanizer!" Xiqen shouted.

We all laughed when Alysandro raised his middle finger to Xiqen.

"f**k you, Xiqen! We're just the same, fucker!" Alysndro muttered while raising his middle finger to Xiqen.

Xiqen scoffed, "Stop being a p***y now, Aly! Just damn f**k!" Xiqen said. I look at Wyatt when he covers my ears, he shook his head.

"Don't listen to them," he said, he's seriously looking at me.

I pouted at him, "They're such an asshole," I said, he nods at me.

"Oh, dude! look at Wyatt! What the f*****g f**k!" I heard someone said, I think it's Amsel.

"Damn you, Wyatt! Stop being so clingy to Oceanna!" Devien said teasingly, Wyatt looks at them.

He smirked, "Stop being so bitter, Devien! Why don't you find Helena instead?" Wyatt said mockingly, Devien frowned at him.

"Shut up, Asshole!" Devien said and everyone laughed.

"Weakshit," Wyatt said but Devien just raised his middle finger to Wyatt.

"Oceanna!" I look at Amsel when he called me.

"Hmm?" I asked.

I felt Wyatt's hand tightened on my waist.

"Why don't you let go of Wyatt—"

"I'm gonna shot your f*****g mouth, Amsel!" Wyatt shouted at him.

Amsel smirked playfully, "Let Oceanna enjoy, Wyatt! You're being a kill-joy!" Amsel said nonchalantly.

Wyatt shrugged and link his lips, "Why don't you mind your girl instead of us, Amsel." Wyatt said.

Amsel rolled his eyes, "Brute, you're f*****g possessive!" Amsel exclaimed.

Wyatt looks at somewhere and then back to Amsel then he smirked, "Aren't you, Amsel? Look at Nejasi," Wyatt said, I took a glimpse in Nejasi's table and someone's talking to her, it's a foreigner.

"What the f**k!" he said as he looks at the man beside Nejasi, the man is hitting on her.

Amsel forehead wrinkle and he immediately got up and went to his girlfriend, he immediately wrapped his arms on her waist.

Amsel said something that made that foreigner leave, I saw how Nejasi scold him, did he say something offensive?

Nejasi shook her head and look away. When her eyes dart at me, she smiled at me and I did the same thing, she really looks young.

I moved my gaze to Wyatt when he buried his face on my neck, I felt him kissed my neck.

"Wyatt..." I whispered.

"Hmm," Wyatt hum as he continues giving lightly kissing on my neck.

"We're in public, s-stop that," I said to him but he didn't listen, he even stuck my neck a little.

I closed my eyes in anticipation, I felt him stopped and when I open my eyes, his dark eyes met mine.

He's looking at me intently, "W-What?" I asked consciously.

He sighed and shook his head, "Tss... let's just go back in the hotel," he said and he's clenching his jaw. He looks mad but damn so sexy.

What did I do?

He walked towards the pool handle as he carried me in his arms, "Wyatt, what's wrong?" I asked.

He didn't answer, when we reach the pool handle, he held my waist and pushed me up.

When I successfully got up, he followed me. He looks so hot as the water dripped in his body.

"Don't you want to swim more?" I asked, he pulled my wrist and walked towards the table.

I saw Salera, Laweas, and Vaeren seating at our table, I pursed my lips.

"You look so good together," Salera said merrily, I smiled at her.

"What are you doing here?" Wyatt said coldly.

Vaeren stood up and went to us, she stopped in front of Wyatt but she glances at me before she pored at him.

"What are you doing, Wyatt?" Vaeren said coldly as she speaks.

I look at Wyatt, he's looking at tenderly and I don't know but it made me annoyed.

"You look tired, Vaeren. Rest," Wyatt said in his low tone.

Vaeren pouted and went closer to Wyatt. She put her hands on his neck and pulled him, Wyatt let go of my wrist and I felt mad.

He's not complaining, he's not saying anything, but I felt my heart being torn into pieces.

I swallowed hard when Vaeren's breast touch his chest, I bit my lips as I felt my eyes moisten. I... I'm waiting for him to push her but he didn't. He's doing nothing.

I looked down and take a step backward. I sighed. My eyes went to Salera when she held my forearm, she's looking at me intently.

"Why don't you pull him away?" she whispered at me but I can hear the irritation in her voice.

I smiled weakly at her, "What's the use? If he doesn't want what's happening then he would push her but he didn't, so why I would do that?" I murmured. I know bitterness filled my tone but it doesn't matter cause I'm really hurting.

I look at Salera but she's looking at the person in front of me, I followed her gaze and it broke me. They're kissing, they are f*****g kissing! Damn! Damn it!

My tears rolled in my cheeks, I held my heart as I felt it throbbing in pain, I felt someone held my wrist and pulled me somewhere but I didn't bother looking at that person.

I was just so lost. Is he just playing with me? f**k it!

I wiped my tears but it keeps on flowing, I can't stop it. I closed my eyes and sob hardly when I remember how he let her do that, he let her kiss him, he let her do that even though I'm here. He f*****g did.

"Stop crying," my lips parted when I heard the familiar voice.

I slowly look up and saw Helena looking at me intently.

She sighed heavily and wiped my tears, I roamed around and we're here in a room but it's not familiar to me.

"Do you love him?" she asked.

I bit my lips and embrace her, she just let me and tapped my back.

"I... don't know," I whispered to her.

"I'm so proud of what you did," she muttered.

"I just watch them—"

"You just didn't watch, you endured it. You did the right thing, you didn't stoop that low for them, your dignity is more important than anyone and I'm so proud of you," she said. I bit my lips as my tears streaming in my face.

"But it hurts, it hurts so much, Helena," I whispered as my voice cracked.

I heard her chuckled but it's not because she's laughing at me, it sounds weird... it sounds painful. "Do you know that pain is the reminder to everyone that love really exists... in a very vicious way," she mumbled, I felt her caressed my hair.

"Do you think love makes us do what is impossible?" she asked in so much affliction.

I wanted to look at her but she didn't let me, she just held me tight.

"Yes..." I answered I want to see her! I want to see her hurting! I want to know her pain so I could understand her, so I can stop hating her!

You know you would hate someone for being strong cause you wanted to be like that and it's killing you.

I want to emphatize her sorrow cause I never saw her mourning, I want to see her cause I'm afraid she's taking it all inside.

"Did you heard this words, 'When you love someone, you'll set them free' but people are afraid with the word 'felt out of love', so they'll do everything so the other person won't be tired of them, but it's not loving that made you do that, it's fear, fear of losing someone you love, and the fear of not being able to move-on and being left behind," she said, her voice contains some emotion that I can't name, it's making me shiver.

"People are being afraid because they love," I muttered.

I felt her hand loosen so I immediately look at her but she has no emotion, did I just mistaken?

"But then, did you question why other people aren't afraid of being left behind?" she asked. I want to read her but I just can't!

"Cause their love isn't enough, cause if they love enough then they would—"

"No, Anica. They love more than enough, so letting the person they love go is so surreal for them, cause they know that happiness wouldn't be found in them. To love is to let go, to fear is to hold-on, always remember the difference, Anica," I closed my tightly as her words open some wounds on me.

"Did you love someone already?" I muttered as I look at her intently, I don't know a thing about her.

I tried to hide my shock when her lips form a smile, she smiles so genuinely. Damn.

She looks at me, "Yes. I already love someone and I let him go," she said so normally like it's not a big deal.

I stare at her unbelievably, "Why? Do you still love him until now?" I asked in confusion.

She looks away and nods at me, "I still do, he was there when everything's falling apart, when I was so alone, when I felt like losing myself, he was there but I wasn't able to do the same, and it wrecked me so badly," she muttered.

I felt my heart flinched as she said those words, she's been losing herself? She also felt alone? I bit my lips so hard as I stopped myself from crying.

"Why... why did you b-broke up with him?" I asked as I look at her in despair.

She shrugged, "Because I need to, he was better off without me. Sometimes, it's not always what we want, it's about what we never wanted, you know you've been torn into wanting it and not wanting it but you'll end with what you really need," she looks at me, I don't know what she's feeling right now because she's not letting me read her.

"I need to let go for the both of us, I need to initiate the deed cause I'm the one who had the courage. I'm the one who never tells, and you know to yourself that he deserves better and so you did," she stood up and lend me her hand.

"I helped him and I'm happy that he's happy now, cause I would be miserable seeing him broken and ruined. The happiness I found is within him, so even he's far, even I'm not the one who's making him happy or even I'm not the reason for his genuine smile and laughter anymore, I would still feel the joy by just watching him being happy with someone else," she said and held my hand.

"Let's go, you're already calm so we can now go," she tried to pull me but I pushed her hand away.

"Are you happy at what you did? Are you, really? or you're just forcing yourself? Why don't you show me what you really feel Helena! Show me what you've got inside!" I shouted in so much frustration and anger but she didn't even flinch!

She just looks at me coldly, "You don't have to. Besides, saying things that you don't want will end up in regrets, so never do things that you never really wanted,"

"It will help you—"

"Anica, is it okay with you that he let her kiss him? Of course, it's not okay that's why you cried, so now fix yourself and make sure you're risking your heart in the right person," she said and turn her back on me.

I stood up and followed her, I don't know this place so I would rather be with her that to be lost.

When we went outside, I saw Devien looking intently at Helena. I also look at the door in front of us, it's the Rosewood door! So, Helena just brought me to the next door!

"What?" Helena asked.

Devien clenched his jaw, "Are you okay?" he asked but I can sense the annoyance in his voice.

Helena nods at him, "Is there any problem?" Helena asked with her cold voice.

Devien combed his hair in frustration and walked-out, is Helena referring to Devien?

Helena turns at me, "Would you go there inside or you would go with me to my condo?" she asked.

I shrugged, "We already book a unit but can you come with me inside the Rosewood door? I would get the key to Wyatt," I said and look at her with my puppy eyes.

She nods at me and opens the door, when I went inside I saw Wyatt seating at the table but Vaeren wasn't there anymore, it's just the boys with Salera, Laweas, and Belva, Donovan is also here.

They stopped talking when they saw us, I saw Wyatt eyes directly at me, he immediately stood up.

I just sighed deeply, "Can I get the key?" I asked him using my cold voice.

He tried to touch me but I moved away, he bit his lips when he realized what I did.

"Just give her the key," Helena said boringly.

"Helena, let them talk," Belva said in her modest voice.

I look at Helena and she arched her brow to Belva, "What?" She asked, but she used her intimidating voice.

Belva pursed her lips and didn't answer.

Wyatt held my elbow, "Let's talk," he said, his eyes are pleading to me but I can just feel anger, he just made me look stupid a while ago.

I removed his hand on my elbow, "There's nothing to talk about, just give me the keys," I said frigidly.

He shook his head and tried to get a hold of me but I didn't let him.

Wyatt stopped when Helena held my forearm, hiding me behind her.

"Can you just give her the key, you're wasting our time," Helena said as she looks to Wyatt darkly.

Wyatt clenched his jaw and look at me, I just gave him my blank emotion.

"I need to talk to her—"

"Talk to your ass, asshole," Helena said sarcastically.

"Helena, don't meddle with them," Donovan said flatly as he looks at her thoroughly.

Helena glance at Donovan, "You're a lawyer, right? You should have known that forcing someone to talk to you even though she refused is illegal," Helena said to Donovan.

"That's their quarrel, let them fix that," Donovan said emphatically.

"I think it's my sister who got humiliated a while ago so it's normal for me to react this way, like damn fun—"

"Don't try to cuss, Helena," Donovan said as he clenched his jaw tightly.

I sighed heavily, I don't like the tension here, I look at Wyatt and just lend my hand to him, "Give me the key, let's talk in the condo," I said in a very demure way.

Wyatt looks at me darkly, "I have a reason—"

"Reason my ass," Helena whispered but we all heard it.

She's looking at the pool but I know what she meant for that. I bit my lips seeing this side of her. She's having a bitchy mode.

I saw Nidxel covering her mouth to stop himself from laughing, Wyatt just sighed sharply as she looks at Helena.

I look at Xiqen when he called me, "Try to listen to him, he had his reason," he said seriously.

"Don't tell her what to do, Xiqen," Helena said as she raised her brow to him.

Xiqen look at Helena, "You know my sister, Helena—"

Helena clenched her jaw and that made Xiqen stopped, "Xiqen if you want my sister to adjust for your sister then back-off. And for the damn sake, don't justify what Wyatt did, if he can't resist Vaeren then he should stop flirting to my sister, that's damn cheating, assholes!" Helena looks at them like they are sort of stupid persons.

And... that's her power, to make someone so conscious when she stares at them. Her eyes show no emotion when she wants to but the greatest emotion she can give insults, you'll be insulted in the way she looks at you.

"And come-on, really? like what the freaking hell was that? if you're saving someone from their mental illness then make sure that you won't trigger other people's mental health, dude, you cannot choose both, you always have to decide," Helena said, she looks at Wyatt when she said those words.

"I'm so freaking disappointed to you, Engineer Vilmaris. Like dude, you're better than that, you're better than your jerk brother," Helena said, my lips parted when he mentions Zenos indirectly.

Wyatt furrowed his brow, "Did you two fight?" he asked.

Helena looks at Wyatt and rolled her eyes, she attempts to say something but her phone rang, "Speaking of the devil," she said.

"Answer it," Xiqen said seriously.

Helena smirked and decline it in front of Xiqen.

"Why I would follow you," Helena said rudely.

Xiqen shrugged and look away.

I look at Wyatt when stopping in front of me, "What?" I asked.

He sighed, "Let's go and talk privately," he said, I link my lips.

I look at Helena and she just nods at me, I preceded to walked into our condo and he just followed me.

When we went inside I immediately went to the room, we have a separate room. I locked it and took a bath. I don't want to talk to him.

— ishanndns

Learn the hard ways, sometimes, it's better to stay silent than to say something you would regret.