From Crush to Husband (complete)

6 - Confessions

6 –  Confessions

After the eventful morning at work, Alex told our fathers we were leaving for an early lunch and will be out for the rest of the day. I was quite thankful that he suggested it, I don’t think I can cope with the whispers and the looks I have been getting since the incident with Annie. I kind of feel stupid, getting upset about it, but as Jenny said its all a lot to take in. She came into my office after Alex’s outburst and said the same thing happened to her. Doug was not a playboy as she put it, but there were other girls in the office that were after him.  She had to show everyone that they worked with that they were couple and it was just as hard back then.

Jenny has been working for the firm since they married but only started after a deal was made between Doug’s and Jenny’s fathers, who at the time was the firms accountant. Its all very confusing. Even more confusing than mine and Alex’s contract.

After we left the office, Alex took me to a little lakeside restaurant for lunch. It was nice and peaceful, quite secluded, I had never heard of the place before.

“Cassie, you ok?” Alex asks just after we ordered our food. I had been quiet all the way here.

“Yeah, just feeling a bit stressed I suppose. Its not going to be as easy as I thought it would” I tell him, being honest

“I know. Don’t take this the wrong way but you are going to have to grew a little bit of back bone, babe. I mean Annie was being a b***h and she will be given a warning, my mums doing not mine. I know I have a past and I will try my hardest for it to not interfere with us but people will say stuff and it will be hurtful, but just know that I’m one hundred percentage devoted this” he as all this as he takes my hands in his and looks deep into my eyes.

“I know, just didn’t think I would have to put up with your bitches” I chuckle just as our food arrives.

“Yeah, I know. And I’m sorry that you have to deal with those bitches.”

As we sit and eat we organise a night out for tomorrow. He suggests going to the club with Ryan and the others, like a triple date. I’m not sure about it but I go along with his plans. I need to get this out the way, show the girls who are all regulars at the club he goes to that he is off the market.  He quickly messages Ryan to organise it, even if they don’t turn up we will still go out the two of us.

Lunch was amazing and we got to know each other a little better as well. Even though we have known each other for years, because of our parents. Its surprising the things you learn. For example, he is allergic to raspberries and hates peanut butter and has a vast taste in music, from different eras to genres. He loves watching comedies over action movies, which is surprising, considering Alex looks like an action movie actor. I thought he would at least have a man crush on Vin Diesel or someone. Alex frowned when I said that.

We take a walk around the lake, I’m not really wearing the correct footwear since we left straight from the office, but we stuck to the tarmacked area, making it easier for me in my heels. Alex did offer to carry me on his back so we could go further round but I refused, I told him I would be too heavy and I would hurt his back, but he disagreed and said I was skinny and he bet I weighed less than a feather.  He tried a few times to lift me to prove a point and eventually he succeeded in lifting me in one arm and carried me a little bit, I was fighting with him to put me down he eventually did and slapped my ass in the process, making my blush and aroused at the same time.  Seriously this man and his antics. I cant help but drool over his muscles, I mean he is hot as hell. And having his arms wrapped around me felt too good.

We headed back to the office so I could collect my car, I had a movie night planned with Beth as it was her night off and Frankie was working. Alex was not exactly pleased when I told him I would not be seeing him tonight, he pouted when we parked up at the office. He opened his car door for me, wrapping his arm around my waist and leading me to my car and opening my door for me, but he refused to let me in unless I kissed him. As we were kissing, the office was clocking off for the day, Fridays we’re finish at 4pm, just as we pulled away from each other slightly, Annie and her bitches came out the main door. I didn’t pull away fully from Alex, I pulled him in to deepen the kiss, as they walked past, they didn’t say anything, but the looks were enough.

We pulled away, just as they slammed their car doors shut, Alex looked up with a smirk on his face and seen them. He did not say anything he just pulled me in for a hug and kiss my forehead.

“I’ll call you later, babe. I’m going to meet the guys for a game of pool, since you are bumping me off for Beth.” again with the pout. Seriously this man.

“Stop pouting like a baby Alex. I’m sure you will have more fun playing pool than hanging with me.” I say as I climb into my car.

“If hanging with you means making out like we just did there, then I would pick you over Ryan and Josh any day” he says as he reaches in to peck my lips and closes the door with a wink.  I shake my head at him and pull out of the car park.

Sitting in my apartment with Beth, while the movie is playing in the background, I tell her the real reason why me and Alex have had to get together. I pretty much pour my heart out to her, with all my concerns with this situation. I’m petrified Alex will cheat on me, I mean I bet he can’t tell you how many women he has been with and the office gossip, which happens in most offices and as Beth says happen at the restaurant as well.  The contract and him revealing his feelings, that he is only telling me about now after the who contract was known.  She was shocked at first but then as we talked more she made me realise that maybe Alex is telling the truth. Like Lana and Neve told me, he asked about me before and was jealous. She suggested that we really sit and talk about it, being open and honest like we have been but I need to be more open.  I need to stop being scared, it is one thing I really cant help though.

As we are sitting chatting, my phone beeps with a new message

Alex – hey babe, what you up to? Missing you xx

I show Beth the text and she thinks he is being genuine. She has only met him a handful of times and she is again telling to think about what Lana said. “Invite him over, I’ll go meet Frankie at the restaurant, the place is yours for the night, not saying anything will happen, but open up to him. Tell him what you are feeling. I know its only been a week but you basically need to squeeze years of a relationship into a few months.” She makes sense I suppose.

Most couples I know have dated for about a year or so before they even think about marriage. Like Beth and Frankie, they have been going out for nearly 2 years and they have not ever talked about marriage. I text Alex back not expecting to get a reply until later as he is out with the guys, or so he says. See I have doubts. Far too many doubts and can you blame me, he is hot, sexy and his list of woman is god knows how long.

Me – hey handsome. Just finished watching a movie, but didn’t really watch, was talking to Beth about stuff x     and he texts back instantly

Alex – what stuff babe? you ok?

Me – I’m fine, just worrying about things.

Alex – I’m coming over. Be there in 15 minutes, wait for me xxx

I show Beth the messages and she is still saying Alex is changing for me. He wants this to work. She soon gets ready to leave to go meet Frankie. They are both off tomorrow night, so I invite them to the club. Might as well make sure I have a true friend in my corner to help with my stupid brain and Beth is turning out to be so much better than Neve or Lana.

True to his word, Alex turned up 15 minutes later. Just as Beth was leaving she let Alex in and told me she would text me about tomorrow.  We said goodbyes and I locked the door, it’s a habit we’ve had since we got broken into late one night. As soon as one of us leaves we make sure the door is locked.

“Cassie, what’s the matter baby? What’s got you worried?” Alex says as he follows me to the kitchen. I need a drink to get my courage.

I tell him over a bottle of beer as he sits at the breakfast bar and I stand leaning on it. I open my heart like Beth told me to. Everything comes out, in one breath pretty much. I have tears in my eyes but they have not fallen. I am so weak at this relationship crap, I’m totally not cut out to be with someone like Alex. As I was talking, Alex listened, he didn’t interrupt me at all and soon I was in his arms. He lifted me and carried me to the couch, he sat down and made me straddle him. Holding me close.

He pulls out his phone and shows me a folder of pictures that he has in his gallery and I’m utterly shocked that there are loads of pictures of me, various ages, from his cousins wedding to our University days to night out at the club and a couple from the office.

“I have all these pictures, so I can look at what I have been missing. Creepy I know. I may have a history of sleeping around and that, but I am still a one woman man. All those girls before, knew I was not looking for anything else other than what I gave them. They never meant anything, I really have been stupid. I have never dated anyone, I have never let anyone come into my home Cassie. You and my mum are the only women that have walked through my door.  Just ask Ryan, he was fed up of me moping about when you dated that supplier guy, prick that he is. I was so jealous, I even asked Lana and Neve about you all the time. I just couldn’t admit it to myself. You are too good for me. You are a thousand times better than any other girl from my past. You are well out of my league.” He says while cupping my face

“Wow. You got it bad, huh?” I chuckle. He chuckles as well and smashes his lips against mine.  He pulls away first and as he rests his head on my shoulder, I whisper in his ear, “That was some confession, hubby”